jen - forever beta

it is amusing how gmail is still in BETA. maybe its part of the brand name, like... hotmail alfa or something? but being in beta is a great excuse for anything. nothing needs to work, theoretically, because of the one little word. yet, it is one nice email provider... not taking that away. i dont use the web thing actually, i dont get the user interface... and i have the mails forwarded to my other account. using several email accounts is a bit fuzzy but i just cannot find enough trust in myself to move into gmail for good. getting ads based on the content of the mails is a bit much... and eventually the content info im sure will be used for a lot more too. i find it intrusive, no matter how your privacy is supposedly protected. im now using just 9% (664MB) of the available space, but if i was to direct all mail to gmail i am worried about the % rising much faster...

anyway.

i ended up lost in youtube reading and watching the conspiracy theories around 9/11. there was one video just showing the north tower and the horizontal gap in the wall, smoke coming out, someone commented "this angle proves some of the theory's right, that looks like a missile hit the tower because there aint no plane fitting in that damn hole." yea...you need to get your perspectives fixed i think. and i guess the south tower being hit, captured on video and by eye witnesses was a trick too...it certainly wasn't a boeing...?? the pentagon then, ive seen a couple homemade documentaries about it as well, earlier, people are really going nuts over it. i personally...dont care. i mean what are you gonna do? even f it was a conspiracy (lets think benefit of a doubt, lol), by the same people i suppose that engineered Kennedy's death, then so fuckin what? are these home-grown youtube video makers gonna expose that and...what? the world is going to be suddenly just and right and ... i mean i just dont get it. theres lots of shit and unfairness going on, i dont think 9/11 was more than terrorism but even if it was, yes, it does mean the war on middle east was manufactured (which i think it was anyway) but...nothing is going to change neverthefuckinless. whether you find osama or do not find weapons of mass destruction, things will just go on. i sound apathetic and hopeless, and i am. ill just make sure i dont procreate and nobody needs to worry.

someones got a serious collection of MAC cosmetics...

my slave hasnt been here cleaning up since the end of december as i got the dayjob, he was only able to come during daytime. however now he informed me that him and his wife are separating next week, so then he can come serve me in the evenings. thatd be nice since i havent been cleaning up myself, at all :( theres a lot of stuff to be done. i never got another slave because recruiting is time consuming and blah blah... all the time and energy is away from me doing the work myself. so you dont want to put too much time into it. plus i really liked this person, his personality and intellect 'please' me. lol. anyway, it will be good to have him come around occasionally.

sceneries from the way to my mom. last sunday.














got flowers for my birthday from my colleagues :) butterfly in there too...


















work desk :)














thursday night in the bar, some snacks...














i bought the skullcandy headphones finally... will be using them at work mostly i guess.