i went christmas shopping with mnoo... i think it was refreshing even if i didn't buy lots of stuff... i really wanted a certain type of skirt but couldn't find one. feels unfair. i'm trying to figure out what to wear for the christmas party tomorrow. whats nice is that the weather is really fuckin warm and theres no snow... so i have a lot more options than i normally would at this time of the year. especially shoe-wise. still, i feel like i got nothing to wear. i have shitloads of clothes though so how could this be?? and who gives a shit what i wear? :( well this type of thinking is not good... i need to cheer myself up. i need a shower.

my inner clock is in fuckin japanese time or something...i dunno whats up. i go to bed before 10pm and get up early in the morning. its VERY weird. must be some sort of reverse jet lag effect, i hope it goes past soon. Kev said its called 'normalcy'. whatever. what the fuck made me suddenly normal, did i hit my head? i think itll be fixed tonight as i'm staying up late. i agreed to go out with the airport-guy, he called me last night. he wants to see a gig in a club and well, i said i'd go. i'm still wondering how i'll work out the situation as i wouldn't mind knowing him, as a person, but that's all. Tony is calling me cruel :( and after thinking about it, i agree i am cruel, always was, BUT right now i AM trying my best in solving the situation nicely. who knows maybe hell figure out i'm not his type and i don't need to say a word. my motive is actually to get my mind elsewhere from the stuff that depresses me, i think going out shopping helped with that too...made the athmosphere a little lighter...


kentsoul always did well with erotic photography but this one is wow... i've had something similar in mind for a while but alas, setting up a scene like that is not so simple :S