i slept 14hours...good stuff. its just weird being up on a sunday morning at 8am. i've been listening to finnish music this morning, 80s classic by Dingo and so forth. shock treatment.

yesterday i tried watching Borat, which a lot of ppl say is like the funniest movie ever...but i felt too uncomfortable. "kuumottava" is more accurate but thats finnish right there. funny moments and nice humor but i couldn't watch it all. oh well. jackass 2 is pretty decent. eating cow shit and filling the ass with beer were highlights. and i would've wanted to join the anaconda hunt, seemed fun and bloody.

i looked up 'love' from wikipedia because i was going to state that i love my computer but wasn't sure if that's really accurate. the entry does refers to humans. but that is narrowminded is it not. i remember a quote that was something along the lines of about love being selfless, like a kid who loves her doll, without asking anything back in return. that pretty well describes my feelings toward my computer. i defragmented my C drive, and was gonna defragment D, but the computer said it doesn't require it. i felt so proud.

the orange menace kitty!

i was reading Tunnustuksien Luola; the finnish version of grouphug, and felt sooo normal. its great that way. after some thinking, i realized i'd have some amusing and pathetic stories to share too, but nothing really shocking, nothing to match the best stuff in there. and for some reason, i think the finnish site is much worse (in the good sense of the word) than the american. the latest confessions on the american site currently include
*someone who loves their bf's best friend
*someone who used their ex for sex
*someone who dropped a pencil on the floor to get their teacher to pick it up to see her cleavage...
*someone who'd like to go out with 2 younger guys but feels too awkward to actually go ahead with it
the latest finnish confessions include
*someone who says they suck in bed
*someone who used to somewhat share a bedroom with their parents and heard them having sex
*someone who put candles and a banana up inside herself
*someone who farted in school and accidentally shit himself as well

well, i dunno if there's a huge difference but anyway. someone confessed that they'd need to loose weight, but they don't because being fat means only people who care for the inner beauty will befriend them. he/she thought it was practical. kinda interesting. i've thought about this before actually. if you think of people as products on the shelf of a store (how superficial of me!), surely the ugliest products get picked by those who appreciate what the product is like quality wise or whatever. and the fanciest things get picked by all kinds of people, including those who just want nice things on their shelves. so yea, it makes sense to be unattractive, but kinda narrows things too. if you get picked up by all kinds of people, you meet a bigger variety of them, including the ones who care for the inside, you just have to figure out which is which. but i assume you learn more about people if you meet a wider selection of them. then again, while pretty people are busy being pretty, the less-pretty have more time watching it all happen and learn a lot about life that way. complicated.

well, i vacuumed and cleaned up my place a bit which made me feel effective. now i'm thinking of calling someone or visiting a friend or something, i could use some company. or maybe i just stay home alone. watch another movie? or keep reading confessions, they are so profoundly amusing and make me feel better about myself :)