back from work. last night Tiitta and me hung out with the aussies and the irishman drinking our asses off. had a pretty good time. we also went to Suomenlinna (see photos below) to see the sun set. to me its nothing special but they were really impressed with the scenery and serene athmostphere. and i recorded Laurens's song which he named 'smoked omul' (err). i got this digital recorder from my boyfriend to use as i was really obsessed in getting this song. Laurens was playing it by the campfire in Irkutsk and i recalled liking it so i thought it'd be nice to have the song and i used the opportunity as it arrived...

also i got this shirt from work;




















it says 'best before, and why not after too'

speaking of shirts here are tshirthell's latest

i think i just lost a bunch of photos. they were of the aussie brothers Nick and Simon. on the same memory card as the song i recorded so i'm thinking the recorder fucked the raw-files in the ass. this means i got an aussie song at the price of aussie photos.

call me paranoid but i think i haven't quite my usual self after the trip. i started having back aches on the trip and still do. my shoulders are stuck and hurting too. i occasionally feel dizzy and sick, like tiny hangover symptoms. regardless that i was drinking last night, i'm getting this like every day since my return. and my stomach aches occasionally. needless to say right now i'm feeling all of these. can't fuckin sit still, i need to go lay down wait the painkillers to kick in. unbefuckinbelivable, i'm just 26 for fuck's sakes. that's 2 fuck's in one sentence, hmm.

[later]
i was reading adbusters (#66)here and Maurna Desmond from NY wrote a short bitching article in it about the beauty ideals of today. well, i'm all for the cause, but at the same time, i'm on the other side as well. my photos show it and my cosmetologist background has something to do with it. Maurna was saying that the supposedly "perfect" women in mags look boring to her. and she mentioned "Lisa Rinna's duck lips" that i must assume she doesn't think highly of. here they are. she's prolly added something on the upper lip, but fuck, she looks fine to me. it's no news tho that i tend to think positive about what others refer to as horrible cases of duck lips, such and Meg Ryan and Lara Flynn Boyle. aaanyway, Maurna was upset that women are just products these days, which is true in many aspects, but the criticism on Madonna "having changed her soft creamy figure into what looks like a 14 yr old boy with perfectly spherical surgically attached breast and butt" is in my opinion unnecessary and annoys the shit out of me. Madonna has probably had some surgery, and a few diets too, but people's bodies are so different in general, and altho we think we do, we don't know about her diet and work out habits so critisizing her figure and bodyparts like that is just as bad as the actions that the critic is speaking against (i.e. men who complain that jennifer aniston's boobs aren't big enough.) the fact that Madonna is an über-celebrity has probably affected the way she looks and wants herself to look but for fuck's sakes lay it off already. she, just like every other celebrity, has the right to look how they want. or should Madonna look like your mom JUST because she's as old as your mom? gimme a break. i think the beauty ideal/media criticism too often falls into this cheap pit.

fuckin Canon is taking their fuckin time fixing my cam. is it worth buying Canon when the cams and lenses are rarely ready for use when bought, they must go through the service center first? and the service center is in no hurry, and why should they, i already paid for the freakin cam. now i can sit and wait, maybe some day i get it back and can use it to make a living, maybe not.
















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strawberry cider + the view!