endless winter

UK credit score system keeps annoying me. to be "credit worthy" u need to first get credit, and use it. so u must get a credit card whether u need one or not. u should get services on your name and monthly bills. ok i understand there needs to be proof of paying bills but taking credit? and the credit score tracking apps are bonkers. the numbers have no bearing or connection to realty - so u dont really know where u stand. doctor always got 950+ from Experian, often even 998 - and their MAX is 999! yet his own bank wouldnt give him a credit card. they obviously have their systems and maybe want to see a history of more than 2 or whatever years which he didnt have at the time. i also had close to 999 on Experian and maybe 500/700 on Clearscore, but when we shopped around for a mortgage, MY bank was not going to give me one - they said they'd approve one for doctor though. they gave me a credit card however and have been pushing me to actually up my credit limit. which is another warped way of improving the credit core - being approved for a higher limit. yet not using it in full. well, we dont need any credit now so its not like a concern but it pisses me off. 

i always check if a post is public (the "globe" sign) on fb before liking or commenting. of course everything on the internet is public, one can argue, but its not so much that im liking/commenting secretive things, i just think its weird for that stuff to show on my friends timeline. so i do 'like' and comment on public posts too but much less than if they were private. i just dont think my fb connections should be bombarded with "jenni liked this article". my liking is factual whether the world can see it or not. on twitter i do more of it as a support, cos i dont think twitter is similar to fb - u dont need to follow friends there, u only follow people whose posts u want to see. so i assume that no one is bothered if they by chance see what i liked, on their timeline, because its pretty much the kind of stuff i share on twitter anyway. insta is even better that way, i like a 100 bunny posts a day and no one needs to be bothered by it. 

started this "puzzle" a few nights ago. its not really a puzzle cos there are instructions, so its more like an ikea thing. enjoyable. 

we did (too much) nachos for NYE.

i also bothered "cooking" the other night. in other words, put salmon in the oven and threw random things together, just making sure theres carbs and veggies both. but im pretty proud of myself cos usually i dont bother with this many things.

such a gloomy start for the year, sitting home seeing no one. i was further thinking about last year, and  remembered more stuff. what was so different is that workwise, i got to "hang out" with my colleagues more than before, covid really worked in my favour in that way. mightve been a factor why i was so 'cheery' in the spring - suddenly im seeing my colleagues on video daily. and there were after work drinks and other activities which i was able to join as they were online. quite important to me. in 2020 i started drinking mostly prosecco instead of wines. i guess i just like the bubbles. in october or so, my friend died from ovarian cancer. that really weighed on me. especially the fact that she was alone in the hospital or hospice most of the year as no one was allowed to visit. we were in contact more last year than earlier years, weirdly. when i realised she was slipping away i found it confusing. and the whole thing reminded me of how it couldve been me. and maybe next it is me? these things start to happen in this age.

Johnson and the gov are planning new covid restrictions. im expectating a ban on breathing any moment now. i already sit at home and do nothing so thats the logical next step. 

Spotify showed me my most listened to tracks, but i had also added songs to this playlist on my own, just stuff i found and especially liked during the year.

during the holidays ive watched a LOT of stuff. among them:
Generation Iron 3
Deadwind, season 1
Million Pound Menu, season 2
Love on the Spectrum, season 1
Final Table, season 1
The Job Lot
I Am a Killer
Psychopath with Pierce Morgan (really bad!)
The Voice UK
Comedians in Cars getting Coffee