this weekend is booked for taking a photo. it's a job. but today is a day off still...i should enjoy it...but i feel tired. tired and calm. things are so peaceful now. i try enjoy this easy-goingness while it lasts. a friend asked if i'm happy now, as i got what i wanted basically. i said yes i suppose so, and that's whats scary about it. happiness is not a permanent state, its only a visitor.

i've had a couple days off and i didn't do anything. worth remembering anyway.

next weekend Mark is coming over with this model. i should plan the shoot a bit. buti sit here on my ass and watch tv series like never before, eat nougat ice cream and wonder if red wine would go with it (i actually know it doesn't, but i can just lie to myself and disregard the clash of tastes). its like eating or talking on the phone while you're in shower. it totally works for me. the only thing u don't want to do is get the phone too wet, food mixed with water just waters down the taste a bit, literally. but finnish food being so tasty(...) to begin with...it doesn't make a big difference.

zero to smashed in 20 seconds - youtube video. now thats what i call serious drinking, quite an accomplishment.