July 29, 2015

proudly sweating

so as (i) expected, new Windows is great (well, based on reviews). every 2nd release is a winner, thats just the way it is. i will definitely consider Win10 after they have dealt with any hiccups and when software becomes available and so on. then i need to consider how great of a weight it puts on my superpupu computer though - although upgraded, she is not young anymore. and the transfer to a new OS is one of the most stresful things i know. the last time i upgraded the OS was...  okay, maybe around 5 yrs ago. still. the thought of it makes me nervous. yesterday i was cleaning superpupu's  C drive cos it was too full and causing lagging*...  poor thing. its better now. i think my plan was to try and keep things unchanged until we move to another country, its seems like the safest solution. so maybe ill look at 10 when we move and i will get a new computer.

*Windirstat is a great tool to see whats hogging the space, very simple and userfriendly little thing.

today is a (mostly) non-aircon day. just to celebrate the so far warmest day of the summer (36C) :) suddenly im drinking a lot more liquid.... 

i was watching this tv show where someone was described as "thinking by speaking". good or bad, i think im like that too, especially in my relationship. 

July 28, 2015

sunny 35

so although things r kind of good lately, i am having problems sleeping, or falling asleep to be precise. its something ive always battled with, on/off. and I don't seem stressed at the moment so it's not that, either. the stuff in my mind is what always keeps me up and nowadays more so, again. a couple times I just let myself stay up until the morning and start a new day (and then had a few hour nap around noon, july's minimal working hours allow for this). but then other evenings I was like fuck it, and took something to knock myself unconscious. when this happens I always believe it's better to rotate a few different 'ingredients' rather than stick with one  that you could then get possibly hooked on. but im not sure it matters. I tried valerian root capsules too, half-optimistic, but those nights I ended up hearing the morning prayer call.... soooo. nothing natural never gave me sleep. melisa tea can relax and whatnot but it's my brain that is harder to tame.

the other day i got a pair of silver plated leaf earrings in the mail. i ordered from an Etsy shop  :) they look good on me, maybe shinier than im used to, but with time maybe they will dim down a bit...  i dont like too shiny things.

i went out for a random shopping spree on sunday. the streets are full on weekends in kadiköy, but the hoards of people dont bother me especially if im not in a hurry. its a 30 degree day too so rushing only causes sweating, better take it easy. i had a huge, tasty veggie wrap for lunch and checked shoe stores, some clothes and cosmetic shops. and now i realize, i didnt actually buy anything. however i did stumble upon a big store selling fabrics, embroidery stuff, buttons and other haberdashery. i dont really do sewing but every now and then i want to get some clothes edited and seamstress services are cheap.

found Brain Dots and have since then been glued to the phone. doesnt help with the sleeping problems. crazy addictive...

July 24, 2015

smooth sailing

loved the new Bond trailer, of course...  just seeing a glimpse of Monica Bellucci made my legs weak. but thankfully i was sitting.

Hurriyet daily: 10 issues Turkish media is banned from reporting on

from our brunch a couple weeks back.
 
I really don't like these new ferries Istanbul bought for cross Bosphorus traffic. I'm not against new on principle, i realise we cannot run the cute, idyllic ferries forever, but these are like an abomination. and they just showed up, the public was not included the process in any way. I'm not the only one who's disappointed. 



although the quiet days continue at work front, im enjoying life..i think. theres picnics and new shoes and stuff... and im living an extra healthy life this month too. so that ups my mood.

wow, Married at First Sight UK....  escalated quickly. lol. still, worth the 3 episodes it lasted.

 

July 21, 2015

ansa

face ehdotti mulle "muslim converts in turkey" ryhmää...  huono algoritmi, sanon minä. mutta jännä nähdä että yksi puolituttu joka ei kyllä antaa yhtään uskovaista vibaa, on ryhmässä.

noniin, nyt olen kai sitten spämmännyt jokaista 'osoitekirjassani'. joku kirottu sos media sivusto eli Twoo lähetti mulle spämmimäisiä meileja, mutta unsubscribe-linkki vei vain sivulle jossa pakotetaan parantelemaan profiilia (ilman suoraa linkkiä esim. account settingseihin). se tarjosi myös kutsujen lähettämistä kavereille ilman "uncheck all" mahdollisuutta, joten päätin painaa sivussa olevaa 'next' nappia, kontaktien alla olevan "connect" sijaan. voi jumalauta. kuten myöhemmin sain lukea, on sivuston käyttöehtoihin hierottu valmiiksi lauseke “Twoo sends invitations to my e-mail contacts without my permission.” ja se nimenomaan lähettää spämmin painoit sitten kumpaa tahansa noista napeista. jes. en edes tiedä miten jouduin tuolle sivulle, ei kuulu tapoihin luoda profiileja totaalisen sälittäville ja deittisivustolle haiskahtaville platformeille.
Techcrunch kirjoitti Twoo:sta jo vuosi sitten. vituttaa vaan että lankesin tuohon spämmijuttuun.

