Bugonia was refreshing

i finished another puzzle. and started a new one. all the while listening to Sophia Gilbert’s Girl On Girl. which was imperfect but very interesting. and i recognised myself in a lot of the example of how pop culture, the media and our societal attitudes in general have led me to behave and comment on women in harmful ways. its hard to rid of all the biases and filter the messages that we are given. but i wouldve appreciated more studies, more of a ”big picture”. anyway i did enjoy. anyway, after finishing the book i started Bell Hooks’ The Will to Change: Men, Masculinity and Love. and so far im really liking it. i think Hooks is considered a radical faminist in many ways but her empathy and wanting to discuss and men & all of our need to be loved really vibes with my personal beliefs. and yes, i associate radical feminism typical with somewhat different attitudes. but im not a feminist scholar, maybe my terminology associations are just way off. 

i saw Bugonia yesterday with dr. i enjoyed it althought at times it made me pretty anxious. the ending was the best. theres a couple Lanthimos films i havent seen yet but they are on my to watch list.

past couple years i feel like nearly everyone i know is saying the same thing about work; they are very overworked. many say they are doing the job of two. they are men & women, account managers, team leads, doctors and whatnot. both here in UK and finland. even middle east and north america. to be fair a few friends are just ”generally too stressed” (including me just in the past couple months, but at least i expect it to be temporary), but way too many are constantly working overtime and nearing burnout. some have changed jobs but it did not necessarily help much. so whats going on?  theres at least a few options; 

-employers, gov & private alike, have really cut roles and/or combined roles 

-work has changed; more admin & other tasks that add on to the work and take time/learning/etc

-expectations of work has changed (things are expected to happen faster and more efficiently than before?)

-ways of working have changed; same end results but more softwares, more multitasking, working from home (which we assume has made things better, but who knows)  etc

-peoples expectations have changed, of work and/or of themselves

-people’s ability to do tasks has changed (due to short attention span, other stressors in life, etc) so they can’t get the same things done in the same way or time as before

-my friends are a self selected group, perhaps i just befriend people in difficult jobs & situations

-something else, what? 

i do think something has changed and either way, it doesnt seem sustainable, so somethings gotta give 

im watching Game of Wool and finding Tom Daley with his pink eyshadow very attractive. kind of surprising myself because he looks pretty young and im generally not too into young men, like under 30. i guess im expanding? 

we got Triominoes and have been playing it with dr.

brunch with Aseel yesterday.