well, today was the documentary day. i guess it went alright but i really don't feel like seeing it(myself). and now i'm just tired, but i just put clothes in the washing machine so i suppose i should wait until its done and hang the clothes to dry. if i let them stay in the machine overnight they will smell moldy in the morning. bah... fuck. whatever. i need sleep.

on a 0 to 10 scale, today was a 4. the documentary people were nice and all, and it was an interesting experience, plus i should be grateful for it and i am, but i was really tired and mentally just weak, which has been the case lately. i feel lonely again. and i feel like an ungrateful shit for not having the energy (or interest?) to reply even 'fanmail' (nothing new, this has been the case for a while now - i usually manage to reply...but it takes forever). i am grateful, i just...whatever. feel tired.