mahtavaa että tätäkin on tutkittu: Huonosti pelaavat miehet lietsovat naisvihaa videopeleissä (nyt.fi). ei kyllä yllätä.

facessa tutut ja vähemmän tutut jakelee järkyttyneinä Surucin itsemurhaiskuun liittyviä artikkeleita, ikoneita on vaihdettu mustiksi, ja muutamat ystäväni ovat muuten vaan järkyttyneitä koska pari yhteistä tuttuamme 'melkein olivat' Surucissa (kyseessä vapaaehtoiset ihmiset jotka halusivat mennä uudelleen rakentamaan kurdikaupunkia Kobania Syyriaan). mutta eivät olleetkaan lähteneet. tuossa on 2 erityyppistä järkytyksen aihetta jotka ei kumpikaan herätä mun viisaria; inhimillinen katastrofi (joka ei ole *todella lähellä), ja "tuntemani ihminen joka melkein mahdollisesti kuoli katastrofissa". en sano että juuri tämän empatia-palikan puute on minkäänlainen hyve, mutta jos haluan katsoa asiaa positiivisesti niin noin yleisesti ottaen stressaavana ja pessimistisenä ihmisenä on tietynlainen helpotus ettei ihan kaikki vaikuta mielialaan.

*todella lähellä = ikkunastani näkyvissä 

tänään lääkärillä oli vapaapäivä mutta "joutui" silti käymään sairaalalla koska yksi lääkärikollega valmistui ja sitä sitten juhlittiin. viiniä kaikille, myös vuorossa oleville tottakai. sen jälkeen tapasimme Caddebostanin rannassa ja nautimme merimaisemista kahvin kera. toin lääkärille kotoa uimatarpeet, ja vesikin oli kai jotain 23-24 asteista, mutta ei tuo sitten jaksanut pulahtaa sinne. mutta kyllä kesä vaan on aika mukavaa aikaa. ensi viikolla "afrikan lämpöaallo" pitäisi tulla turkkiin, lupailevat 40+ astetta. mutta voipi olla ettei Istanbulissa ihan niihin päästä. se olis ihan mielenkiintoista kyllä :D katsoin just 10 päivän ennustetta ja samaa n. 30 asteista se näyttää. no, ihan sama. kesä kuin kesä.


July 20, 2015

listening to Moonspell's old albums

why are audiobooks so fucking popular??!! fucking fuck. okay i know why, at least i can imagine. but when u try to find epub or pdf and only stumble across mp3's its bloody annoying. i hate instructional or lecture type videos too. reminds me of school where i got horribly bored.

work wise july is slow, everyone is on holiday etc...  so im focusing on online courses...there is a big testing course im doing. and before our trip to portugal i skimmed through the basics of portuguese. although i couldn't find portugal portuguese so i had to take brazilian portuguese (did i mention i hate videos??! ) and then google what are the main differences between sounds...   and now i started human computer interaction course.

today im also finally starting with Karl Ove knausgård's My Struggle (1). ive been a little hesitant because apparently the book is some unknown mixture of fact (biographical) and fiction....  but since the division is unclear, i assume i can just take it as reality and possibly enjoy.

after starting Knausgård's book im feeling depressed. The first chapter starts with
"For the heart, life is simple: it beats for as long as it can. Then it stops. Sooner or later, one day, this pounding action will cease of its own accord, and the blood will begin to run towards the body’s lowest point, where it will collect in a small pool, visible from outside as a dark, soft patch on ever whitening skin, as the temperature sinks, the limbs stiffen and the intestines drain. "
(im thinking that 3 sentence quotation counts as fair use). very poetic...  sounds pretty but im starting to think it's not my thing. will have to read past first page to make sure, i guess.

Amazon is generally pretty good with its customer friendliness, but to send me an email advertizing "kindle unlimited"...  come on, localize a little bit! we all know these are never available outside the US...  thanks for reminding me.

Istanbul weather is a steady 30c these days. a bit warm but most of the time im just happy. better cozy warm and shivering in the cold...



