feels like a friday but is not

yesterday i was supposed to meet K, but something else showed up, so it was a 'cancel'. and Tiitta has been a bit ill, so im not meeting her tonight either. looks like im just going for a walk with Arttu and relaxing by myself.

the sociological images-blog has once again taken shit a bit too far "facebook needs to know your gender". happens way too often. what happens rarely is that i feel the urge to reply and canNOT not fight it. so i replied something. "OMG one in every million people cannot decide which fuckin gender they are, we need to build non-gender-specific toilets EVERYWHERE. pass a law pls. at least government buildings should respect those that cant fuckin pick. Facebook is SO EVIL and INCONSIDERATE, why cant they just code the whole fuckin shit all over keeping ME in mind". jesus. i think the word "see" should be banned from public use because it offends the blind. and the word "walk" should not be used either, for obvious reasons. and i dont really feel very 'human' at all, my therapist can confirm this, so i think referring to 'people' is discriminating me. and so forth. get a fuckin life.

i think today may be a hair dye day. btw its really discriminating to use a female image on the cover of those hair dye boxes. they should have both genders, but not romantically, that offends gays. then again, there's also the transgenders. could we have a woman, a man, a transsexual and a dog on the cover of every package please? what? that offends whom? so sorry. we'll fix it right away. hang in there. remember take your meds.

im stilling missing the greatness of google wave. what to do with it? i think its useless before i have a zillion contacts.

the makers of Star Wreck- In The Pirkinning are making a new movie; Iron Sky. teaser below. i like the tagline "In 1945 the Nazis fled to the moon. In 2018 they are coming back. " lol


and something about web browsers - very practical real life description

winter arriving

the day was not eventful but yet emotional. i went to the office for 5 hours. tomorrow i need to go for a meeting again, for the sake of 2 hours. but i will get a new web project started so thats good.

i encountered a new tv series, V 2009. its decent enough to watch. House is back too, yay.

i took these on my way to work this morning, and the last one in the afternoon, its from near my home. it was snowing a bit. unfortunately the cam didnt capture the snow flakes so well.





this 'hot tamale'-video is seriously DISTURBING

greetings to Berlin

yesterday's trip to Sysmä was actually 55e... my mom decided to hand me some cash for christmas so that will cover it but nevertheless bloody expensive moving around in finland...

info corner: i was happy to see that nearly half of finns have female bosses, more than in any other EU country.

the 20yr fall of - anniversary reminds me that the Berlin wall thing was quite extraordinary. people are surprisingly fucked up, when u think of it... "hey lets build a wall here..."

today i decided to move from my fall jacket to the winter coat. ive attached gloves (inside mittens9 to the sleeves, and the coat has a hood, which is a great addition to my hat. so now im all winter-ready. it's around 0 celcius lately, but yesterday in 2C i was freezing because my shirt was so thin i guess, i decided it wont happen again.

this reminds me, now that the weather often requires multiple layers of clothing...how a lot of women (feminists or not) have strong feeling towards the sleeveless shirt called "wife beater". the term has taken a life of its won in peoples minds. a few times i have heard sort of criticism or negative attitudes if a male was wearing this. as if this piece of clothing made him a 'wife beater' automatically, or at least someone condoning it. it happens to be a practical thing to wear, and while pop culture has successfully associated it with violent or otherwise no-good behavior, there are a billion or so (literally) men, and women, wearing it that have nothing to do with the term. i dont think a man should need to avoid this "A-shirt" just because of its other nickname. i think it would be the same as if i felt i have to avoid mini skirts to not be labeled as slut. id like to think the length of my skirt has nothing to do with my sexual behavior and resent to someone assuming so (i realize some parts of the world dont bend to my thinking, but im talking about scandinavia here).

i need to start getting rid of extra stuff seriously... planning that home exchange thing is a great reason to. moving would be another. anyway, i started packing some clothes that i never wear. thats a start.

