the dishwasher is fixed and the bill is around 100euros. oh well.

i should go to the library... i only read the beginning of the Kafka book, maybe i oughta finish it first and then go?

for the documentary, i set up a shoot that i was supposed to do a couple months back, but lacked the inspiration and cancelled it at the time... i wasn't so hopeful regarding it, but i think the photo might be alright. not sure...still working on it, or more like digesting it... this is the working copy

















oops the colors are wrong, the file is in adobe's color profile. whatever. anyway. the title is supposed to consist of names that refer to the stab wounds on her chest... a photo should be able to stand on its own but i really like the bluntness of the connection here...5 stab wounds, 5 names in the title. the problem is, i got confused somewhere along the way... i came up with a title(names) back when i got this idea, but i'm not sure if it was suppose be only 4, instead of 5. because now that i'm trying to put this together in my mind, 5 seems like too many, that's a fuckin list. i'm trying to configure 5 names that fit together that don't make it seem like a list. one of them should be a french name?


"no answer"

















nothing amazing, just an easy shot from a couple months back. i don't feel close to the photo, its so pretentious, so set-up... pretty girl praying and crying, the light perfectly catching the tear on her perfect cheek... i don't know why i like taking these kind of photos when i don't feel close to them. i guess i can find something there that is familiar...but mostly its just a collection of my memories of movies and pop-culture and stuff...combined with my fancy for the dark. nothing wrong with that tho.


tomorrow is a shopping day for me and mnoo. altho with my trip gone way over budget, i think i'll keep a low profile. its teh time of the year when i should start thinking of christmas presents... :( i only buy presenst for a few ppl, i think 5 or so...yet its pretty difficult.

i watched unknown white male, and i dunno what i was expecting but it was slightly boring... too bad. i can't believe its only 6pm...it feels like 10pm..or midnight. fuckin library is still open. and i can't believe, this has bothered me for a while, that i very fluently use am and pm instead of the 24hour clock... wtf is wrong? i still think in 24-hour mode...but when i write, i convert it to am or pm...
and, i feel lonely.