off to party which i deserved

i am still sweating with the photo project job....its a little bigger than i expected (and that was planned). i counted that out of the 2470 or so photos that i shot (deleted ones are not counting, i had to produce this amount of actual 'perfect' shots), with actions, droplets and .bat files that have taken forever to perfect, i am producing altogether about 56 490 photos....  needless to say, the file naming and foldering and everything is confusing no matter how organized and systematic i try to be... if im even a bit tired, i start fucking things up.

my tenant just dropped by and we signed the papers for the lease of this flat. huh, that was relieving, i was getting stressed, i need to have papers in order to be able to relax, even theoretically. theres no way im relaxing for a while now. oh, except for tonight, after a bit more work im going to K's party, which i am also calling my personal farewell party, unbeknownst to anyone (but K, i think i told him). a few drinks is surprisingly relaxing and i fuckin need it!!! im not sleeping much lately without sleeping pills. dammit. i think its been half a year or so, at least, since i last took a single sleeping pill. its not a habit for mine, just for situations like this. which is a vert mentally hard situation btw!

now, off to party. then, tomorrow, more work. and i guess i need to think about packing too at some point.

*listening to Sigur Ros*