July 28, 2016

just Bachelorette stuff

Facebook is suggesting i follow Kylie Jenner's page. i am in the understanding that she is one of the Kardashians. although i am not sure cos then why the F is her surname 'Jenner'. not that all kids need to have the same surname but they usually do...  but i dont really care.

so this season of Bachelorette is disappointing me a bit. i know Jojo will pick the hot player, and i think it will go down in flames. i do understand its like a game, most people want to start a career and become a minor celebrity, its just a theatre that is played, but im certain some people have some genuine feelings too. viewers, including me, are upset she dropped Luke. i mean, yeah, he seemed great but i guess she had her reasons. maybe its that he lives in the countryside, maybe the producers told her that if she isnt sure she wants him, to drop him now, so they can start grooming him to be the next Bachelor. i certainly hope its Luke rather than Chase...  i dont think they'll pick the 2nd runner up 2 times in a row (=Robbie, i assume). actually my preference would be to find a new face to star as Bachelor, but its already become a standard to pick someone from within the francise, i guess i just have to accept it. meanwhile, today i will watch the Men Tell All episode, go see Tarzan with doctor hopefully. so im getting an extra dose of abs and testosterone in hollywood packaging.

last night i browsed Bachelor/ette related books at Amazon. there are a few books written by past contestants. I read one a couple months ago, by Courtney Robertson, it was okay. now i noticed 2 of the books (by Sean and Emily) are published by HarperCollins Christian Publishing. umm what? okay Sean is a born again Christian, and the book apparently really underlines that, but then i read the summary of Emily's book and it goes: 
"Overcome with embarrassment following her nationally televised failures at romance, Emily finally committed her heart to the only one she knew would never leave her empty and alone. Abandoning her desire to be chosen by men and finding peace in the fact that she was already chosen by God, Emily found the joy she had been looking for in serving God."
that just makes me throw up in my mouth a little :/ i have the same reaction to religion as some do for reality tv :D her book has received good reviews but inserting god here and there really turns me off. so im not sure i can read either of these. also, they are still too expensive (9-17 usd) to be worth it, light entertainment should be cheap...   Andi's book has received scathing reviews. she was an interesting Bachelorette, but apparently her book is just a bitter hate fest with generic to bad advice (she recommends 'hate sex with ex'), and she calls herself a feminist :(

oh and the 4th season of Married at First Sight is starting! woohoo! a bit less of a game, more reality.

July 17, 2016

little getaway


me and doctor decided to take a long weekend off and head out of the city, from all the craziness. such a cliche but it really helped. doctor had deserved his vacation and for me it was good to get out of the house and my head for a bit. we headed to Özdere, near Izmir, to an all inclusive hotel. 7h drive more less. nothing fancy, just a very basic place but with the food, drinks, pool and beach. what also helped was getting some good news while there. the date for defending doctors thesis was confirmed, its tomorrow. yay for that. also different sources (police, university) are saying that one working for the government can acquire this or that kind of paper, enabling them to exit the country legally.in september doctor should have graduated and it shouldnt be necessary as he won't officially be working for the gov anymore, but in turkey nothing is certain, so...you better cover all angles. and even now, a lot can happen in a month. but it gave us hope that there are proper channels in dealing with the 'exit' problem...

 looks like lunch.
 me and dctor chilling.
 pool area.
 the quiet and shadowy end of the beach. stony too, but only in the beginning. the water was wonderfully clear and shallow for at least a 100m. perfect.
 beach.

doctor in the sea. he was probably a dolphin in previous life. 

sunset!
next to the hotel there the military's holiday resort. i saw families there too. one day as we were chilling on our sun beds near the fence wall, 3 guys were trying to escape, the fence only goes into the water a few meters...  it looks like it's so easy...  poor guys were stopped by a guard like this. in a few minutes a motor boat came over - obviously planning to pick those guys up, had their escape been successful. i have no idea what happened to the escaping soldiers but im sure nothing good. considering there are repor....rumors of torture and rape taking place after the arrests of a lot of people (who's counting anymore?). aaaanyway im just gonna keep low profile, wanting to get out alive and all...

view from the balcony. 

random turkish scenery. 

