now i'm supposed to start cooking as i promised yesterday. i wandered around in teh grocery store looking for something and got pretty depressed. i have sliced meat but i have no idea what to eat it with. i almost asked an employee in the store to help me but its not their job, and working in a grocery store doesn't mean u know about preparing foods... but anyone would be better at this than me. this is upsetting, i hope it won't spoil my whole fuckin day.

my cookings from a year ago. i could've done this could i? it looks too messy.