new fuckin day :) i had the alarm go off at 1pm. it doesn't sound early but let me say; it is. i am still sleep deprived and went to bed after 4 so i just barely got 8 hours of sleep. 10 or 12 would be great. i was very ambitious last night and was supposed to start the washing machine AND the dishwasher. the washing machine i got. but, forgot the clothes in after it was done. luckily they still smelled fresh when i woke up. because of my day off i promised to go and help with the preparations of tonights party, hence the early wake up. preparations means slicing carrots and cucumbers and mixing dips and such. what i'm worried about is that i got work tomorrow morning at 9am... makes u think; how do i handle it? i think i'll set my cell phone alarm ready before i even start drinking.

well, i'm going with relaxed clothing, ripped knee-lentgh skirt and wool V-neck sweater that has a pink bunny logo on the chest :) and of course my trademark pink make up, the raunchy glitter version! while doing my make up i was trying to think back to when the fuck i got so obsessed with pink. its always been with me, like when i was a kid, but i forgot it during my gothic years and then it remained in the dark. i think it was in 2004 and canada when something snapped, pink was i guess really trendy that year and i was ina strange place with strange people and just snapped. i went pink and glittery all the way. i've dropped the glitter mostly, that was a little much. but the pink, love it.

in communism and capitalism, a person seems to belong to the state, in different ways. if you belong to someone, or the state, even symbolically, is suicide a crime against them? well of course it has been in many places at many different times, but was it ever based on this thought? i should know, i've read all about it. i can't recall i direct reference about 'self-murder' being a crime against the state... hmm. if the state determines suicide a crime, isn't it from a selfish perspective, where the ideology goes before the individual? ideology should serve the invidual.

i found a blog of a whore and i like her :) in finnish as usual.