July 15, 2015

rainbow flag

yesterdays inking session was not as tough as the previous one. it was just 4 hours to begin with, but also only a few of the areas were super sensitive. i bit my teeth through the wrist and inside of the arm and the rest was a breeze. but there is still a lot to do, especially in the form of background color. i dont want my arm fully colored, but some background is needed so that the mermaids and other things dont look like sitting in a colouring book...:)

i actually hadnt planned on going this psychedelic with the colors but when i started thinking of the options...well there are only so many colors in the world, and i happen to hate half of them, and so on...  with Yeliz we came to a good solution and i feel content with my rainbow arm:) 
i love the work Yeliz did on the flower, i asked for an upgrade and we did a sketch on it with markers. turned out great, the style matches the watercolor stuff next to it. 

she is going on a holiday now and then me and doctor are going on holiday in august...and i dont want to go to a festival with a healing arm...  so we will continue later in august...


a "street sign" i bought. actually i think its like memorabilia, and want to take it with me when i leave turkey - Kadiköy is definitely one of the best places in the world and i feel at home here.






July 13, 2015

reippaasti vaan

tänään toinen tatuointisessio, tarkoitus päivittää vanhoja. viime viikolla vähän epätoivoisesti googlettelin ideoita kivunlievitykseen, mutta edes opiaatteja sisältävät särkylääkket ei tuohon tepsi, mikä on kyllä ihan loogista, mutta masentavaa. ja sitten onneksi kysyinkin tatuoijalta, eikä hän edes hyväksy paikallisia puudutteita, joita olin jo valmis kinuamaan lääkäriltä. suuri osa "alan harrastajista" on kovasti kaikkea kivunlievitystä vastaan ja sitä mieltä että kipu on osa kokemusta ja tatuointi pitää ansaita..."rite of passage" yadi yadi yaa...   yksi niistä aivan käsittämättömistä jutuista. vähän kuin joku jota on lapsuus hakattu ja nöyryytetty, joka sitten itsekin uskoo että "nuorena se on vitsa väännettävä" ja pistää kokemuksen kiertoon... no, ehkä huono vertaus. mutta en tiedä miksi mun pitäis jotenkin kärsimällä ansaita kuvioita ihooni. tatuoinnit ei ole enää mikään hells angels klubin liittymisriitti tai merkki siitä että on vankilassa kova jätkä. mullakin muutama tatuointi jo on, enkö mä ole jo näyttäny ihan riittävästi jos jotain näytettävää oli? paljonko mä saan pisteitä siitä että kärsin niiden vuoksi? mulle itselle se ei tuo yhtään lisäarvoa. mitä sitten jos se oliskin helppoa kuin pullansyönti, ja sitten niitä otettais heppoisimmin perustein kenties? en näe mitään glorifioitavaa siinä että hyperventiloin tuskanhiessä jossain tuolissa tuntikaupalla ja stressaan jo etukäteen että pysyykö verensokerit kuosissa? mulla ei ole verensokerin kanssa ongelmia mutta tuollainen 6 tunnin kidutussessio pistää terveenkin ihmisen koetukselle. (enkä mäkään jaksais pienestä raaputuksesta napista, mutta kun ohueen ihoon hinkataan tuntikaupalla värejä niin jumalauta...)

eilen hostasimme brunssin muutaman ystävän kesken, 5 meitä taisi olla lääkäri mukaanlukien. eli suomalainen, turkkilainen, kreikkalainen, italialainen ja jenkki. kreikkalaisen kanssa lainaehdoista tietysti neuvoteltiin mutta en voi sanoa että sopuun olisi päästy :D meni keskustelu porukassa aika kuumaksi ja pulssit kiihtyi...  mutta meillä oli hyvä iltapäivä, pöydässä oli portugalilaista prosciuttoa ja viiniä, jotain ulkkisjuustoja ja paistettiinpa oikeaa pekoniakin. tällaiset viikonloppupäivät on ideaalin rentoja, vaikka pöydän kattaminen ulkkisherkuilla ei ole todellakaan halpaa. en viitsi arvailla paljonko rahaa paloi, joku 180tl/60 euroa? pelkästään aurinkokuivatut tomaatit on täällä jotain helvetin import-gourmeeta, mutta ne nyt oli mun salaattireseptissä enkä halunnut tinkiä siitä (koska en tiedä mitä tilalle olisi pitänyt laittaa). pekoni onkin omassa hintaluokassaan sitten, sitä käytiin aika kaukaa etsimässä. mutta mä keskityn nyt liian negatiivisesti tuohon "tuhlaamiseen", selkeästi meillä oli siihen varaa ja päivä oli sen arvoinen joten ehkä se siitä??