tomorrow i need to go to the office. and wednesday, too. i should meet Tiitta on thursday. and on saturday there is a party in a bar downtown. otherwise the week looks quite easy... not too many things planned.


and yes i wore a this infamous wife beater today while going out, underneath other clothes. i am not sure if my winter coat is registred here yet...so need to showcase it:



















last friday at Arttu's. his friend made warm sandwiches - yummy.

jen at her favorite hobby: planning travels

easy saturday. i got up before noon - yay! miss R came over in the evening and we put together a tasty salad and relaxed. i had one cider. my only one this week - i might add. quite remarkable considering ive been sitting in bars and restaurants all week almost. i must say its kind of boring to have diet coke after another in a bar though. i remember the times when it was all i ever had, but times indeed change.

anyway... i seem to have work very nicely until the end of the year which is great. i am hoping (still) to go somewhere for a bit in december, and then somewhere in january, for a longer period hopefully. not sure yet where that should be. i am obsessing over istanbul still, and why shouldnt i, but i am considering other things too. anyway, i am now talking to a girl in Tel Aviv, Israel, about switching homes with her and her friend. everyones asking "why Tel Aviv??". why not? why not Dubai? why not ANY place that is within cheap airfare? Rome? Kosovo? Reykjavik? i just went on a whim and looked at homes in Tel Aviv and thats all :) Israel is historically interesting area too...and politically...well i dont have to go there do i? but i guess with my opinions about everything, i wouldnt mind getting a view of what people there think and so forth... we'll see if this works out, i hope so!

also i just remembered my old friend from school is working in Moscow atm. he was online in FB and i asked until how long is he there. i would like to visit Moscow but preferably of course when there are as many of my friends as possible... there is that girl i met in Portugal whom i wanna photograph. but meeting Jari (and his wife) would be great. and he just said there is a couch for me...:) makes things a lot easier...


mom called me today. wanted to remind about the Father's Day tomorrow...so that i would call my stepfather. she is always reminding me about these things but sometimes i still forget. and she wanted to go through her funeral plans again, she is a bit stressed about some surgery she is now waiting for. having been under anesthesia so many times and with some lung trouble they are considering it a risky operation. so. anyway, i started thinking that the pre-christmas season is really busy often with parties in the weekends so i decided to go visit them tomorrow. then i have it taken care of for a few months... wow that sounds bad? its just that 3h in a bus/direction and 54euros is kind of a turn off. not something i like to do too often.


sugar coated quote:
"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened."
-Dr Seuss

heikotusta

näin ohimennen jonkun sivun reunassa mainoksen "raskaustestit halvalla!" tms. no hitto, pitäsköhän osta isompi satsi kerralla? :D en tiiä mutta luulis että siinä vaiheessa kun noita kaivataan niin ei ole aikaa odotella postitoimituksia. hmm, huomasin juuri langenneeni ajatukseen että nämä on aina kiireellisiä tapauksia. onhan niitäkin kun testailee joka kuukausi kun odottaa sitä toivottua jälkikasvua...ehkä silloin laatikollinen noita halvalla netistä ei olekaan niin huono idea. hyvä on, lasken sarkasmini alas.

pitäs tehdä uuteen lemppariuutissivuuni (Ampparit) sikainfluenssa-filtteri. en jaksais enää yhtää sitä messuamista.

heikkona hetkenä eilen soitin arkkitehdille. vaikka nyt on mennyt ihan hyvin. ei olla oltu yhteyksissä paljoa ja kun ollaan niin aika pinnallisen kevyissä merkeissä, välttelen sujuvasti vaikeita aiheita ja pidän coolini. puhuttiin mm tosta mun kämppä-vaihto inspiksestä ja se sanoi että kas kun voisit tulla vaikka tänne hänen kotikaupunkiinsa joksikin aikaa. sanoin että en tiennytkään että se halusi moista. se sanoi että eihän se aina haluakaan. niin, tässä päästään taas juonen ytimeen. tänään tätä, huomenna jotain muuta. ei pysty enää. "inspiroiduin" eli hiillyin taas ja meinasin pistää hillittömät avautumismailit perään, mutta olen ainakin toistaiseksi onnistunut pitämään itseilmaisuni ihan itselläni. kirjoittelen tekstejä joita en lähetä. vellon siinä. normilauantai siis.

