what do i like about photo books? were all going digital anyway huh?

thinking of making a book, now that i checked out blurb.com. surely there have been services like this available all the time... i dunno. i guess im just (wonder why??) in the search of new ideas and something inspiring.

i get occasionally asked why no book is yet available. well, unfortunately i dont think i got enough nice photos together for a book. but now i think, if it was just a small book, cheap...maybe i should give it a try. for the experience. i can only order like 10 or 20 even. i know can easily sell a small amount of books, maybe i shouldnt make it a big fuss and stress? i think a book should be worth the money so i really want it to offer something, thats were i hesitate. the idea needs work... plus i suck at layouts... so i would need help with that i guess. dunno.

we went to Arttu's parents house last night, they werent home. i am glad i went, got soem 'fresh air', mentally. Arttu tried to first make me watch Naked again, but not surprisingly i blew my fuse quite fast. the guy definitely needed some meds (benzo's?), and the goth chick was on the wrong meds, or so she seemed, and the other chick (Louise?) i think would benefit from some serotonin reuptake inhibitors... usual stuff. then we watched Calamari Union (bout time, been on my list for years). the movie tells a story about 15 Frank's making their way from one part of the city (mine) to another, and the trip is not easy...its full of dangers... just imagine trying to make it through from Brooklyn to Manhattan. it was hilarious.

finally, when i was ready to fall asleep Arttu tried to sneak in Three Colours: Red. there was no way i could keep my attention in it. so much for that. sorry fine art!

i fell asleep on the couch.














view from last night.













im really glad we went there, as i said. new thoughts, views... i even thought of photography a bit. and still do i suppose, hence the book idea.

after a break up or upon a new relationship your supposed to change your hairdo? cant remember which one was it, and i guess it wont matter, i asked Arttu yesterday to pick up something red from the grocery store, mine is so small they dont really have hair dyes. i just said it shouldnt shift to orange, i have enough of that. not sure if this will change the color i got much, but whatever. eventually ill go back to black anyways. cant keep dyeing the roots red.


















so its saturday and i need the time to pass further... and further. "keep calm and...". quite an adventure i had, froma co-worker to dating and all that was in between and related. love. im happy thinking about it.

of course, in this situation though, im not happy in general. but i know that it is very likely that one day i will be again. boring but true. trying to count on it.