July 11, 2015

turkish police at work

i got really stumped today...  i was delivered an official looking paper, it said that the guy who stole my phone in 2013 has been caught and will be on trial in november, and that i should be there. (he harassed me on an empty street and when i attempted to call police he panicked, ripped the phone off my hand and ran off). i had turkish telecom close the phone back when this happened, so it would not have been very useful, but im anyway happy to hear its been found.

here its common to hear quite grim stories about the police, i dont mean just historically  or in relation to demonstrations; foreigners trying to report stolen items are often not taken seriously. some women that reported something were later harassed via phone by the very police themselves, messaged on facebook by the policemen and so on. reporting harassment is useless, obviously, i wont even go there. too many shitty examples to mention, but i have heard of 1 or 2 good cases too. i was treated with respect at the station and they certainly took the case seriously, looking for CCTV footage on the street where it happened and so on. later i was presented photos of some possible suspects. anyway, i never expected to hear back from it, so this was quite positive. turkey keeps surprising...

today my foot is at a point where i can basically walk easily without pain or even a limp, so i went shopping with doctor. we found him some grey pants and black dressy shoes (the old ones fell apart), and a summer dress for me but im not sure i like it after all - might end up returning.

a finnish friend living in the UK just moved to a new place, it looks amazing and has a view to the sea. looks nice. i am still a city girl but i can appreciate the serenity of a beach house too...

the restaurants spread all over the sidewalks during ramadan, more specifically for iftar, the fast breaking dinner. its a sort of 'sight' when the prayer call starts and suddenly everyone starts eating for their lives... 

July 09, 2015

new name, new face

the past months has been steady summer here. in june (latest) the weather gets warm and u dont look at forecasts anymore, you KNOW its sunny and warm when you wake up. its 27-32 degrees and no worries. 30 can be a bit scorching in the sun, but im still fine with it. i really like warm. im certain there is a secret reason, like half a degree lower body temperature or something.

istanbul streets are at their best in the summer, the life, the hustle... its invigorating. even if some of the people are fasting atm and hence, suffering :)  i think ramadan ends next week or so.

a few days ago i got my results for some of my yearly check up tests (which i got done at Caginer hastanesi). it was a challenge to find the papers though, they were not filed under my first name, last name nor middle name...hmmmm. i mean, its very normal in turkey to have one of the names written wrong if you're a foreigner, you get used to it. typos in your residence permit can be troublesome, rest of the time its just annoying. anyway, the results were found, somehow, although ALL 3 of my names were heavily typoed. my first name even became Senni. while the staff was overall nice at this hospital, why did they put a dyslexic at the front desk?
(following image not really interesting unless one knows my full name, but for my own entertainment)


tuesday was botox day. one of the items in my self improvement month checklist. I just got the between eyebrows treatment to keep myself from frowning. that's enough. the doctor my friend had recommended was really nice and informative, listening to my concerns and not inventing problems that I don't think I have; just what I needed (and would expect in a civilized country). but it takes a few days for the effect to take place, let's hope it's as expected. so far so good.

I was willing to travel all the way to the other side of the city (Bakirkoy) for this doctor, but it can be hard to find a good, ethical & affordable one here, so recommendations go a long way. i was able to make the trip with a ferry from kadiköy though.

tattoo is building up scab. eww. and the arm is overall still quite sore, skin feeling tight etc. i guess this type of "UI add-ons" have a price?

i have a strong urge to buy new summer dresses but i admit i have enough. technically. it just never feels like i have what im looking for...


July 06, 2015

a jellyfish is born

soooo....  new ink! this visit to the tattoo shop was the toughest I've ever had (overall the most painful day of my life). perhaps it shouldn't have come as a surprise since it is the biggest of my tats, and there's color and all...  it had been so many years since my last visit I'd blissfully forgotten how bad it can be. and this went way beyond. its the back of the arm thats the worst..  I'm glad I didn't faint in the last 15 minutes :/

the work took about 6 hours. i sweat my clothes thoroughly wet a few times during this, not to mention i bled like crazy, too, for some unknown reason.

doctor took after shower shower pics of my jellyfish (ie. after cleaning off the scab and before applying bepanthen...). its hard to cover all angles but to give an idea...



in progress shot (during a break).

but so, well, yes i am quite happy with it! :)

despite everything, right after this, i booked myself a new time for friday... after all, the plan is to polish and ugrade my old tattoos as well. and Yeliz the tattoo artist is going on holiday in less than 2 weeks. so i better go now that im a roll, rather than get lazy and comfortable and take a 5 year break again...






