i was supposed to go to bed early but ended up watching american's next top model, season 6. all of it. well, that was.... tv entertainment, its all i can call it. reminded me of how i've sort of lost my focus and forgotten about photography lately. i think its okay to take breaks, and they just happen, but how do u know if a break is becoming the new permanent state? Kev said it'd be great to have his old friend back instead of the pathetic mess i am right now. lol. and that eventually my true nature should overcome this phase. he's what friends are about. it was comforting, to remember how i used to be. not like i'm a different person now but at the same time i am. i haven't kept my focus. i had to do this though, i always say 'you only have one life', which is why i've gone with my immediate feelings and wants and urges, but for the same reason i need to remember what i want in the long term and where my real passion is and press that and never forget it. its weird to suddenly wake up and remember how far u've drifted from what u were doing a few months ago.

someone is going to be very tired tomorrow. i'll just make sure my skin isn't dehydrated and caffein takes care of the rest.

"Youre the cutest girl I've ever seen in my life
But its over now and with my knife"
Therapy? : Diane