Kev watched Machinist and gave it a 7. for comparison, he gave V for vendetta an 8. we discussed problems today. Kev diagnosed 3 kinds of probs; those that affect others, those that eafect yourself, and those that affect both. he determined that smoking affects both, while i think in cases like smoking it might vary. if you make sure it doesn't affect anyone else, and you are alright with it killing yourself, there is no problem! also, being selfish and self centered, i find it hard to diagnose almost any of these general problems in myself, but i realize that technically selfishness could be considered a problem. also, thinking that i'm always right could technically be a problem... but it doesn't feel like that to me actually. i am right 98% of the time, and the rest 2%, well, who cares? it's error margin that does not need to be mentioned. anyway, coincidentally, one of the things i say very often is 'i have an issue/problem with...'. like, i don't like soups. in other words i have an issue with soups. i think it is a minor problem, it doesn't affect my life a lot, nor anyone elses, but its out of the ordinary and i wonder what causes it. Kev doesn't think its a problem, and yea its not like the other stuff, the general stuff that i referred to. i have some problems with myself, but who doesn't. speaking of which, i got this e-mail today:
(must've been someone who interviewed me for a school presentation or something, they didn't bother including prev emails so i got no clue)

"thank you so much, jen.
its so meanful to me, and youre so much down to earth. by the way, i cant remember my childhood either, hihi..
oh yeah, one of my topic of the shoolwork is, do you have any psychologist problem? because its so rare that someone could appreciate a macabre thing. and im one of them, anyway."

and that was the whole e-mail. what was meaningful? did he ask about my childhood? now i know why, he's asking if i got "psychologist problem" ... nice. like, split personalities? if i am a schizophrenic, would i advertize it? maybe it will ruin his schoolwork but i think i'll keep my psycho problems to myself. maybe i should've linked him to this blog...i'm sure he could pick up all the signs and make his own conclusions...

and here's Kev's take on the problem topic :)

must see stuff, Tarantino is one of my heroes.

political compass.... i've done this before. i think i was more less the same, but maybe i'm more left now. here's my chart. my bf invited me to do the test, and i knew he wanted to show off his results. because according to his test result, he's on the left and liberal, not very far from me, whereas i think he's much more to the right. and i am always right, right? our difference of opinion in politics and economics has been an actual problem for ages, but the test suggests the problem is almost non-existent. i do think it exists though. now there's a whole new problem.

yesterday i watched Stay. my bad. i was all aggravated and anxious 5minutes to it. somehow i pulled through. maybe i was too tired though, it was just one of these artsy confusing movies, where u don't know what's true anymore, it's like a puzzle. but the annoying characters and scenes and my tired brain resisted solving it. it's like a thriller and someone is fucked in the head but u don't know who it is and end up thinking its just you. visually, it was pleasing, nice cuts and angles and all, stylish. i suppose it's not THAT bad of a movie, i am just hypersensitive to these...emotional movies? no, tense movies? it has a lot of tensity, and my tolerance seems to be at a zero, Kev was quite okay with that. he didn't love the movie either but he didn't feel nearly as uncomfortable as me watching it. see, that's another problem i have, i'm hypersensitive to tension in movies. that's no news though, but there is bad news and that is that's its only getting worse, like cancer.

smith and jones on youtube.