December 16, 2017

somehow another year is coming to an end

something for the wall...  from Futuremaps. not sure whats future about it though...seems like same old to me. altho Palestine is missing, yet Jerusalem is there, with a capital city tag... aaaand Tel Aviv is not there at all. maybe there are onto something after all, this was printed just days before Trump's fuck up?

light turquoise with dark pink glitter... but of course a week later when the tips are already worn out. i should go ahead and try something else.

Anna & me had a thai food/bubbly night. she is moving back to NZ soon and im gonna miss her dearly. 

*we have a Body Shop near home.
*friends getting married in May in Santorini so we r going there :) 
*i have an amazing husband who is super caring.
*Apple's quick & free delivery; a new phone in my hand in less than 24h.

*our kitchen ceiling was leaking on-off, took a while to find the problem, now the ceiling is open and kitchen is a mess
*iphone 8 "silver" is not silver. its white.
*so many early morning flighst next year. i hate early morning flights passionately, but sometimes there just arent real options. 

i ordered free range pork belly for christmas. im gonna be brave and try cook it. the internet is full of recipies and Allan has offered his recipe. so i should be alright..?

my new favorite song is Sivert Hoyem's Sleepwalking Man. (youtube).

December 06, 2017

finland 100

its just hit me that tomorrow is really a day off, finnish independence day. i have bank appointments tomorrow and i plan to start doing my UK tax returns! sounds like a perfectly normal thing to do on a "finland day". lol. tax returns shouldnt be too hard actually, but im wondering about the currency exchange stuff and so forth. im starting now so i can find answers to any questions and be done well before Jan 31st which is the deadline. but finnish independence, 100 years! i just saw a photo of the 3rd bosphorus bridge being lit blue..  somehow made me miss istanbul and also emotional. very proud to be a finn today.

when i call my bank (Lloyds) to book an appointment, the automated message first says "if you're calling about overdraft charges, please..." lol. thats everywhere though, it's always about the overdraft, people use it eagerly. not for fun i'm sure, but i'm thinking it's also very integrated in the consumer culture, much like credit cards in turkey. but so im calling an "appointment number", not to discuss overdraft, thank you...    so then i get someone on the phone, and say i want to come discuss savings accounts as well as mortgage options. [the mortage stuff cos i want to understand how it works here and start planning for future. well, even though we cant be sure if we are here after brexit, but ive set my mind on learning about the process and the internet can only take you so far...]    so, i explain these are the 2 subjects i want to discuss, and they are related to each other. he tells me oh no, we cant do both in 1 appointment, has to be 2 separate ones. lol. okay then. then he checks my Brixton branch and informs me there are no mortagage advisors there. i say okay, i can get my mortage from elsewhere, and he doesnt object or try to direct me to another nearby branch, which i think is interesting to say the least. and i dont care since this is obviously not an urgent matter and i can go to any bank really for the basic information i want to get. but he doesnt know that! the savings account appointment was doable this week, but at this point i'm getting seriously turned off by Lloyds so im going there with zero motivation. ive been thinking we should switch to Nationwide cos it has some decent options and they come very high in customer ratings.

lights! more lights! but why do they look so yellow...? i mean yeah the other lighting is blu-er but not really that blue.  anyway, they look better in real.

our kitchen ceiling is leaking water...  doesnt look good either. calling landlord...

tenerife was nice - 26C, very calm...   we just chilled, basically, did go jet skiing one day and that was a lot of fun, its like flying on water.

meat! muscle food has a good variety of free range & organic meats, this was our 2nd order. quite happy with the quality of everything.

on friday i went to finnish londoners christmas party. wasnt huge but fun enough, met a couple new people, talked to acquintances. there's all kinds of stories, from lawyers to nannies to marketing specialists. im happy to meet other finns, as long as its less than 50% of all my socializing. you cant really integrate if you just hang out with your 'own kind'. but i dont think thats an issue for me.

i met Karin for dinner at Jamie's Italian in Covent Garden. ie always been a curious fangirl of Jamie Oliver's, dont know him well except that he is into healthy school food & writing recipe books. but thats all good. well, the food was GOOD, and i did like the place too. i rarely have salad but i had a superfood salad which was like in my TOP 3 salads ever, very filling and very tasty. 

i was not happy with the christmas tree lights so i ret-- got them refunded and got new ones. how it seems to work here is that if you dont like something, and its not super pricery, you let them know and they just refund it. they dont care for you to return. well, for under 5£ items the shipping costs too so makes sense i suppose. but i find it weird. 