surfing the webster

besides working some, i slept through the day. Sebastian quickly visited and returned my hat which i forgot at his place last friday. that was pretty much it...

i didnt even take any pics with my new cam today. just been sitting by the computer... looking through these 'home exchange' sites... building master plans and whatnot amazing ideas. i wonder how far that will fly...

very impressive treehouse
Darth Vader conducting Icelandic orchestra
rock giants in the Urals
rap in 30 languages - a pretty nice video
monday morning - lol
full body floss... OMG :D
Hitler's Xbox

Kev is back from his month long trip in China & Mongolia. and Miriam is in Stockholm right now, for some UN or feminist org conference. so close! but so far. i couldnt find a decently cheap way to go there now so no meeting :(

2.0 - my lucky number

OMG THE BEST IDEA EVER. so i was on this date. was nice etc. BUT! as i told him about my desperate need to go somewhere for a while, work from abroad etc. he suggested i try home swap! YES! why didnt i think of it before! i dunno what the 'market' is like but at a quick glance its very doable. i checked a couple sites and there are indeed flats everywhere in the world. well, i actually just checked europe/moscow/turkey for now... i cant afford to fly too far atm. how awesome of an idea? i could totally do that. it DOES mean i need to clean up a little here... "a little". but, its not a bad excuse to clean if i get to stay somewhere for free :)

sooooo where am i going? we'll see... just today i mentioned this working abroad -scenario to my boss,and i suppose she felt it went quite well last time and she supported my idea. in fact she said its a great idea :D i do have my other job as well, more website projects... just today i heard i probably have work in that segment until the end of the year, which is great news, financially and otherwise. but im pretty sure its okay by that boss as well if my physical being disappears for a while.

and as if that wasn't enough good stuff for the day, i finally got myself a new pocket camera :) the old one was falling into pieces, several faults making use difficult. what happened was: i bought one on monday actually. Panasonic Lumix DMC-TZ7. i tend to do my research well and avoid mishaps. however, today i returned it and got a Canon PowerShot S90 instead. and i was a Lumix evangelist! so how did this happen? i went to the store, with my other options in mind, and asked for help from the staff. i used to sell cameras back in...long time ago...so i can appreciate a good camera sales person. what makes them good is they find whats right for YOU. i was really locked into the lumix triangle (FX550, ZX1...), and the suggestion of this Canon threw me off guard. but how right he was... i can say its not perfect, but very close... this feeling is what i was looking for . i knew that my uneasiness with the TZ7 was abnormal. something just wasnt right.

so what was wrong with TZ7?
-bulky size. i thought i could get over it...but i couldnt. no way was it gonna fit in my pocket.
-protruding things...selection wheel, lens...
-aperture starting at 3.3
-the auto shoot mode did not have the 640x480 size option which is what i always use
-the usb port was with some weird ass plug again...HDMI mini maybe...whatever...another cord needed just for this camera...
-shoots .MOV files
-going from play mode to shoot mode requires the switch of a button (typically pressing shutter is enough)

yes, TZ7 could zoom while in video mode (big plus). and its zoom went all the way to 300mm. not that i was ever gonna use it. and the video was whatever super HD new tech format... but i dont care for any of that. the downsides were simply too much. after shooting there was also weirdly long 'processing' breaks. and although somewhat similar to my previous Lumix, the UI was a bit off and slow.


what is right with Canon S90 then? (nice gizmodo review)
-APERTURE 2.0 - thats TWO-POINT-ZERO!
-size. only a mm here or there bigger than my old baby
-form...very stylish and smooth, dare i say - lumixy?
-familiar UI, as i have used a Canon compact before
-the new parts of the UI were very innovative and its super nice to use! fast!
-very handy 'ring' around lens to adjust almost anything (like all manual settings)
-great noise reduction
-very nice quality photos (not what i can say for Lumix FX550)

some might add to the list RAW format and whatnot, but thats not important for me when it comes to a compact cam. i just want
1) decent quality in 2) 640x480 (and often DARK conditions!)
3) wide angle
4) compact stylish package, and
5) practical & fast user interface and plugs etc.

