wrecking the brain

so from ordinary stress i go to super-stress. i have to make decisions about my trip and financing it and if and how to get iranian visa in time and if its a viable idea to begin with, since i just heard the deadline for the book cover thingy is feb 15th. christ. i need to do it regardless. and the english teaching stuff is keeping me quite busy too, its been a while since i had to do 'schoolwork'... read and understand what i read and then produce something new! ugh... but i created this situation myself so im not complaining really.

so the whole iran thing is still a question, the train only goes once a week and so i would need to match my flights accordingly. if it doesnt work out ill just hang out and relax in istanbul. but i made my mind up about going there anyway since it should help me determine some things, and yea i selfishly just want to get out again. the polar bears are dying from the gas emissions my flights cause, i know. penguins too. and then everyone else. im such a shitty person :(

last night i spend wondering if its okay to wear a pink dress in iran. i read somewhere all colors are fine, but i wonder if pink is included in "all colors"? anyhow its 10degrees in Tehran so i would have a jacket. so nevermind. i am very decisive on having a white headpiece though. i think white fits me and brings out my face :D

now, ill go apply for a new passport today anyway, whether ill need it soon or not, i guess then its done for one. the israeli stamp seems to have an overall bad karma and i dont want to raise suspicion anywhere might i go.

this friday i should take photos for my cousin, she is 8 months pregnant, so ... thats the theme. i am still missing a certain bunny model, havent heard from her human companion as to when they might be coming... :(