born to model

i just finished the shoot with the foreign girl. turned out she does live in Finland, but not in Helsinki, so she was visiting the city for the day. she is from Russia, and veeery smart, i had great conversation with her. and lucky for me she was a great model, taking every instruction and looking beautiful from any angle. she works as a model (180cm tall!!) occasionally. but really, she was amazing, with great personality, and bears some similarity to Monica Bellucci who is super hot. im happy i took the opportunity to shoot her altho i couldnt prepare for anything special so i just took port folio type of photos. hopefully something else later.



































FedEx paid me a visit. i didnt really expect anything THIS huge. f... thank you dA :) i appreciate this.


















unpacked. beautiful even if i say so myself. with black border. not only easy on the eye but reminds me of some of the beautiful moments ive had in my life. the photo started with me wanting to capture something, about the relationship. i have no idea where on my walls it would fit, but i will find a way... i have to get it up there. i know it looks selfish since its my own but fuck that. (namely, its this product in dA)













in the end today was okay. really, quite okay. i exchanged some emails with F. he is happy, which makes me smile too. i took a few photos and the whole thing was a cool experience. had a good chat with a friend online. received this huge print... and had a date earlier with an obnoxious guy who admitted to beating up his wife in the past. no he was not proud of it, i just kept demanding for him to tell something really bad or embarrassing about himself. why? because its more fun than talking about the weather. ive always wondered who are those guys really, statistically i should know at least a couple personally. but this was my first encounter really. much better info than what he thinks of the weather. he presented me with some good opposition to my cynical and sharp tongue. i know if i tell anyone they will roll their eyes and imagine me in the ER already. or perhaps my friends would know me better. as i told this guy, aggression is a huge-fuckin-no-no to me, i will stay away for certain.

a very funny moment was when i was referring to my past relationships in a sentence somewhere, and concluded that "they've all been quite good really, and the men were all more less very nice i suppose, in relation, at least no one ever beat me up... " i bursted out laughing in the middle of the sentence as i realized what i was saying, it was not intentional. he wasnt smiling. but u have to be ready to take some shit for what uve done! i think he knew that.

oh and i received a letter from my american pen pal :) apparently he hasnt killed anyone lately, he got the 6 yrs in the hole for being associated with some gang...i dunno. whatever.

but honestly, who cares about all that, when u just got shoes like THIS! (Bronx, 17e from eBay) HAAAA!



















i want to see bunny-dreams tonight! i saw some buns last saturday at the picnic. they were all hopping around happily, like bunnies should, eating grass. me wants to do that too. okay im too cheery for my own good, haha.

bunneeeehs...