i saw a movie called marebito...pretty freaky but visually pleasing and worth seeing. i dunno wtf happened in it tho...i just enjoyed the blood.

i think if i go to bed now...when i get up i won't be sleep deprived anymore. in other words, i might not be super-tired. the thought of feeling all awake and good sounds strange. not like it's been that long since i did but it's easy to forget.

submission wrestling finnish championships are on saturday. i would like to go watch, but i would have to wake up by 2 or 1pm. and i don't think i can do that...i need a fuckin day off.

i have photo ideas but i'm stuck somewhere... and feeling very unhappy about it. sometimes it's a struggle... i've been trying to get things going for like a month but naa, can't get anything done. christ. have to kick myself in the ass. i dunno what's the point...taking stupid photos...it doesn't make any sense, but neither does anything else. is the problem in me, or the world, am i a part of the problem?