splendor

we are living interesting (and tough) times. so its not business as usual. and my work has been affected and will be further affected by this too. but somehow, while not maybe excited or super happy, im kind of okay. and after having read some articles on how couples are struggling in quarantine or with the isolation and tips on how to try manage, i feel extra okay cos i dont feel like this has affected our relationship. maybe as its not such a big change? im mostly home anyway and doctor is now going to work again. but even last week when were both ill at home, and had been together in helsinki as well, i didnt feel like a huge change or shift. we seem to be quite ok like this. and i realise there is a lot of privelegethere..  we have more space than many, we can afford to keep our home warm, we have access and funds to food, we have internet, and despite me losing some or most of my work it seems we can manage for at least few months without panicking. and doctor might take some extra shifts cos he was privileged enough to work just 80% the past several months... now that NHS and the situation calls for it, he has space to increase his hours. so i realise we are lucky that we can feel pretty comfortable despite the world going crazy, its not fair to compare. if we were still in our rental flay the situation would be much more stressful actually; the rent was quite high not allowing too much loss of income, and despite one side of the flat being glass, it was not getting that much light and the street was not very lively...  i can imagine we'd be much more bored and stressed now. so we are extra lucky...

i hope the antibody test will soon be available, i want to know if i am immune or not. then i would still need to know if i can transmit it even if im immune... cos the only reason im staying in now anyway is to not be part of the problem, to not transmit it. and since its easy for me, so why not. then again, for us, doctor is doing the exposure and transmitting... until they start proper testing staff, NHS staff is unfortunately not only putting their lives at risk but technically, other people's as well. luckily at doctors hospital - a central london university hospital & trauma center - they are currently better equipped than most, they have the virors and temp scrubs etc...  i hope it stays that way.


hard to believe this is a saturday night, as the area and ours street has loads of pubs, restaurants and even a few nightclubs. but with everything but "essential" closed...

we had our 10 yr anniversary at home with less fanfare than expected. we can celebrate in the summer maybe with a small trip. we played a boardgame and had a romantic bath in candle light with champagne (i have photos of that too but too lazy to blur the adults parts so)

we have made up a new recipe sort of. its pretty flexible, the base is 50% just green like lettuce and tomate and onion and such, then there is a carb element like spiced microwave rice or noodles or couscous-cauliflower mix or whatever... and then some protein such as fish cake or vegan burger or such. mixing things we happen to have basically. plus some spices and seasonings. but not too much oil so its really pretty healthy and very vegetable heavy. this was doctors invention actually.

doctor has really gotten into online courses during our quarantine.especially the week we were both ill and at home. he's done one on gender inequality, one on workplace communication and i dunno what else. i might do some work/testing related ones over the next weeks.

i mastered the art of bleeding the towel heater valve on the first try. very proud of myself. now its living a life of its own though, occasionally mildly warm and occasionally very hot, ans i cant find how to adjust or control it...   one thing at a time...


a wonderful film we watched a few weeks ago; Blinded By The Light