Ataturk statue carved into rock, kind of like Mount  Rushmore...  i felt like profile pic would do it the most justice, its not as lookalike as one would hope. this one is near izmir - and really makes you raise your eye brows in "wtf".

another pretty majestic Ataturk statue. located on a hill by a small town. 

on a car ferry heading to istanbul




my bf is listening to 40's musicals (instead of his usual black metal stuff), i think he might have hit his head too hard on the pool bottom. the bump in his forehead doesnt look too bad though. he had some birthmarks removed over a week ago and one of the wounds opened during the holiday too - had to get him re-stiched on our way back. and i got a weird crack on the sole of my foot that aches. holidays are rough.

i decided to try the following series:
Marcella. verdict: yes! love lady detectives
Stranger Things. verdict: Stephen King horror...  im over it, unfortunately
The Night Of. verdict: might make me anxious or uncomfortable but i want to try

Bosphorus bridge is now: 15 July Martyrs' Bridge. there, we woke up these news this morning. 
hotel being built in kadiköy, near a famously smelly creek
chemical castration regulation introduced to sex offenders in turkey
Turkey investigating people who say coup attempt was a hoax

uncertainty in the air

sunday has started like any other sunday. the city moves on. yesterday FB was full of lynching videos and photos - now that stuff does make me sick. army clashing with the police is one thing, but when civilians turn on to each other (given guns by the police and AKP offices, i was told) its at another level. doctor too witnessed this behavior and the results at the hospital. he finally returned home last night and i was just glad to hold him. i dont feel like he is in danger at the hospital but he had been on shift since friday morning and with all this happening, i did miss him.

yesterday the mosques were also calling people out to the streets, to celebrate the victory/ to support the nation - i cant decipher the singing of the muezzin so i rely on what im told. normally i dont hear the prayer call, but suddenly when its more often and at unusual times, i register, knowing its not normal. people (me too) got sms from either The State or R.T. Erdogan himself calling us to gather at squares in the evening, to celebrate etc. so secular people would stay inside pretty much.

today there are reports about religious people (mostly) verbally attacking seculars, attacking minority neighborhoods. its messy so its hard to tell exactly what is going on, but the pious people now feel like the have the mandate to express their anger on the seculars. if the president has wanted to divide the country, he has done an exemplary job... 

suddenly 2 months seems like a long time. made a computer back up today and finished packing one box of stuff.

Citylab: Istanbul, the Day After by another expat

July 16, 2016

eerily quiet new day in turkey

....after what i would call a very "kuumottava" night. meaning uncomfortable, anxiety-filled. way over my comfort zone. i was at my friends bbq on the other side of kadiköy when someone was looking at their phone and said that the military has closed the first Bosporus bridge. thats odd, especially turks know to get concerned over something like that. i was still hoping its just related to a terrorism threat. but then we started getting messages from friends and the news started to unfold, thats there is a coup. over this time, the traffic on that street pretty much died, and doctor also messaged me that there are soldiers on streets and i should go home. felt like a good idea and i got home. i saw everyone on their phones and leaving bars at that time. military imposed martial law and curfew. i got home and saw people queuing to the shops, buying water and whatever food they could. i also popped out to get cash, water and some food. facebook was slowed down and twitter totally blocked. turkish news gave contradicting information and i relied on friends messaging what they saw on foreign media and what doctor told me. he was told way early in the night that he wouldnt be going home today, instead they called more doctors on shift. and all hands were needed because plenty of wounded and dead were brought to the hospital all night. doctor just went to bed now in the morning that things calmed down. i hope he gets to come home soon, although whats the point, he has yet another 24h shift tomorrow morning?

ppl queuing to buy food in a nearby store.


i can say i did not sleep well. only 54 days into our move, and the airport is suddenly closed and future feels uncertain. i woke up to jets flying close above, and bomb and gun like sounds further away, but i dunno what exactly was going on. and wasnt about to find out. the mosque was loudly giving extra calls to prayer or calling people to the streets. but im glad i insisted on sleeping, because i woke up to a very quiet Kadiköy. the quietest ever. no cars, no people. and there were the first rumours out that it was over. doctor messaged me that there were no more wounded people coming in and that he could go to sleep. then little by little i saw people on the street, the kiosk opened, pharmacy opened. by now ive seen a couple cars and motorbikes. i bet everyone will be on their toes for a while. i...just want to get safely out of this country.

Vox summs up the situation in less than 500 words.

yesterday i wrote;

NYTimes on Erdogan sculpting a new Turkey. nothing new perhaps but well written.


doctor finally got his 2nd family permit for going to UK (we waited for 3 weeks for this one). the old one would have been valid while we were going but its nice to have it cover several months. its just a permission to enter, not like you have to leave when it expires. EU law gives him the right to enter, stay and work, but UK has just made things a little more complicated... 

