i wasted away today as well. just watched x-men - the last stand with Kev. i rather watch 'light' and easy movies these days, its wuss and i can't explain it, i just emphatize with movies so much, if they're emotionally heavy it gets to me. i can't have that right now. x-men was utter blah blah as expected, but i felt better afterwards. in fact, i felt like letting go of some things that keep me from sleeping. there was lots of american bollocks in the film, like this red head bitch that went completely nuts("couldn't control her powers..."). and they were just like shouting her name or telling her to stop... someone should've just asked wtf is her problem, look in the mirror and calm the fuck down. and then this other character that killed people like ants but turned into a angel after her powers were taken away. split personality disorder? i wished someone had have her sit down then and slapped her and ask WTF. and have her write a 4 page essay on wtf did she think she was doing killing people. like, maybe she felt like she was titled to, or maybe she had a childhood trauma or maybe she'd confess she needed anger management. i know, that's not part of the plot, but these movie characters always get me very anxious and bring out violent thoughts in me. the wolf guy was in one point closing in on the red head who was crazy and destroying everything around her, and his clothes melted, except for his pants. must've been special material. its like his skin was melting... but the pants stayed on. for a spoiler i can tell u he then told her he'd die for her, and she asked him to save her, and he said "i love you" and poked her to death with those cool ingrown claw-things. it looked like he felt pretty bad about it. heh. and she looked happy (for he saved her by doing that). and in the end all is well. la lala alalaa...

me and my bf made the hotel reservations for NYC yesterday. that made me feel better for a sec. first we're staying in this fancy designer suite (coincidentally, Stefan Lindfors has designed a part of that particular artsy hotel), and then the rest of the time in this studio apartment, 4-star :P it's in the middle of nowhere tho. well, next to central park but like, that's kind of northern manhattan or something i think. the first hotel is in the center of the world! hehe. can't wait to really get to talk with him. we're in a bit of a crisis, and the distance isnt helping. but unpleaseant distance experience was to be expected i think, that's what happens when the person u date goes away for a long time. meeting in NYC is good, we can catch up a little but really it isn't until in december/january that we really get to continue life and discuss things.

the only achievement for the day was going to shoppers drugmart (200m from the house) and buying sprite and shampoo and soap. maybe tomorrow i get a little further... i just washed my hair with the brand new shampoo :) relaxing experience.

i'm chatting with Tony, he seems to be my only contact in finland since i'm here. well, yesterday i talked to mnoo (she's doing these crazy youtube videos now!!) but i chat daily with Tony. i should prolly call my mom one of these days let her know i'm okay, she's always so worried. although, as i explained to her, as long as she doesn't hear from me or anyone else, everything is okay.

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