July 04, 2015

self-improvement month

last night my tattoo artist sent me her design, for the tattoo im supposed to get tomorrow. not surprisingly perhaps i had some thoughts on how to improve it. actually its a great design and great colors, but some of elements are just not exactly to my liking. it doesnt need to be redrawn but unfortunately i hate the contrast color she chose, for instance. i am not very good in these situations, professionals dont like to be told what to do and i certainly dont want to be rude, so i kindly explained my thoughts and hopefully its not too much to ask...  lets see.

doctor got his results from the IELTS exam. it went quite okay. it was a good test round. but not yet the required average (7.5 for a medical license in many commonwealth countries), so we will book the next one for the fall and really study. academic writing is the biggest hurdle really, which is understandable for someone who never had to write academic texts...  but im supporting him, we will get there :)

movies that might be worth watching:
Meet Me in Montenegro
The Diary of a Teenage Girl


July 03, 2015

someone needs a haircut stat

in Lisbon we also met with my old friend (ok, acquaintance) Carlos. i know him from way back, deviantart times. Carlos and i also met when i last visited portugal like 7-8 years ago. and little did i know he was now running for parliament! i follow his facebook but this info had not come across to me...  so this year 2 people i know have ran for parliament, thats cool.  

doctor had an interesting patient in his last shift. the lady came explaining a horribly burning and pain in her genital area after using a hair removal cream. well yes, sure, more than 3 to 5 minutes...  i can imagine the skin gets irritated. doctors hospital is a conservative area, with uneducated and even illiterate people from the country side, so i already guessed what the problem was. sure enough, she had never removed the cream. somehow at any point, going to a shower had not occurred to her.

my swollen and bruised balloon foot. oh thats a nice bunion developing there!! :D go heels!
last night was a designated girls night. originally we were supposed to go to Carilyn', but due to my immobility we gathered at my place and ordered take away. that was fun enough, it had been a while since the 4 of us girls got together...someone is always traveling and whatnot.

a friend told me that i am one of the most "diverse" individuals that she knows, that my interests are all over the place (in a good way) and im really into 'so many things'. i hadnt thought of that. i assumed everyone is like that, but when i thought of it, sure, maybe its kind of true. of course everyone has a few more things going on than is obvious on the surface, but maybe im just more 'out there'. it has occurred to me that i seem to know people from various walks of life, more so than average. so it must be related. and im really happy about that, it has made my life so rich. still, i feel like there are so many more things that i dont have the time for!

the most recent season of Bachelorette is trying to come out of the mold a bit. probably mostly planned of course but the current leading lady is taking some freedoms too, its interesting. i still find it like a fascinating social experiment, i think it displays one extreme of american social conventions, somehow. but yeah, its very light entertainment, love it.

our culinary trip summarized

portugal treated us well. although i dont run sightseeing from morning till evening i still didn't seem to have a quick moment just for blogging or thinking. but we slept until 10 or 11 daily, and slowly enjoyed the cities (Lisbon, Porto) until late evenings. doctor did some longer walks in Lisbon while i looked for the best sushi buffet in town etc.
 

on the first day we enjoyed these mussels at a sunny square surrounded by some historical buildings...  it set a good start for the holiday.
the view from the bedroom of our airbnb dwelling. pretty. we booked a whole flat in the Baixa/Chiado area, super central, yet a quiet street.
 livingroom.
 looks like paris? fancy big arch, nevertheless.
 a menu!

restaurants here and there, in every corner...

a much raved flower salad at an Argentinian restaurant. and omg, it really was so good!! the goat cheese made it to my "want to buy at home" list. 

our breakfast. with a trip to the nearby market we treated ourselves to eggs, ham, chorizo, cheese etc the whole week.

green wine and a muffin. why hadnt i heard of green wine before, ive been to portugal once?  if i had, id forgotten. light, fruity and slightly sparkling - in other words awesome. perfect for the summer. 

lots of wine cellars and wine bars everywhere...!

stairs stairs stairs. both Lisbon and Porto require a certain level of fitness, the hills and stairs are steep, and everywhere. 

old stuff.

one afternoon we went grocery shopping and headed to the big park in the city center! some iberian ham, bread, a variety of cheese, a bottle of sparkling rose...  

doctor enjoying wifi and the park atmosphere. 

i think this is a train station? again, huge arches. the portuguese used to make everything big. too much money and time, i say. 

a view from a hotel rooftop bar (Bairro Alto hotel). nice place, but a bit posh, we looked like homeless people in our sandals and t-shirts :D

more street terraces...

via foursquare i found a burlesque themed bar (Var de la Venho Senhora) and to our luck there was a show that night! both a local and an american women were performing and the theme was 80s...  so it was cool. i will never listen to T'Pau's China In Your Hand the same way...  :D
upstairs to this bar, there is an old brothel turned dance/hangout club called Pensão Amor. the whole area used to be red light district so it has a lot of character but now has underground bars and trendy clubs. there is the club area with a dancing pole, the library room, the sex shop and so on...  interesting place.

