515 days, official

i did not have the energy to go shoot the giant bunny today. did not sleep much last night as it was spent with me and F breaking up. he wanted to continue his life alone. we were very (too) different. but i do feel guilty about this. hopefully not forever, it aint a good feeling.

he left in the morning. so, not the best of days, feels surreal. i sit here, but everything is different from yesterday.

i changed my Facebook status, heh. i wouldve had to do it sooner or later. i miss seeing his name there "in a relationship with..."

i remember well thinking this whole thing will end in tears, and coincidence or not, but it did. i also accepted it, assuming it'll be worth it. and it was. beautiful 1,5 years, or more, with some setbacks in the beginning. when i felt i could not go on further with him or itll kill me when it ends. but surely, it does not. life goes on, i know.