i'm supposed to be on a vacation but something doesn't feel right. my head? i feel okay about the shopping, going to the party yesterday, going to see improv tonight... but i feel like i've wasted time too. i havent done anything in days. haven't replied emails, haven't dealth with dA...nothing. and, i feel kind of weak, tired or such. but like, in a really big perspective. suddenly i lack the drive that keeps me going. not good.

the other night Kev and i watched Zodiac. just a movie, i don't feel like i wasted my time, but that's prolly cos i didn't expect much from it. it had some visually nice scenes, even inspiring.

from the very bad Casanova (2005) movie:
Sister Beatrice: What then, senor Casanova, do you seek?
Casanova: A moment that lasts a lifetime.

at the improv show i met Hesi again. and her friend Eugene, whom i was supposed to meet up with while in moscow in June. the world is small, our schedules didn't match up then but now i met him anyway. Hesi had told him i'm the chick who thinks she can drink canadians under the table, and altho they are originally russians, i think i can handle it. so we will drink sometime soon. next friday i'm meeting this local photographer guy for the same reason. i think his name is Tristan.

oh and James performed at the improv show too, really well might i add. he's someone i briefly met when i was in canada in 2004. i think there was flirt when we first met, not sure. anyway we exchanged e-mails. last year, in around august, he was travelling in europe with his brother and wrote me and we met just quickly for a drink in helsinki. i thought it was kind of fun, having met him first in his home town, on the other side of the world, and then have him over in my city. and now we met again. he's really laid back and friendly person.

today sucked for me, and not just cos in the end i felt disappointed and unhappy. from the beginning the day was doomed i think. i am caught up in memories and trivial crap, i am stressed over insignificant things...i miss my keyboard, (all) my clothes and some friends. i can't take the small talk, i had forgotten how horrible it is.