oh fuck - i read the 2 first lines of the first poem of Kalevala and go 'oh no i can't do this!!' so much for that :( maybe i'll, err, give it another try some (long) time after surviving the initial, albeit expected, shock.

i went out with Melanie tonight. i was supposed to photograph her...but i didn't feel like it at all. the whole trip i've been so uninspired it's sick. so we just dropped it and went out for dinner and such. she wants to shoot me for a series of hers tho. time is suddenly running out real fast...i wanna meet ppl and do things but my schedule is starting to look full. anyway i can't complain.

i watched the first episode of reality series Porno Valley today. i expected more from it but it was decent to watch.

also i received Base Instincts: What Makes Killers Kill? in the mail and pretty much read it. i guess there's a reason i never buy these books, they just don't offer that many surprises... in the book it is concluded that being a victim of abuse and having mental disorders are the main cause for someone to behave extremely violently and/or killing. well, i think we already knew that. i must've had a weak moment when i was doing my book shopping. yet i read it, where there's blood and violence there's me, and it was well written.