November 18, 2017

well, winter is here thats for sure

landlord emailed us regarding contract renewal, as expected. they want to up it by 82£/month! and, charge 100£ for renewal itself. so depressed now, cant deal with this. we'll try negotiate obviously but might actually just need to move, the current rent is kind of our upper limit. none of this is a huge surprise, but i guess im allowed to feel down nevertheless.

 LA Times: Whatever happened to the presumption of innocence?   good piece. ive thought about this a lot lately too. if its the case of ONE fuck up in your life  (usually its more though, of course), do you deserve to lose your job and have your life and reputation permanently ruined? not talking about Weinstein here obviously, but the fringe cases, where someone out a hand someones thingh in a car 20 years ago. also started reading Jon Ronson's So you've been publicly shamed. kind of related topics...

that brings me to Morrissey. he too had an opinion on this "Harassment Gate"..  i like Morrissey's music but his opinion as of late (on pretty much anything) are just nauseating.

another good article from LA; LA Weekly's One Band From Finland Inspired the Entire Sunset Strip Hair Metal Scene. yeah Hanoi Rocks obviously. they are soooo good :)

November 15, 2017

planning, high on caffeine

i should be excited over our soon upcoming Tenerife trip but instead i found myself planning for Santorini next May and even daydreaming of winter 2018! well, i am excited about tenerife but its there and waiting, not much to do. its a simple fun & sun trip, just need to chill a bit. i am not sure i would go to Santorini in May normally, but our friends are getting married there and we are invited. so, lets make it a holiday then? im just so confused over whether we should stay in Santorini the whole time or also go to nearby islands for a few nights. oddly enough, direct one way flights to separate islands is cheaper that return flight to Santorini, but the ferry cost evens it out. Mykonos seems to be a party island and have a higher cost of living, whereas Naxos is affordable but im not sure if its worth going to. well, all greek islands are pretty - i tink im just feeling lazy and hence would prefer to stay in Santorini all the way. when doctor returns from work tonight i'll get his opinion on our preferences. i feel slightly ridiculous for planning things this early, we might well be dead by May, but then again i dont see a reason to stop planning - the assumption is that we are alive and well and want to have a wide selection & early booking discounts...     comparing the hotels is just an endless task. there is the matter of location (nearby shops and restaurants), then reviews by other travelers, quality of wifi, pool, pool bar, and possible other perks. greeks are not into heating pools either so im between a rock & a hard place, do i just give up on swimming altogether or do we splurge on a private jacuzzi or something?? and as far as winter 2018 goes, i suggested to doctor we go somewhere properly bloody warm, like asia. he suggested Caribbean. ok, fine, i google what countries are around there. ive been to Cuba and Puerto Rico but hard to rmember exactly what other major holiday destinations share those waters... i soon come to the conclusion that a package trip may be a better deal for this one. luckily those websites allow you to just search "destination: caribbean", i guess im not the only idiot. St Lucia, Barbados & Dominical Republican looked potential candidates. also expensive. and we need to again decide our priorities, infinity pool or something lowkey & focus on culture?

interesting article; The Problem With Intersectional Feminism (AreoMagazine). i may not agree with everything but there are certainly parts that i nodded along deep and hard. but intersectional feminism is still a muddy abstract area in my mind so i am not making too many comments.

glad Terry Richardson got his share of the abuse outing. although i'd heard about it bfore, finally there was a reaction. im not convinced much will change but the direction is right.

the next book we are reading in book club is A Street Cat Named Bob! i think it will be great christmas time reading. kitty!

