awesome finnish blog by a lesbian. she mainly just complains about lesbian traits and how she doesn't enjoy lesbian sex, and then explains why not, why it sucks so bad. heh. i wish i could find some enjoyable blogs in english.

Johan recommended me the series Scrubs because i'm a fan of Zach Braff. i'd never heard of it. and frankly speaking, i'm very picky when it comes to tv series so i was kind of skeptical when he said its good. there's all these series, Lost, Prison Break, Dexter... and everyone loooves them but i don't really care. i can watch an episode or so but don't get hooked and don't feel like getting hooked. House was an except from this trend. so was Amazing Race if we want to go that far back....but thats reality so it doesn't count. i have a soft spot for reality. i don't know why everyone hates it so much. "social porn". anyway, the first episode of Scrubs impressed me. i don't necessarily feel like getting hooked, especially since the chick Zach is going to clearly get it on with is kind of annoying and not good-looking enough, but i just miiiight watch another episode. there's a danger i do get hooked. and there's 5 seasons of Scrubs already :S which would mean a lot of work for me. the series is most of all funny, in a very easy-going way, very entertaining and just...easy? i know it sounds dumb...but easy is the word its the no stress-version 0f House perhaps (happens in a hospital).

*watched another Beck movie*

• Beck (1997)
  
• Spår i mörkret (1997)
• Mannen med ikonerna (1997)
• Vita nätter (1998)
• Öga för öga (1998)
• Pensionat Pärlan (1998)
• Monstret (1998)
• Moneyman (1998)
• Hämndens pris (2001)
• Mannen utan ansikte (2001)
• Kartellen (2001)
• Sista vittnet (2002)
• Enslingen (2002)
• Okänd avsändare (2002)
• Annonsmannen (2002)
• Pojken i glaskulan (2002)
• Skarpt läge (2006)

the ones in italic are still left to be seen. geez, this list is depressing, i thought i'd seen so many but i still have so many to go! well, i should definitely see the positive side, i LIKE them movies!

i needed a drink tonight. first, to handle not hearing from him and later because i did hear from him. well i'm exaggarating but still. i've been neglecting everything in my life because of this thing... several weeks now. maybe longer, but i don't want to think about it. whats done is done. i need to get back on track with my life...what did i want from life again? i should not forget and get distracted by random fun. i need to keep doing my thing. photography.