u'd think its not a lot to ask and would cost less than 429e though...hmm... MUCH more than i was prepared to pay. but this was the right camera for me. i had to make an executive decision and swipe the card.

but if S90 is not perfect, then what is wrong with it?
-shoots .MOV (like almost every cam out there)
-wide angle starts at 28mm, not 24mm...

and i think thats it. oh and its not called Lumix with the word Leica embroidered all over... but im going to have to forgive that. Canon has served me so well all these year in my DSLR career, i dont regret my jump on the Leica bandwagon but maybe it was time to return home.

all black and smooth....S90:

bigger than a make up sponge. about the width of a lip gloss tube :)

the bulky (but great for a videographer) Lumix TZ7:


tonight at William K, nearby bar which i like;


and outside William K at around 22:30, the first (somewhat permanent) snow this winter :)

these days

blah, blah and blah. not the best of days. not worst either. ive just got a few things i need to decide. think.

House seems to be on some weird break again, so im not getting my weekly fix. damn!!!

this art(?) almost blinds me. technically. not artistically.

FB ja influenssa aiheuttavat päänvaivaa

lehdet uutisoi kilpaa jostain sikainfluenssa-rokote-jonotus-ohituksista... tulee mieleen ne maailmanlopunelokuvat joissa ihmiset tappelee verissäpäin jostain elintärkeästä lääkkeestä tai vedestä... kyse on kuitenkin jumalauta influenssasta - koitetaan nyt pitää jotain perspektiiviä tässä. montakohan ihmistä viimesenkin puolen vuoden aikana on kuollut ihan vaikka perussyöpään, sydänkohtaukseen, keuhkoahtaumatautiin ja tulipaloon? sikainfluenssan uhriluvut ovat näkyvästi otsikoissa - YKSI. että vedetään vähän henkeä välillä.

rokotteen sivuvaikutukset järkyttävät myös kansan syviä rivejä kovasti - on lämpöä ja kipeää kättä. miltähän se itse influenssa tuntuu sitten? varmaan tosi iisi? se on ikävää kun KAIKKEA EI VOI SAADA ja mikään ei kelpaa. jonotetaan hiki otsalla rokotetta mutta sen sivuvaikutukset ovat täysin epäinhimillisiä... on se elämä vaikeeta. onneksi ei ole isompia vaivoja joista nillittää.

stockmann avaa verkkokaupan. kiva kiva. odotan mielenkiinnolla. akateemisen online-kauppa on jo pelastanut päivän useamman kerran, vaikkei olekaan teknisesti mitenkään järisyttävä. en muista mikä suomalaisessa oli vikana, olivat varmaan myöhemmin netissä tai jotain muuta paskaa. muistan myös että hintavertailussa akateeminen voittaa yleensä.

viime viikonlopun juhlista sen verran vielä että perjantaina kokeilen ekaa kertaa jotain 'taistelupeliä'. Tekken 6 oli kovassa käytössä Sebastianin olkkarissa ja jossain vaiheessa ohjain tietysti työnnettiin mulle. mietin siinä että Bassen bileissä on vähän silleen 'ulkomailla' että tulee usein kokeiltua ihan uusia juttuja. osa vieraista on samoja mutta paljon vaihtuukin - mutta se erilaisuuden tunne on jännästi läsnä. en tapaa samoja tyyppejä missään muualla - lähinnä vanginvartijoita ja jotain bjj-vääntäjiä. tai muuten vaan ihan eri alojen ihmisiä. niin sit keskustelut on aika erilaisia kuin yleensä mun normipäivänä. se on virkistävää. ja en ollut Tekken superstatra - ylläri. painoin nappeja kyllä hämilläni mutta viimeistään siinä vaiheessa kun vastustajan eukko otti päänsä irti ja alko hakkaa mun hahmoo sillä - olin pihalla.

