a friend was reading my blog today, after a break i guess. he seemed to get quite upset over the fact that a while ago i said something about the finnish-swedes not being 'ethnically pure enough' for my young finnish men -photo series. the purpose of the series is to find and depict finnishness, as it appears in...young finnish men. i am in specific looking for the very basic features of finns, something that has developed over dozens of generations, something primitively finnish. now, someone whose grandparents parents moved here 150 years ago, is finnish, and i have no objections to that, but they cannot simply carry those genes that have grown and developed here in these people over time. these people? well, finns. i don't think that is especially racist, altho Alex felt that way. to say that finnish-swedes are somehow wrong or non-finnish or ethnically impure would be racist... but that's not what i'm saying. i'm saying they're not technically, which i guess means ethnically, finnish enough to fit in my fuckin series. Alex said i have racist tendencies in my thinking (not very uncommon feature in finns - unfortunately), which is right but not in this specific case. i'm looking for the fuckin finnish identity and finnish-swedes are not a part of it right now.

on a sidenote, swedish speaking population has been been moving to finland starting latest 1100 or 1200-century. people now known as finns settled in this area either before the last ice age (130 000 yrs ago) or 8700 b.c.

people who join the church again just to get a church wedding are pathetic. thats insulting to say but since i've apparently gotten started by being a "racist", well... if u join the church it oughta be because you believe in god, holy spirit and whatever the fuck goes with the specific religion.

i'm very tiny bit upset and annoyed today. i did wear a red knitted scarf type of thing, along with red lipstick, which kinda cheered me up. i'm not really into the christmas thing but i figured i'll play along a bit. i got the scarf-thingy from my grandmother, she made it :)

and i'm tired again! jesus fuck what is up with this - at least i don't have anything tomorrow. do i? whatever i guess i have to comply and go sleep - either that or consume some caffein