a photo by Johan

and then there's THIS cuteness. i almost cried staring at it, no joke. i imagine holding a thing like that would be the best thing in the world. i just want to pet one, snorgle it and pet more.

i'm trying to set up some photoshoots now....finally. i tried to go to bed, but couldn't sleep and started thinking of photos. it was about fuckin time.

today i realized it's less than 2 months until i go to canada! very exciting but stressful as well, i need to scrape together some money. but i can't wait to get there and go shopping and drink with Kev and see all the people i've been missing. and loads of new ones :) Kev is going to china for a photo-trip (commission work) while i'm there, in october, so i'll be alone for a while but that's cool. i'll just try to spend the time efficiently, shooting. means i gotta take my own cam with me tho, we both have a 5D but he will need his on the trip.

me leaving soon means my bf is leaving even sooner... in 2 weeks. he's going to south carolina in exchange. some university, u know... it doesn't seem like a super-big deal, we already managed a half year when i was in canada earlier, and the internet exists, and we plan to meet in new york... still, shocking to realize that he will be gone so soon. i hope i don't get depressed, would suck to not have him to talk to.

i am getting this feeling of freedom after leaving my dA admin post. well, i might be continuing doing something else, but right now i'm kind of unemployed and...yea, free. i have been adding extra swearwords in my comments (nothing meaningful, just extra swearwords), i dunno why, i am noticing some happy recklesness in myself... it's pretty cool. of course, life is the same this week as it was last week, but i feel a little different :)