VV:n synttäreillä oli ekstra ilonaihetta koska sankari ja poikaystävänsä ovat menneet kihloihin. ja oli tosi makeet erikoiset sormukset! iloni pariskunnan puolesta oli vilpitöntä. me oltiin neiti R:n kanssa tehty yks viihdelehdenkansi silleen että VV:n kuva siinä Spockin paikalla, kun siinä olis siis Kirk & Spock. siitä tuli ihan hauska - harmi ettei sitä nyt voi tähän työntää. väännettiin myös isohko kokoelma turkkipoppia kasaan. siinä meidän lahjukset.

jee Hercules-seurani viime perjantailta kutsui mut johonkin syöminki-tilaisuuteen Savottaan huomenna. en olekaan ollut siellä ennen.

tänään pitäs nähdä Paavoa. parille Mascottiin siis. mietin kyllä jos vaan limua... joo. näillä mennään.

ihmisillä on ihme meininki nykyään FB:n & kuvien kanssa. jengi postaa kaikista kavereistaan kaikki mahdolliset kuvat bileistä jne sinne - ja tägää vielä varmuuden vuoksi että varmasti kaikille asianomaisten kavereille myös tiedotettaisiin. olen jo kauan sitten muuttanut asetuksia niin ettei suurin osa kavereista nää musta tägättyjä kuvia. mutta sen ei pitäisi olla tarpeen. mitäs jos mä rupeisin uppaa kaikki bile ym kuvat fb:seen...tägien kera...missä kohta joku älähtäisi? ai miten niin oli ajattelematonta postaa sun känniörvellykset ja homoeroottiset seikkailut kaikkien kaveriesi (ja työkaverien ja sukulaisten...) nähtäville? se on kiva että FB:ssä on tuo mahdollisuus tehdä valokuvakansioita mutta hei se on vitun julkinen internetti. vaikka rajatulle joukolle teoriassa mutta se on aika teoreettista tosiaan - mistä lähtien ihmisillä ei ole ollut mitään kontrollia siihen millaisia kuvia niistä julkaistaan? nimenomaan JULKAISTAAN. se kuva-albumi kirjahyllyssä tai tietokoneella on ihan eria asia kuin FB. jengi on niin netti-illiteratee vielä ettei tajua mitä tekee. prkl. en kohta enää suostu kameran eteen ja olen ilonpilaaja.

yritän valita uutta kohtuuhintaista pokkarikameraa....ei oo helppoa.

things change. but not for me.

so the weekend rolled by fast. i had an early wake up on friday to go help miss R moving. she moved to Haaga, maybe about 6km's from me. the new flat is in the 3rd floor, so i got some exercise. but i dont think my talent is in the moving business... :D

the new place is nice though, a lot of light, enough for one person for sure.













Sebastian had one of his notorius parties that night, starting at 4pm so i went straight there. had a very good time and found myself in the gay bar Hercules at 2m. i had never been there before, but it was as described. only a couple women besides me, and a hundred guys - no one interested in me one bit. which is nice for change.














Hercules



















i slept so late today i shouldnt need more sleep for a week... as far as new tv series findings go... oh well. Whitechapel and Being Erica are alright - but not amazing by any means.

the trailer for Love is visually pleasing, and the music by Angels and Airwaves is good. nice trailer to look at.

new week ahead. i wonder if its the same as previous. and the one before that...

halloween

parrrrty. last night. tonight.

tiring. i must be getting old - as stupid as the phrase sounds it may be true.

featured machinery

i met interesting people today, i came to the office today to attend a meeting with a finnish portal. i knew the site but was curious to get the insight in how they work, stats, plans etc. very user oriented cool stuff. i think i became a fan.