July 09, 2016

jenni tours

Avner & Elmor are coming here today for a short visit from London. i kept begging them to come see istanbul while we are still here and it worked!!

i think i need to see the Tarzan movie. this review written after a couple wines encourages me further.

i checked out this tv show called Preacher this week. it was....interesting. really out there. its based on a comic, which may explain. im not sure if i liked it or not (quite). i might watch another episode just to confirm. but i did find it different and intriguing. the series im currently following include Motive, Murder in the First, Arranged, Ultimate Fighter and The Amazing Race Canada. series on my To Check list are: Braindead and The Girlfriend Experience.

got my dental guide a couple weeks ago. yay. im not sure if its helping with my jaw ache because the problem is very on-off, but time will show.
the other week i wanted to consult a local lawyer about the turkish law as i have been struggling on what do with my taxes. my status and an emigrant is seemingly permanent so so i was wondering what would happen if i was taxable here for whatever i earned this year or so...    in a foreigners FB group someone recommended a lawyer named Davut. i called him to ask for a short consultation. he got back to me telling that their tax specialist would be happy to consult, he will translate since the other guy doesnt speak english, and they would do it pro bono. surprising? yes. i think its cos my income is not that high, although its good by turkish standards, but maybe in lawyer-world im still not worth charging anything :D so i went to their office and met with them and i got some of the information i was looking for. i am now applying for "tax examption" from finland starting september. i dont want to take the slightest risk of dealing with the turkish tax authorities. but i would like to start paying taxes in the UK.
 Tiitta & her OH were here for a short visit one last time. this is Tiitta with a kitty who is into motorbiking.
 picnic at Caddebostan seaside. 
its always relaxing there with a lot of young people. you can almost feel like you are in europe....heh.
 the park cop! very cute.
 we went for a breakfast with a view last sunday. this restaurant was in anadoluhisari. 
 Viktor Levi mezes.  to be honest their unchanging menu is getting to menu, i really wouldnt go there anymore if it wasnt for the wonderful ambience, great service and good, affordable wine. the mezes are good, but jesus, ive had them so many times!

kitty guarding Karga bar entrance. 

Bomonti beer "installation" (=ad) on a bar wall. 

Ayi bar chain has started to produce their own bear too. here they advertise it on their wall. 

 kadiköy's moda seaside, with its native cats.


my standard breakfast. finnish rye bread, some margarin and a microwaved egg. with salt and pepper. perfect. 

July 07, 2016

iloa tuova materia

olen lukenyut näitä "Konmari" juttuja nyt, tai niitä tulee vastaan jostain syystä. kai tää on joku trendi, fengshui on jo out? voin allekirjoittaa sen että turhaa tavaraa kannattaa heittää pois (=kierrättää tms), mutta ihan sen verran kuin miltä tuntuu. mä olen kova keräilijä joten mulle tuntuu vieraalta ruveta ihan tosi askeettiseksi. enkä ole varma saisinko siitä hirveesti energiaa ja uusia ruokailutottumuksia kuten jotkut kuvailee... ehkä se on taas näitä "kukin tavallaan". nyt kun karsin kamojani muuttoa varten niin osittain se on ihan hyväntuulista puuhaa, luopua jutuista jotka on roikkuneet nurkissa, mutta on siinä kans paljon vaikeaa. joistain asioista ei haluais luopua koska ne on muistoja ja muistot tuo lähinnä iloa. ja kaikki se kama mitä pakkasin laatikoihin ja johonkin varastoon suomesta lähtiessä? haluun ne edelleen takas! toki siel on paljon sit vaatteita ym. mistä tässä vaiheessa vois luopua, ja kunhan pääsen niihin käsiks niin teen sen, mutta paljon oli oikeasti "tärkeitä" juttuja. ja vaatteita jotka tuo iloa. mulla on niitä iloa tuovia vaatteita aika paljon.

