some granny moved next door to me... i already met her twice. grannies are okay but i almost missed a bus because she wanted to talk. apparently she was not too fond of moving here which i can understand, but i can't really help with that. my state of life is not such where i can help others to manage their poor condition. one day it might be but atm i'm having this really selfish phase and i don't have too much empathy and time to others. wow that sounded rude.

my friend gave me this link http://www.thesite.org/drinkanddrugs/drinking/responsibledrinking/safedrinking is she trying to tell me something? i just got into this whole drinking thing and now i'm already supposed to put on the brakes?

obviously there's a time for everything and everything comes to an end. i think just tonight something came to an end and i suppose i'm glad it did. it's so hard to let go and i admit i'm not good at that, i should grateful if someone does it for me, i just need to survive it and appreciate all the good things i got.

i'm having this horrible comedown, i was out drinking earlier tonight and i had plans to do all kinds of things....i usually do things at night after all but i really think my best bet would be to go to bed, i dont thinks things are going to get any better from here. are sleeping pills okay with alcohol? and what if they're not, what's the worst that could happen anyway? (i know what happens with 10, but i mean just one(1) ) *shrugs* my best bet is half a sleeping pill then, with water? i don't think i can get a hangover but i still remember how hangover was so maybe water is in fact a really good idea.

fuckshitrape how horrible i can feel all of the sudden :( my vacation-week is almost halfway through and this does not look good! fuck.

and fuckin english is really fuckin limited too. it's not just me having limited english, it's the actual fuckin language that pisses me off. finns have plenty more words to describe different states of drunkenness and drinking, and finnish is already a relic language and fairly raped so it's easy to twist it some more and still be understood, while english is just *blaaah*

i get too obnoxious for my own good when i drink.