the only cold drink in my fridge atm is cider, i just got back from the grocery store but the soda needs a couple hours to cool to be drinkable. nothing wrong with drinking cider but just for the thirst??

i'm in a good mood. the company christmas party was pretty entertaining, good moments there. and great to see all those people after a 2 month break, sort of a cool homecoming. the last party was only slightly before i left and i got totally piss drunk there and have a few hours of black out, and the price is that i get and got reminded of it quite a bit. its not such a big deal, drinking and drunk behavior is more like a easy topic for convo. there is always a few ppl that are completely wasted and sometimes its your turn. some people get more turns than others tho, but last night i made sure i wouldn't be among them. on my drunkness scale i was only nearing 3 at the best.

theres this new couple at work (well there are lots of couples lately), where the chick, she was with this guy for i dunno, several years, and shes like 25, and they got married this summer. and then this guy from work, he's like 35, he was married with 2 kids. and then these two found each other and she divorced only months after the wedding and he, well, left his family for her. and now they're a couple. i thought it was hilarious. i don't know either of them too well but anyway. i ran into him last night and said i'd heard about the 'recent changes' in his life and he was like yea...he had to make some tough choices (divorce) and i was like yea, but you got one life and i guess u gotta do what u gotta do and i congratulated him. he was probably pretty drunk and was just euphoric over what i said and hugged me impulsively. i thought that was weird (in a good way) but later realized that not everyone necessarily congratulates him for what he did. i'm just happy that 2 people did what they felt was right. regardless of what future holds for them, its so easy to condemn without knowing the situation. i don't know the situation that well either, i'm just kind of automatically assuming that they thought it through. either way i feel compelled to be happy for them.

i just had a shoot with this nice guy; Rasmus. he's a finnishswede so unfortunately not qualified to be in my young finnish men-series but i wanted to shoot him anyway, he has a nice face. when i explained someone that i can't include him in the series, they concluded "because he's not ethnically pure enough", which makes it sound kind of racist but i had to laugh as it is sort of true. its just that if you're looking for the essence of a certain culture and history from the faces of its people, such as young men, well u need people who are from that culture 100%. of course another option is to view the culture from another angle, through the face of immigrants for example. but thats not what i'm doing. and to continue, Rasmus has grown up in this country and feels and looks finnish, so it might seem too strict to not include him, but i'm really looking for features and traits and looks that have dwelled here for thousands of years and that are particularly specific to finns. finnish swedes are kind of a sidestep from that. aaaanyway, he was lovely.

my muscles are hurting, wtf.

i'm meeting this guy that i don't know tonight for a beer. except for the beer part, i rather drink something else. mnoo took a photo of me with my 'i fuck like a girl'-shirt and he saw and asked mnoo where he could geta shirt like that. mnoo directed him to ask me and i told him exactly where and i how i got it done. we sorta of ended up agreeing that we'll meet up once he has the shirt done so i can see and whatever.