se mikä tuottaa iloa ni on mun mies, ainakin suurimman osan aikaa. se oli eilen kotosalla kun kävin suihkussa ni pyysin tulee seuraks, et istuu jakkaralla suihkukopin ulkopuolella ni voidaan jutskaa. pidän sit suihkukopin ovee auki. se keksi kaivaa jostain kaapista jalkarasvan ja otti mun jalan ja sain sit jalkahierronnat. sen jälkeen kovettumien raspaus... ylläri jalkahoito <3 nbsp="" p="">
nyt eletään taas niit päiviä et oikea käsi vihoittelee liiasta hiirenkäytöstä. teen töitä on/off vasemmalla...jos se vähän helpottas.

hesarissa oli "puolilääkärin" mielipide. on se rankkaa kun ei ole päässyt pääsykokeista läpi ja on pitänyt mennä ulkomaille ja nyt kun palaa kesken kaiken niin ei pääsekään jatkamaan suomessa siitä mihn ulkomailla jäi. sehän olisikin oiva keino pääst suomessa lääkikseen tai mihin tahansa kouluun, hanki opiskelupaikka ulkomailta, mene sinne hetkeksi, tule sitten takas suomeen ja vaadi saada jatkaa suomessa. mä luulen että sitä kutsuttaisiin porsaanreiäksi...  jos tyyppi suomessa nyt pääsis lääkiksee ni varmaa jotain niitä ulkomaanopintoja hyväksiluettais, ettei tarvis nollasta aloittaa. ainakin jos opiskeli EU:ssa. mutat sehän ei ole ongelma vaan ettei tyyppi kai edelleenlään pääse pääsykokeista läpi. hän toivoo että asiaan tulisi parannus jotta suomen kaikista puolilääkäreistä saataisiin ihan valmistuneita lääkäreitä. montakohan tuollaisia tapauksia oikeasti on??? kyllä se koulu on käytävä kuitenkin loppuun, se on varmaan selvää. eikä sitä rimaa pitäs tarvii laskee sillä että "ai sä opiskelit indokiinassa, no sitten, tästä sivuovesta vaan sisään...". jos olisi ulkomailla valmistunut, niin sittenhän reitti olisi selvä, oli sitten suomalainen tai ulkkis, siinä on pari koetta (ja suomenkielen koe jos ulkkis). sääliksi kävi myös kun tyyppi on suomesta lähtiessä "luopunut sosiaalisista suhteista" ja varoistaan jotta voisi opiskella ulkomailla. monille se on kuitenkin aika hyvä kokemus että PÄÄSEE ulkomaille, et edes on varaa sellaiseen. suomen suhteita voi halutessaan pitää yllä - on se multa joten kuten jo 6 vuotta onnistunut. aika uskomaton tyyppi, sanon vaan. 

June 27, 2016

with friends

mondays are a bit slow for me. i mean getting into the work groove...  takes me half a day. im trying to figure out how to speed it up but its challenging. and this is the week after Brexit, not super motivating from any angle... 

i watched 2 movies recently; A Perfect Day and The Family Fang. both were interesting in their own way. the first one had only strong male characters, the women were thin stereotypes. but its a good film about NGO's trying to help and do their thing in warzones. not that im a specialist. Family Fang was a sort of drama comedy, entertaining with a fun story but with boring end.

the violent attack at a "Radiohead bar" here in istanbul was just near my friends place, and the place owned buy a friend of a friend. a few of the recent events here have hit close to home. i still remain emotionally unaffected, i dont know is my selfishness or my heart just made of stone, but on another level i acknowledge it and it serves as a reminder of why we want to pay £800 for a room in London, while we pay £500 for a 120sqm flat here.

i have serious sleeping issues lately. i am often tired after working hours and after 9 or 10pm i feel like i could definitely sleep, but when i put my head on the pillow my mind will not rest. all the worries and tasks in the world are lined up and i cant let go. well this is not a new problem, but its worse these days. its the move, obviously. but i cant spend the rest of my life like this, i need to work on this issue...

out with friends last week
this is Umut with his beer. a turk currently not living in turkey, just visiting.

something i cooked. mushrooms & walnut seem to go well together.

i met Yusuf too last week. i met him through couchsurfing in 2010, he was my host in Hatay when i was on my way to Syria. since then he moved to Istanbul and we meet up occasionally.

out in Istanbul with the cats...  i think my social life is a bit more active lately cos im trying to take it all in, see everyone, enjoy everything...

i love this old house. i think i might have taken a photo of it before. 

when finns were celebrating midsummer on friday, i went off for a picnic with Hanna in Macka park. i dont know if the mood was very midsummerish but fun enough...we had mezes and white wine (cooled in the cooling bag!). after finishing the wines we continued to a Nisantasi bar. it turned out a late night.


from Kiriaki's place a week ago. an amazing brunch/dinner with lots of pork and nice wine and good company.

got 2 small plates, 2 "dessert spoons" (i think they are perfect coffee spoons!)  and a tea infuser for doctor. he is big on tea and loves this. the plaes and spoons, i have no excuses, but had to use our Pasabahce gift card.

on saturday i went out for dinner with Elin and her Iranian friends. they have been living abroad for a long time (Italy etc), so we are all expats - lot to talk about - we had a great time. Behnam (left in photo) is planning a start up application and we had good discussions ob the topic.

