hot old

apparently i'm "still hot for an old woman". well thank you Kevin R for telling me...*rolls eyes* he offends people on purpose :)

hard to see myself as old altho i realize im getting there. the other day in the news a teenager was telling about the 'older' men she slept with for material goods. she commented that as far as age, 30 is her limit, "thats pretty old". yea, i can see that, i mustve felt the same way when i was 15, of course. but then i look at F, he's 30. and im like wow thats hot. well, this is how things change by age.

when i was 14 i 'dated' a 20 yr old. and considered that old. the age gap does sort of grow the younger the other party is... and now im like "wtf was he seeing a 14 yr old! jesus" not that he saw much of me to be precise, we met at a festival and went on one date. at which he designed one of those rose-tattoos with my name on it... err. he was full of tattoos. he considered us a couple. but after that night i never saw him cos the feelings were not mutual. i sent him his army-ID plates back in mail. and called of course, to tell him that "it" (what??) is over. he was heartbroken. geez. nothing even happened, he slept that night. drunk as a fuck. after he drove me home with someones car that later turned out to be stolen... i was an idiot. lol.

i got my kitchen table from ikea as well. i was gonna get the black version but when i saw this... and admittedly white+metal are the 2 colors in my kicthen, i had to change my mind. now the problem is that i cannot find cheap chairs that are narrow enough to fit underneath it. when not in use, i absolutely do not have space to have chairs hanging around, they need to fit under the table at least partly. so, theres a puzzle to solve.



















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