one day we were planning to take the ferry in Lisbon to the other side of the river and find a beachthere, but the metro was on strike, all closed. we found ourselves at the train station,but instead of taking the detour to Trafaria accross the river, we decided to go all the way to Cascais which is a seaside village by the beach, less than an hour from Lisbon. its a bit posh, reminded me of something like Madeira, or Rimini...i dunno, local but touristy but a bit fake...  yet, we did enjoy the beach time. it was so hot that day even i got uncomfortable. then again i did have a dress on and covered myself with a towel although i was under the umbrella. still, hot. the sand was so hot for a while i felt like i had burned my toe in it (the toe was red and sore). sandals were definitely necessary. what about the sea, then? some 19 degrees, i dunno. so fuckin cold most people were only knee deep. and even more people were not in the water at all...  doctor was brave of course and jumped in a few times and had a good time, good for him. i enjoyed the free wifi and white wine under the covers.... 

i was surprised to find that one of the seaside restaurants in Cascais had really high scores in foursquare (Cascas). well alright we have to check that out?! i think the cook was asian, a lot of asian things on the menu, and a really weird portion of something (in the middle), i think it had fried potato skins, soft eggs, salmon and tomato and whatever... but it was good! all of it was. and the sea view didnt hurt.

one evening we ran into a food/handicraft festival in the center of the city. it was nice, locals selling local things. this poor piggy ended up as a show piece though.

and then i had to get nachos...like, i HAD TO. besides sushi, it has become my other international favorite. when abroad, find nachos. with real sour cream and guacamole. om nom nom. i found my nachos in Hard Rock Cafe. i was not fond of going to the establishment, celeb memorabilia nor the image the chain has does not interest me, but i had to get my fix. the restaurant actually had super high points on foursquare, too. the experience was okay, great service helped. but omg the plate of nachos!! it was in the starters section but this bloody plate was enough to make to main dishes! well i didnt complain, i did my best and doctor helped me. we almost finished the plate (he also had a hamburger to deal with). the photo does not convey the level of the deliciousness, at all. 

Porto was great too. the train took about 3 hours. free wifi! but surprisingly expensive, 24 eur one way. and this was the cheaper train. everything else in portugal was in my opinion cheap-ish, by european standards. of course, a 3 hours train ride in finland would probaby cost 70 to 90 euros, im guessing, so maybe this was a steal but i still didnt feel like it.

anyway we spent 2 days in Porto. went to the seaside to see the beach, walked around old town and enjoyed in general. lovely atmosphere and great restaurants.nice port tines, too, sure, but while i remember enjoying port wine some years ago, now i find it too sweet.
Porto is a city of bridges. like Istanbul the city is divided in 2 but the gap is smaller so there are 6 bridges. 

did i mention they like their bridges?? this one was designed by Eiffel...yeah that guy. it looks like he had 50 tons of leftover from the tower and came up with a plan (or maybe his manager did) to sell it to a close by neighboring country as an installation, or bridge, or whatever they would happen to need at the time..  ok in all honesty it looks nice of course, but *just like* the tower.


Porto seaside. there were beaches too but after a while and a great sangria they all look the same. chilling here by the rocks was great. 

a church in old town Porto. they have a lot of buildings like this, like slightly gothic but heavier...  we walked in here and there was a wedding going on.

portuguese rave about their sardines, and its like a symbol of the country, displayed in postcards and magnets and t-shirts. yet not nearly every restaurant had them on the manu. maybe theyre not actually so damn good? im quite sure ive tasted sardines in my lifetime, but i cannot remmeber and anyway i was not interested. we did not eat sardines on this trip.

a local specialty which we did try was bacalhau. there are hundreds of versions of it, but the most common seemed to be shredded cos in a casserole, perhaps with potato or something. it was ok, but reminded me of a finnish fish casserole or something. however ill happily admit the portuguese version was tastier. 

Porto had great restaurants too. this one was called Tascö. rustic food, great service. 

our quite modest "hotel" room in Porto. well, it had a bed and a shower. and one cockroach, lol. luckily neither of us cares. (but when returning to Lisbon i did make sure we stay in a cockroach-free accommodation...)

back in Lisbon. this bathroom was sooo nice, similar to what i would want actually...  i think i would add a splash of color but otherwise... yeah. 

on our last night we went to eat at this nice restaurant which was #1 in Lisbon in foursquare, the comments described things like octopus rice so...:P  (Sacramento do Chiado). it was again bit posh for how we were dressed butanyhow we enjoyed and it was tasty.

then, i topped the night off by spraining my foot on the dangerous cobblestone streets and that was that :D getting to the airport, and home, was *painful* and slow, to put it mildly.

didnt visit any museums or other "places".

July 01, 2015

bloated in the heat

back home... with a sprained foot. now i need to get back to work and clear my inbox from stuff that was not urgent enough to deal during holidays. and leaving feedback on airbnb and hotels.com and so forth. im big on writing feedback and scoring places.

istanbul has gotten A/C deserving temperatures too, just under 30 i think, but about the same inside. still manageable but im keeping myself comfy.

the trip to Lisbon and Porto was really nice; great food, nice people, tasty wine, cute cities and great weather. i saw a lot of nice handicraft jewellery there, but somehow didnt feel like spending on them....  but now im obsessed with silver leaf earrings so im gonna look for ones in Etsy...need to do something while resting my foot :) i have to consider myself lucky, what if it was my hand that was incapacitated!