June 18, 2016

pick your hassle

im seriously nesting. i was browsing London flats online... even though who knows where we end up... but london really has the most expensive flats anywhere. yet i am even obsessed with the location and the quality...the windows.... im desperate for a bloody home! my own home, not rental! this feeling has been growing inside of me for a few years now and its getting unbearable - but there is no way we will own a place in the next 48 months at least, possibly much longer :/ i realize this must be some sort of rootlessness i am experiencing. for when i moved to istanbul, i still felt quite attached to finland, and assumed i would returned sooner rather than later, but years have passed and its become clear im not going back just yet. so ive slowly started to cut off that mental umbilical cord i guess. and with that, i have started to question where my home is, really. sure, i have felt very comfy and 'homy' in istanbul too, but its been clear that i wouldnt stay here forever either and ive been waiting for doctor to graduate so we would move. and i feel the need to set up home somewhere. still, first world probs...

so yesterday i learned that  diapers are REALLY expensive. okay i guess they contain a lot of materials too, but oh boy. i bought a few packs for a local charity run by foreign women, helping syrian refugee families. their number one need is diapers. i wish the world just switched to re-usable diapers. and im not even ecological - it just sounds sensible.

i had a busy week with work but it included some pretty exciting times. also learned that Avner & Elmor are coming to visit Istanbul in July - which is awesome. my work and LIFE station.

yesterday i went for an evening picnic with Melisa. she has been touring with her documentary and had a birthday so we needed to catch up. at the park, there was thiis dog that sat by for quite a while. it had a collar and a sort of tag. firstly, his name is Findik; Hazelnut. next, it said he is the dog of this district and there is nothing wrong with his leg, so one should not call animal shelter. there are plenty of dogs at the parks - and elsewhere - i find it sweet that they bothered making him this tag. he was limping so i guess people have been calling about that.



last week with a finnish friend i met through couchsurfing. me and him and doctor went for a dinner. mezes and some meat. 

and then, me and doctor enjoyed a turkish breakfast outside, with these little kitties.... 

i snuggled with the kitties and i guess their hair was all around in the air too, cos i got so allergic it was a bit devastating. i suffered from it for hours. u never know how hard the allergy hits. but boy were those kitties cute!!


tuesday was dentist day. i went to this dentist who had trained in germany and whom foreigners were recommending. sure enough he was great indeed, i cant complain. as private offices tend to be, his was like a palace. but a whiter, more sci-fi version. seriously everywhere was white, no nothing. and the aquarium on the wall there...  i could pay less for my dental night guide and not have the aquarium. but i should just be grateful i found a reliable place, right? i am. i need to go pick the acrylic dental guide next week.

leaving europe, heading to asia. 

rings. in the middle, Ataturk, of course, what else. 

one of the countless terraces in kadiköy. the weather is great now, it may be a bit warm in the day, but at least the nights are super warm too.


my brexit stress is quite hight and there is still almost a week to go...  uff
https://talkarttalksociety.wordpress.com/2016/06/13/who-scares-wins-the-unintended-political-consequences-of-the-british-eu-referendum-debate/
next week we are also applying for another family permit, because doctor's current FP expires in november. so ive been collecting papers for that and he needs to go to the visa center and so forth. hassle, yes, but what can you do. we chose this hassle, at least? there are many hassles in life to choose from, at least for us. we should grateful we can pick our hassles?

Mike Dargas' art - cool realistic paintings. i think the teeth could use some more realism (they look extra photoshopped) , but he is especially good with eyelids, and liquids, obviously.
founder of online dating, still dating online :) i am online dating supporter, just for the record
Turkey canceling passports

today in Viktor Levi - one of my fav restaurants by far - i just had to take a pic, Ataturk's photo nailed on that tree is so random... but so turkish. he is always and everywhere.