November 12, 2017

its like finland outside

so far so good; its november and 8-12c outside, yet we don't need heating every day all day. and when i turn the heating on, its just the living room. even with this, we pay 125£ monthly for electricity, although of course it also includes everything else from washing machine to water heater (there is a massive water tank in a closet). but i dont really want us to pay any more than that...yet i want to live in warm household which is very unbritish. but its looking promising. when going outside though, i feel like dying, it really is so cold, maybe the humidity... i have gloves and a hat but holy crap its not enough...

my calendar for 2018

we finally got an electric toothbrush. i guess if it works out well, we could get another to avoid the hassle with the brush heads. anyway i think so far we are both happy.

last summer day, October 15th, it was warm enough to enjoy the park in a t-shirt. now, its 8c and

Brixton rooftop held a 4 day Oktoberfest which we attended (me, doctor & Allan) on a thursday. the staff were dressed accordingly and it was affordable and good fun. for the winter they are doing a North Pole themed parties. its just behind the corner so very inviting.

i did some TKMaxx shopping recently. coffee for doctor, underwear for me and a christmas scented candle for home. 
lovely japanese dinner, i took Can to Clapham when he was visiting London and job hunting. i think once they move here Clapham is a potential area to live in, so i wanted to introduce the area.

Can brought me these from turkey. Nescafe 3in1's are seriously not easily available in London. of course u can find everything, but then it wont be cheap. its my favorite kind of coffee.

for halloween (goth themed), i bought a black table cloth from some sale bin at a nearby shop. one day to halloween and i realized i dont really have any gothy clothes anymore, despite being sure i did.

halloween. doctor shaved an upside down cross on his chest, worked well with the purple velvet jacket (mine).

Soho, Chinatown

Oxford Circus tube station iwht a Halloween theme. 

brunch at a brazilian place with Ville & Mikko. the long weekend they were here was great, had so much fun.  it helped that they seemed to really enjoy London, which i was not sure was gonna happen.

Brixton Village

yesterday we got a black christmas tree & lights. so its pretty simple and i dont plan on decorating further - simple is best. i think i just wanted some fairy lights during the dark season, and a tree is certainly the most logical spot to hang them. i already filled an empty wine buttle with some lights too, but it didnt seem to be enough.

random literature article that i found interesting, on Maria Machado's The Husband Stitch, on who we belive and why, was good.

this film, Sons of Granite, certainly seems interesting. i also wanna see The Disaster Artist and Suburbicon and documentary Good Fortune.

October 26, 2017

everyones slipping away

im starting to wonder what we should do for christmas. and new years. although doctor is working on NYE so its really a question of what can i come up with for myself. perhaps i could just ignore it, i mean, whatever?

just realized our friend moving here is gonna have a lot of "fun" with his name; Can. its basically the english word "can", from an english speakers perspective, lol. Can Can do this? oh boy.  not sure whats the best approach. when meeting someone, you can introduce yourself "Can, pronounced like Jon but with an a", but all the people who just see it written will call him 'can'... :D he is in between job offers and the other is at doctors hospital - so if he chooses that, they would be colleagues again. im really hoping for that, building a proper turkish mafia..  from there on we would drag all turkish friends to the same hospital, fixing the brexit euro leak lol. its a good hospital with a good location so i think we've set a good example.

attended Anna's unofficial farewell party tonight. it was just her last day of work, but in practice its the end of everythng - her visa is running out and she has to leave. she'll be around for a couple more months on a tourist visa, but traveling europe half of the time, then she is back to NZ. im gonna miss her badly. i feel like lately im just losing people. lets blame it on the oncoming winter. although i dont feel like the autumn has been bad at all, its sill like 17c and... well, lets just blame the autumn.

thank god i found Bachelor Canada's new season.

October 17, 2017

end is near

yesterday around 3pm it seemed like someone turned the lights off outside. and there was a yellowish brown 'filter' feel. armageddon coming...? it seemed odd. later i read inthe news, this was explained by a weather phenomenom or something.
hmm, just learned Anthony Bourdain & Asia Argento are together. interesting.

this long read, Dirty John, was really good, reality/crime story. there is a podcast too. 

the Weinstein situation has been both baffling and not surprising at all. as a woman of course i know this happens, its happened to me, but i can easily imagine that in 'show biz' its even more commonplace...  yet to see actressess come out one by one, detailing their ordeal...  wow. im so glad its happening. im not too optimistic about things changing much nor fast but lets at least put it out there, make it known, for the hope of an improvement. this behavior suffers from daylight and transparency.

