i'm starting to feel almost healthy again... still coughing but otherwise okay. i'm trying to remember what happened yesterday... undelievably hard. now i remember. i slept real late. then i met up with my friend Jasu, the guy whom i used to work with in a video rental store. we sat at a park, and it was so warm...unbelievably warm, felt like the summer almost. i felt the sun burning my arms as a i wore a tshirt. we talked movies...what else :) then i had a meeting with this girl, i will shoot her a suicide girls-photo set next week and we planned it a bit. after that i saw something on my way home which got me anxious and depressed me, and i could've survived as it was but instead i opted to go to Tiitta's and bought some booze on the way. so we had a good time drinking. i then got home and it feels like i spent all night fighting with the computer. well, programs to be exact. long story, i was just looking for a certain song and it's not really available... and if it is, the software they force you to download dowsn't work, or only american credit cards are accepted or whatever... i got really depressed. we had a chat with my bf on skype, and i think afterwards i realized how little we get to talk these days. this was the moment that the distance kicked in. but it took quite a while so i can't complain. he's just not as much online as he used to be, i can't call him whenever i wish, i can't share everything...and now it's starting to wear me out. all these technical issues and stuff got me really down and i felt shit. so at 5am or so i decided to go to bed cos i couldn't handle life anymore.

i slept some 14 hours, exactly what i needed. i felt much healthier and better in general. ny first love&anarchy movie was on tonight, Rosario Tijeras. it was sorta slow paced but well cut, not boring at all. pretty emotional, got me crying. it had the kind of drama that i enjoy. oh and the main actor, he was a hottie (Unax Ugalde, what a name...err).

the reason i've watched some scandinavian movies in the past half a year is simple. i got a set of movie channels, of which one is for nordic stuff only. in the night(=when i am awake and have interest to watch moviea) the channels show porn between 1-4 am except for the family and nordic channels. porn would be fine but it's not the kind of stuff that i prefer, and i certainly won't watch 'family movies' so all i got left is nordic movies! :( pathetic. if i could design a channel, it would have mixed martial arts and boxing furing the day, and (good) porn during the night. but if i had to pick between the 2, i rather have a fight/boxing channel than porn.

something funny happened. i photographed those 2 aussies a couple months ago (blog entry) but haven't really the internet/energy to look into the photos. i now opened the file and picked photo of each and developed them. i had earlier, right after the shoot, chosen a couple just for preview purposes, to show friends and stuff. the ones i picked now were the same i noticed. actually, it's not that amazing, it's happened many times before. out of say 50 pics, i can pick one on an instant, and even after hours of pondering, i will usually end up with the same one. it's just that i know what i like, what works for me, and i recognize it on instant. below are the previews.


















they are brothers. very cool people btw :) but which one is to represent Australia in my foreign men series? tough one to decide.

i need to watch another movie don't i???? fuck yea