considering last night was possibly or probably the last night with him, i'm doing quite well. as if suddenly i didn't care? i do miss, but its like i can deal with it. or it'll just hit me later and harder.

i'm pulling off 'kalsarikännit' tonight. the term just basically describes drinking home alone. but really drinking, not just sipping. one of the many awesome finnish words impossible to translate. i'm listening to Neil Young. i realize its been a good while since i was just relaxing at home, listening to music and doing nothing. and i realize how much i missed it.