October 14, 2017

the ad guys are killing it

i found a tv show (non-reality!!) on Channel4 that im liking; Professor T. its kind of humorous detective show, with weird music.  also, i like many british tv ads. they are inventive, competion does that i guess - its the same with US ads. or am i jst imagining, perhaps they appeal for another reason? maybe cultural differences, i just havent recognized patterns?  there are geuinely surprising moments and sometimes i go "wow, good job". even car ads can be pleasing at times.

im considering an electric toothbrush. must speak with doctor, but he is usually interested in all new gadgets. in the end it may be me who is not certain and him pushing for it.

went to see The National with a friends bf the other week, he had bought tickets a long time ago when they came on sale, and was looking for people to go with. my lucky day, an amazing band.

Antti K was visiting london early week, i took him  to drag bingo with doctor.

red - not sure it is my thing

wtf Brixton Village is for sale??!! makes me upset.

lol @ Lloyds. i called them a week or so ago in order to get quarterly bank statemens on paper. (im not so fond of paper but UK as a country is, and LONG STORY). so i ask them to sent me the statements. cool. its a joint current account with doctor. a few days later he receives a letter from Lloyds informing him that i have requested to move to online statements. ummm. the exact opposite. okay, i guess someone clicked the wrong button or something. typical .

looks like im just writing less and less these days. i wonder if its gonna be the end of an era. but it would be sad if i didnt have these "notes", even if superficial, to remember things by. time will show.

i was listening to NPR radio yesterday. there was a talk about studies of how having a smart phone even in your vicity (pocket, on silent face down on the table...) affects cognitive skills and attention. their presence has become so addictive or overpowering that if we know they are around, we cant focus and our brain gets lazy. i certainly have attention span issues, thats no news. i find it veeery hard to just sit still and watch a movie these days. i think thats why i find tv easier. reality tv especially, its so predictable u dont even need to intently watch the screen, u know whats going on by just listening too. which is great cos i like to play mobile games (tetris type of stuff) while "watching" tv. i think its relaxing. but i have a feeling its not good for my head... 

got this lovely pair of heeled trainers recently. i used to own an almost identical pair a few years ago but wore them out, they were so practical. these are quite comfy too.

 id long suffered with our toilet paper holder. most of the time the paper roll was just sitting on top of it, cos we were too lazy to put a new roll in, especially me. its just too difficult with long fingers!
 solution! a roll holder that's (conveniently not visible in photo) open ended so u just slide the roll in. PLUS a phone stand on top! genius. so pleased with myself.

omg how cute is this ikea coffee table!  i would love that.

while Soydan was staying with us, we decided to buy bleach and dye, he wanted a turquoise look and i had long dreamed of trying red streaks. last minute i changed my mind tho and decided to to the short side. firstly, the color is not exatly how i envisioned - its too orange-y. second, being the bleach n00b that i am, i managed to burn my skin in places with it. the peroxide was 12% so that might have something to do with it. anyway, once the burned spots heal, i can try another darker shade of red - its generally a bit uneven too so theres that as well. i decided im okay if its goes to hell tho, i can always go back to black...

