well i'm not too happy now. its the little things (and bigger ones) that get to me. fuckin annoying. i arranged to meet Tiitta and Tony tonight, maybe that helps. its upsetting to find myself get more and more anxious as if i was unable to do anything about it. well i think am, unable that is. i'm not sure if i'd agreed to do something tomorrow... but on tuesday i'm set to film this documentary. or be filmed. whichever. i got the questions beforehand and should think em through i suppose. and set up a photoshoot that they can film.

i watched Loverboy. i think it made me feel worse. which is why it took me all this fuckin time to get around to it. drama and shit only depresses me, it shouldn't be that way but what can u do. and its dark outside, as if it was 9pm but its really just 4. since when did that bother me? since right now.

well i went to see Tiitta. vented a bit, feel lighter now. now Tony is coming over. and i chatted with muuli and he said he'd come over later, we'll drink a bit. a pretty good way to spend the night.