June 17, 2015

coming up...

for a few years now ive been meaning to continue the tattoo work on my left arm, which has the mermaids and underwater stuff. i spent some time looking for suitable (watercolor style) artists in Melbourne, but they were all busy of course. the next artist in line was a turkish one (Koray Karagözler), but he'd just moved to Antalya which makes things a tad more difficult. so then i contacted someone in Istanbul, Yeliz @ Galata Tattoo, who used to work under Koray and she is really blooming i think. AND she speaks english, always a plus. so i will try meet her this week to consult on the options. maybe if all goes well we could start in the beginning of july.

in july i think ill also go for botox, its been a couple years since the last time. and this time itll be for actual wrinkles and not some other cause. wrinkles is the only thing botox is associated with, and finally ill be able to answer that judgmental question "why would you want to smooth out your wrinkles??!". lol. just because. im experimenting with my face. actually its not only the one wrinkle thats developed between my brows, its like i can see it on the forehead, how those (frowning) muscles are being overused and the forehead is not even anymore :(  i can almost see bumps above my brows...i am not consciously frowning but what the fuck. anyway, i realize my face is changing with age, and im generally fine with that, but i want to avoid the "angry look", so i do want to try and see how this goes...  otherwise ill just have to accept it? and start smiling more, i rather have crows feet and dimple wrinkles :D

and tomorrow....doctors mom is coming over! for 1 or 2 nights. i think coming all the way from Mersin, staying 2 nights makes more sense. she chose not to fly so the night bus is just a bit tiring, i believe. its been 2 yrs since i last saw her i, should be interesting :) we should take her out to eat and stuff.

enjoying Married at First Sight US and AU, on the same day! awesome stuff.


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yksi kaveri linkitti facessa tähän blogikirjoitukseen; Vaikka olen nainen, en halua ajaa polkuautolla. okei juttu alkaa ihan mielenkiintoisesti, mutta sitten yhtäkkiä auto on osa identiteettiä ja sen pitää olla kallis ja hieno koska muuten...öö? ja tää kirjoittaja on psykologi? itse en lähde hänen asiakkaakseen koska en ole varma millaisia välineitä saisin elämänhallintaan... näen kyllä tuon "olen ansainnut xxx" pointin, ja senkin että naisen usein vähättälevät itseään tai tyytyvät vähempään jne mutta en silti ehkä näiden risteyskohtaa tuohon autoon. auton hankinnassa varmaan kannattaisi ajatella muutakin kuin statusta (koska vaikkei Ilona käyttänyt sitä sanaa, niin siltä se vähän kuulosti, että statusta pitäisi ostaa), kuten paljonko se kuluttaa bensaa, ja mihin sitä meinaa käyttää. mut mistäs mä tiedän kun en autoa omista...ja ehkä sitten jos olisin, niin kuuluisin just näihin surkeisiin "fööniauton" omistajiin. pieni moottoritilavuus -> huono itsetunto?? koska suosin julkisia, olen kai sitten aivan pohjamudissa. miehellänihän on tällainen "fööni", en tiedä mitä se sitten kertoo miehestä? Ilona kehoittaa vielä ostamaan muutaman koltun vähemmän jotta saisi panostettua autoon enempi. mites se kolttujen tuoma identiteetti sitten??  että siis, olipa paska läppä, en yhtään tajunnut.

ihan paras tää italian veto; Italia uhkaa antavansa siirtolaisille Schengen-viisumit, jos EU:ssa ei synny sopua (HS 17.6). repesin oikeasti. jos toi uhkaus on oikea ni voi alkaa yhtäkkiä keski-aurooppaakin kiinnostaa ne pakolaiset siellä meressä :D jotenkin surullisen hyvin sanottu Italialta, niillä on oikeasti kusinen tilanne siellä kun joka yö tulee paattia etelästä.




June 16, 2015

couldnt sleep last night, read Wired

this week is officially christened the "portugal planning week"! after 5 days in Lisbon, i think we should head to Porto for a couple days and then make a short 1 night visit to some small town near Lisbon, like Sintra - from where we can get to the aiport in the morning. all cities have access to beach, but of course the sea water temperature is around 19 degrees...thats just enough for doctor but not me. oh well...

i really wanna do a short "blue cruise" holiday while we are still in turkey... sometimes we planned it with friends but it seems impossible with everyones schedules and other plans.

an old acquintance (or what do u call these people u made a brief but perhaps meaningful contact with a long time ago, online??) contacted me by email, tracked me down via my deviantart account. he found himself studying AI and works with data now...aaanyway, he gave me think link to a Bloomberg article on code and its a wonderful (but long!) read. some of it just kind of beginners stuff on computers, cos the article is essentially about code, but its so well written its just fun to read :)

i had a skype chat with another old friend today about London. Avner and his wife have lived there for years and i just wanted to hear how he likes it, pros and cons, how much is the gas bill and so forth.