olen taas lukenut Sanomalehteä

tää Ossi N:n tapaus oli jännä. on tosiaan niin että suomessa ei ole ok sanoa olevansa työttömänä tyytyväinen (luterilainen työmoraali jne?). mutta sitten mietin että missä olisi? eri kulttuurit ja maat on niin erilaisia etten tiedä onko ne vertailukelpoisia mutta aluksikaan suomen tasoista tukiverkkoa eli työttömyys ja muita tukia ei ole kuin ihan muutamassa maassa maassa. onkohan ruotsissa hyväksyttävää sanoa että on mieluummin työtön? turkissa maksetaan muistaakseni joku 6kk työttömyystukea ja sekin on pateettinen summa. jos sanot siellä että olisit mielummin työtön ja istuisit kotona niin ei se perhe kovin hyvällä katsoa. koska kukas muu sut elättäis kuin suku. suomessa yhteiskunta on sitä mitä perhe & ystävät suurimmassa osassa maailmaa. niin silleen tottakai hämää että joku kelaa että hänellä on oikeus elää yhteiskunnan rahoilla. mutta mielenkiintoista oli kans että Ossi on ilmeisesti ihan lahjakas kirjailija - kenties vielä tuottaa jotain sillä saralla, siis kulttuurillista perintöä. ja jos kirjat myy niin siitä pitänee maksaa veroa. mut mietin et mitä vaikka venäjällä tykättäis kun joku Ossi olis et 'mun mielestä teidn pitää elättää mut' :D

tää ruotsalainen kuolinsiivous on ihan jännä konsepti. aika peruskamaa oikeastaan, eli vähennetään tavaran määrää, mutta sopii mulle paremmin ajatukseltaan, kuin konmaritus. ja on muutenkin käynyt mielessä, kun mulla tuota tavaraa on aika paljon. toki mulla pitäis olla vielä elinvuosia- joka vuosikymmeniä - useita mutta eipä sitä ikinä tiedä.

Sofi Oksasen kirje Melanialle oli outo. Melaniaa tai ketään siellä päin maailmaa kiinnostaa se kirje nolla, mutta ehkei se nyt ole se pointti, ei kai noita kirjoitella siksi että kys henkilö sitä edes näkisi, vaan kyse on jostain mielipidekirjoituksentapaisesta...  mutta se oli niin pitkä vuodatus että sopisi paremmin johonkin romaaniin. kaikki esimerkit viron torien prostituution detaileista joskus 80-luvulla tms...  jos haluaa yhtään isomman yleisön kuin suomi niin pitäs ottaa ehkä vähän helpommin lähestyttävää kulmaa ja jättää omat kokemukset minimiin. mutta ehkä tuo nyt oli enemmän just suomalaisille suunnattu julistus. en ollut ihan eri mieltä sisällöstä mutta en kaikkea allekirjoittaisikaan. ironsesti slovenia on kuulemma maailman 8. tasa-arvoisin maa ja siell Melaniaa arvostetaan menestyneenä monellakin tavalla - toki se mitä slovenialaiset ajattelee oman maan tytöstä ja mitä amerikkalaiset ajatteleen "venäjän suunnalta tulevista naisista" on eri asia. en voi sanoa ymmärtäväni Trumpin vaimoa millään tasolla, mutta ehkei itäblokin naisten mainetta voi ihan vaan hänenkään harteille heittää, hänellä on varmaan omat motiivinsa ja huolensa niinkuin kaikilla - en minäkään käyttäytyisi tietyllä tavalla ihan vaan jotta suomalaisten maine muuttuisi johonkin suuntaan, jos sellaista valtaa olisi.

harmittaa että meidän firman pikkujoulut on sillon kun mä ja lääkäri ollaan lomalla teneriffalla.

October 02, 2017

going keeping and keeping going

i keep being amazed at Amazon's great service, you just dont expect that from big companies anymore (Spotify, Paypal, BT, HP...very disappointing...). even when things go badly due to a seller or courier service, Amazon fixes it. they know it will make me eager to use them again. hell, last week we bought doctor a new phone and paid 5£ extra to buy from Amazon "directly" rather than a seller on Amazon, so, quite a strong preference. and as it happened, they used The Shittiest Courier in UK aka Hermes, and the phone never came. Hermes lied about it blatantly "it's arriving today, yes it is", but once I contacted Amazon, things started rolling, Hermes admitted having lost the phone. Amazon took ownership of the situation and worked towards fixing it, keeping me updated. the replacement arrived 2 days later and the rep who had managed the case even called after to check everything is ok. who the hell does that? :D doctor seems happy with his Galaxy Note 8 too, so all is well now.

yesterday we visited a city farm in Vauxhall.