this weekend is DigiExpo - self explanatory - but i concluded that its mostly interesting for HiFi people, not so much the web-geek such as me. i was given a ticket though so i would have the option of going if i found the time/interest. perhaps on sunday.

man made creations have been catching my attention lately. when going to work, i often admire the headquarters of Kone (the elevator company). its not that its so special in general, a simple block, using glass and wood that u can see through, still looking quite light i think... but the side well visible from the road shows 4 elevator shafts. i don't know why, but i think it looks especially nice. and i doubt its not an accident. google's 3D model shows it nicely, as does this article.

i thought Sebastian's party on friday is a birthday party, i have a vague feeling his birthday was a few weeks ago (thanks, FB), but turns out it's "just ordinary hang around party where all you need to do is look good" :D. what a relief, no need to worry about a present. i suck with presents.

this Nokia testlab video was interesting.

i ordered kitty magnets from dA the other day (shipping was FREEE! :D). now i just sit on my ass anxiously waiting for them to arrive. its been a while since i grew my kitty magnet collection. i cant wait to move to a bigger flat and buy a bigger fridge - the door of this one is getting alarmingly full.

the nightmare brunette - blog has some nice pics every here and there. worth following i believe.

päivän media&mainos katsaus - ilman oikolukijaa kuten aina

ärsyttää toi kaupallisuus ja pakkotyrkyttäminen... päädyin jonkun linkin kautta MTV3:n Helmi-sivuille, jossa joku meikkitaiteilija jakelee vinkkejä lukijoiden kysymyksiin. kaikkeen tuntui olevan ratkaisu Nivea kun silmäilin. no ihmekös tuo, kun Helmi on diilannut yhteistyön Nivean kanssa, se löytyy yläpalkin valikosta ja sivusta mainoksina. löytyy jos jonkinlaista Nivea-kilkettä. mainokset on mainoksia, mutta kun naamioidaan se asiasisällöksi niin mulla alkaa keittää. "mulla on mustat silmänaluset/ryppyinen iho/kuivat jalkapohjat..." "kokeile Niven uutta SUPERDUPER magic brush peniä - se on todella kätevä!". jee.

Ifolorin mainoksen näyttö vaikuttaa lupaavalta. vähän koodia ja hienosti skaalattu. mainoslauseena oli ojtain isän yllättämisestä lahjalla. isä voiskin yllättyy kun saat näytön tommoseen kuntoon.

itsensä aktivoiva

meni sunnuntaina sitten vähän tv-sarjojen katsomisen puolelle. venyi maanantaille asti oikeestaan. ja sit piti tehdäkin jo töitä. ei ehkä mikään yllätys että tipuin töiden jälkeen täysin. nukuin jonku 15h... mun vaan piti nähdä Paavo maanantaina, sitä ei nyt sit tapahtunut, mutta oli mulla ollu kello soimassa ja onnistuin lähettää jonku unisen sekavan pyynnön että siirretään vähän...en kehdannut kirjoittaa syytä, mutta tässähän se nyt on.

tänään sit ehkä vähän virkeempi päivä? vois vaikka syödä jotain vaihteeksi, se jäi eilen välistä.

pyykitkin pitäs hoitaa.

neiti R muuttaa tällä viikolla Helsinkiin päin, hurraa! voi olla että kutsun itseni kylään välillä... jos ei muuta niin halvempaa ainakin vierailla kun ei tarvii seutulippua kustantaa... lupasin mennä perjantaina auttaa muutossa. siitä sit Sebastianin bileisiin. ja lauantaina on VV:n synttärit. on varannut läheisestä ravintolasta yksityistilaisuuden, eli on kai isomatkin juhlat. tai ainakin päheet.

tällä viikolla olis kai se halloween leffa-juttu, mikä se oli, Night Vision? mutta en ole moneen vuoteen saanut mentyä ja tämä vuosi tuskin on poikkeus siitä.

miks kaikki sarjat tuntuu olevan jollain vikkotauolla hä?

the screen has my attention

i just realized i really wanna go to Salt Lake City, Utah. i know it wont happen anytime soon. but anyways.

