what's the meaning of life? i don't know. but why don't i give a shit?

my bf says the purpose of life for him is to entertain himself...which i think is a pretty good goal. i guess that's what we do a lot anyway, and what else could we do? hmm, try make the world a better place? they don't collide which each other, but i personally see it as futile, everything is pretty much fucked. i try not to fuck things up much more and i think we oughta be thoughtful towards other beings, humans and animals both, but there is no reason to try make big changes for the better as it's useless.

i am tired of people who use shit emails like yahoo or hotmail. they cannot receive big files (nor even small ones at times)and then act surprised over it. their inboxes get full and my mails are returned. i have spent hours resending shit and trying to figure out if someone got my mail or not (usually to find out they didn't). and if the communication is dependant on the mail, and it doesn't work, well, then there is no communication! getting free working email accounts these days is pretty easy so i cannot see why ppl are stuck with their hotmails and shit. if you need gmail i'll send you an invitation, just fuckin ask!

6-day working week coming up.

i need to take meaningful and personal photos. even more than before. i want to do meaningless shit too tho.

all the gun freaks make me want to reconsider if i should photographs guns at all anymore... but of course i won't let it affect me that much...it just occurs to me every now and then. i will shoot what i want, but they're seriously the most annoying of all the annoyoing freak-groups. now, will i get a bullet in my head for saying that?