Hugh Hefner died, not surprisingly, at 91. its been interesting to read the articles around it. i think the subject, or his 'legacy',  is causing debate cause it isnt black and white. its a mix of nearly extremes. surely his magazine promoted sexualizing women as objects and all that, and having recently read Holly Madison's book, i wasnt surprised to learn he could be quite a manipulative, selfish ass. but, the other side about him is true too, how the magazine and Hefner himself supported womens liberation movement, as well as some other minorities. a hard core feminist like Gloria Steinem (well she had her own experience the Playboy Club too) is not forgiving but i think the story just has too sides, both true. my personal thoughts are a mix of these. but when i first saw the magazine as a teenager, i mostly appreciated the photography, some of it really was very good! especially Sante D'Orazio's pictorial of Stephanie Seymour inspired me and although now i look at it like "wow thats so 90s", i have to smile, i think it had a net positive effect on me.

NYTimes obituary 
NYTime's less flattering opinion piece  
Guardian's Suzanne Moore: I called Hugh Hefner a pimp, he threatened to sue. But that’s what he was 
Guardian: Effusive Hugh Hefner tributes ignore founders dark side
very interesting how both big medias wrote a 
Huffpost:  Trans Supermodel Shares How Hugh Hefner Fought For Her When No One Else Would

another social week coming up, it seems.

September 25, 2017

trip down memory lane

Istanbul trip done. certainly a first world prob but it made me so tired... its the conundrum of wanting to see all my friends but that requires scheduling and makes things busy and exhausting. anyway, met friends, old neighbors, ate some nice foods and enjoyed the sceneries and weather. kadiköy was pretty much the way we left it, it was lovely to be back. Arttu also joined us for 5 days, its not just us who missed istanbul :D

our our home has become a  studio for dance, music etc. i bet the landlady gets much better rent from a business, too.

late high cholesterol lunch with Cansu

 Kadiköy cats = love

the night life of kadiköy... sitting on the terrace at 10pm when its still 25C at least. loooovely. for Arttu's visit, we had an airbnb booked on this street.

turkish breakfast an Zeytin

bought a few nail polishes from istanbul...  

i was surprised the mail depot was open on sunday, i had a note from Royal Mail to pick up a package so i went to get it. my usual mail man was there behind the desk, so he said he knows me, i dont need to show ID. reminded me of turkey, the friendliness. in istanbul, one of my favorite things was the neighboring shops and going and saying hello, and it warmed my heart how excited they were to see me/us. asking how life in 'ingiltere' is and so forth. i missed those people a lot.

istanbul (sultanahmet in the bg) from our friends place. 

a while ago me and doctor were celebrating our month-versary at a nearby turkish-middle eastern restaurant.

at our local Ethiopian restaurant with Can when he visited.

 when not eating out, i sometimes enjoy the delicacies prepared by our in-house chef, doctor. he just whipped this up the other day when i was crying for a snack. he is easy to love :)
i figured i should have proper rain boots ie wellingtons if i live in London. these fit the description well. 

 yesterday i had an interesting luncheon with some british ladies. ive been a member of this fb group for maybe 2 years now, it's for (loosely described) alternative women, most of who live in the UK. occasionally some arrange local meetings so i actually stepped up and put together a London meetup. i would say it was a success. but also, being surrpunded by brits only, it was a culture shock, when the discussion goes into school memories and other local things, and keeping alone with accents alone is hard... not to mention local things you just dont know about...  well, it was interesting. overall very positive. 

Imperial War Museum was surprisingly good. i am not really into the subject, not very interested in history or fighter jets...but the museum had come up highly recommended and i wanted to go somewhere with Niina. the exhibitions we saw (WW1 and Holocaust) were both very 'artsy' and imaginative. WW1 had well done video visuals, and both exhibitions were full of stories of invidual people, civilians mostly. if u dont become a pacifist by visiting this museum, i dunno whats wrong. so while good, it was also quite depressing, no surprises there.

interesting article on Cuba's really good hurricane preparedness in Jacobin.

going to see The National tonight with Jessica's bf Ollie.