oh i just found a new series (White Collar)...but my enthusiam was cut short. only pilot done so far. grrr. the main guy is SOOOO hot, so smart, so charming. a player. smart player. ohhhohhhoh.

another interesting one is Defying Gravity. space stuff is interesting. i should watch the movie Moon.

some other movies that seem interesting but are not out yet are Uncertainty, parallel universes and the question of what consequences our acts abnd choices have always fascinates me. Until the Light Takes Us is a documentary about black metal, shot in Norway (where else - hehe). the trailer is kind of interesting, we have some of this culture here so it seems interesting. The Flying Scissors might be amusing as well...

escapism, anyone?

who's gonna save...

i found that the Lonely Island member Jorma Taccone was in this Gnarls Barkley video; Who's Gonna Save My Soul. great video really :)

i was amused by this pic of Linus Torvalds as well...:)

and this book; On The Life And Death Of Languages by Claude Hagége, seems interesting. im not generally too much into dying species and all that...but languages are interesting. i wonder what it feels like to be the last one to speak a certain language? it will disappear with you.

been listening to Jon Hopkins today... (youtube search). i especially love the song Wider Sun.

i found some cool new blogs to follow too, and through one, this article on 'future of architecture'. interesting thoughts. one of the cool blogs was Atlas Obscura, featuring interesting places around the world. many are classics that everyone heard of, but the Aokigahara suicide forest in Japan for example was a new thing for me. i think next time i go to Istanbul i should check the Basilica Cisterns...

which brings me to the fact that if i was going anywhere later this year (december i think), i should make some decisions and plans now. i am feeling so restless... and im not planning a vacation really, just working from somewhere else again. i should really see the Istanbul thing through, ive just been rather upset that i havent heard anything regarding the job thing, and ive been too passive and tired to write anyone and ask whats up... and the whole thing with that guy i met, its still an open wound. i should probably go elsewhere to let it heal. but so then what about my job prospects, am i giving up on them? no, i wouldnt want to. i should get my shit together and wake up and be active and do something about this...

i got a confirmation that i have more project work until the end of november at least, some word website stuff, updating and so forth. financially important info.

bunnehs are worth featuring

OMG MY BUNNY PHOTO WAS AT DAILYBUNNY.ORG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
http://dailybunny.org/post/221014673/original-via

that makes me so happy. to share the bunnularness with the world...ohhh.

i saw the movie Loft today. which was great. i recommend it. really. after that i went to a party which was cool. i met photographers etc. we went to a karaoke bar tho...eh. but the movie... yea, all men cheat. esp. the ambitioous ones, i think. why i know? exactly... ive come to find this out...all on myself :)

i wouldnt normally link to a style blog (i think) but this one, fro africa, looks interesting; blackcigarette, mostly by Chris Saunders

mennään eikä meinata

mitvit... mun kalenterissa ei oo mitää huomiselle? hyvä asia kai... mut oli sellai tosi buukattu fiilis? väistämättähän tulee sellai olo et on unohtanut jotain... -> huono. tänään olis parikin jutskaa...eli pitää tehdä valintoja :(

fiilistelen Flash Forwardin uusinta jaksoa... kuolevaisuus ja valinnat ja vaikutusmahdollisuudet elämään kiehtovat keskinkertaisesta näyttelystä ja yleisestä uskottavuuden puutteesta huolimatta.

tulin siihen tulekseen ettän kestä anteeksipyyteleviä (olemassaoloaan, itseään) tai itsesäälisiä ihmisiä. jälkimmäiseen tosin vajoaa itse kukin aina välillä (...?) mutta yrittäs sit pitää mölyt mahassaan eikä rasittaa muita niillä ellei sitä pyydetä.

päätin etten tee valintoja illan ohjelman suhteen vaan ehdin joka paikkaan. tai ainakin yritän. ja sovin huomenna tapaavani neiti R:ää kun sillä on muutenkin Helsingin kaupunkiin asiaa.