The Atlantic: Why Women Aren't Having Children. im always happy when there is a somewhat sensible article on the topic, but a part of me is usually a little bit disappointed with the content anyway. but maybe thats just me, i do ALWAYS find something not right. first annoyance: the article says
"Though no one exactly says it, women are voting with their ovaries, and the reason is simple. There are too few social supports, especially given the fact that the majority of women are no longer just mothers now, they’re mother-workers. Yet virtually no social policy accounts for this."
i think it would be fair to mention this text applies to especially US, also many other countries, but there certainly are countries who do a great deal to support motherhood and families financially...!

one of the interviewed women (who has the right to her opinion of course!) says of children:
"In the main, they are ungrateful. "
i know its just a sentence, but where do i start? are all children ungrateful, is it an inherent feature of our species really? are they ungrateful all their lives or just during some parts or all of their childhood? how is ungratefulness defined, btw? one is allowed to expect thing from other beings of course, whether it is reasonable or not, but indeed if what u need is someone to be grateful, i agree that not having children is the right choice. well, i sound like im attacking a fellow 'childfree' person, but i found that an awkward comment.

"The sense that having children is the most worthy of human activities is questioned by the writer Tim Kreider, who argues that it’s “a pretty low-rent ultimate purpose that’s shared with viruses and bacteria.”"
i wouldnt call having children "the most worthy of human activities", but it is the most important one for the species (because all species are programmed to survive and procreate, thats the only reason we exist). just because bacteria and viruses also reproduce doesnt automatically change the value of the fact. bacteria and viruses also need water in some form, just like humans, so how about that? i think its odd to be a human and suggest that humans shouldnt behave the way they are programmed to, and what led us here... just because we are conscious beings, and we know the planet is overcrowded, we cannot (usually) override the need to reproduce, if we have one. of course, the article was trying to shed some light on why some of us are NOT reproducing, and if Tim sees it the way he does, thats okay. childfree people have many reasons, from logical or emotional, from traumas to other, all-consuming goals etc...  and some may be just freaks of nature, maybe evolution wise its better if some of us dont spread our genes, honestly i think it could be *one* of the reasons some of us dont want any. could be me (although i feel like my genes are pretty awesome, lol).

June 15, 2015

reading and learning

ive spent the last week on a lot of things of course, but here is my top something:
-Little Women NY/LA. reality about m...little people, too much fake drama for my taste but occasionally they touch interesting discussion, about the M word or height preferences for partners or something.
-Quora. namely: indian caste system. Portugal travel tips. Kasparov, Deep Blue & other chess stuff. mistakes in popular movies. faults in human thinking.
-hanging out at home with doctor. he had more free time than usual and we were just bonding.
-reading articles on Long Reads. so many great reads...

i feel like i have some 'permanent' stress lately, my jaw aching almost daily although i dont catch myself biting my teeth. i need to go to a dentist and get a retainer..

and today i started a udemy course which i bought a few weeks ago when i think they were all 10$. its about testing of course. but i will try to find something else that interests me too, in the hopes of keeping my brain cells moving...

i bought a large fabric tote from a shop nearby. the inside has pink flowers, and they kind of shine through, making it the patterned outside look messy. lovely bag, great for picnics & beach. 10tl/3 eur.

sometimes im lazy and dont wash a carrot/apple/etc before eating it. because lets be honest, a lot of shit & dirt go into our mouths regardless...washing fruits and veggies is just something we can easily control and is visible right before us. one word: immune system.

its been salmon week! i dont know if im missing finland or just being lazy (probably the latter), but in the past week i think i cooked salmon 3 times. or 2, doctor prepared it once. put the filets in the oven and make a potato/veggie mash on the side... the latter is somewhat time consuming, so i try to come up with easier alternatives.... 
salmon is quick on a pan too, though. quicker than in the oven but the oven requires less supervision. another easy favorite of mine is steak. but that too comes with the side dish problem. jennis tip: buy a large enough steak and u can get away without a side. just meat. if it makes u full and is tasty, whos complaining? i should start "the lazy bitch cooking blog" . im sure someones already done it... i should google...    but when we move to a western country, we can also buy processed, pre-prepared stuff. oh lord i miss that stuff...