May 07, 2022

female gaze

we were looking for blackout blinds for our living room, to make watching netflix easier in the summer... i was trying to google and learn about them, and this one page has titles like "are black out blinds eco friendly?" ummmm. buying ANYTHING is not eco friendly, but i think blinds are not at the top of my worry list. pls just tell me what materials are good and what i need to look out for. i mean for fucks sakes, im struggling with the basics here, how often do the battery operated ones need charging, does PVC surface reflect sunlight or is the colour all that matters….    anyway we eventually made a choice but since its custom made to the size we have to wait a little.

good things:-our internet connections pings were 6ms and 16ms
-i got a surprise gift last week, a book called Three Women by Lisa Taddeo. from Jessica.
-ate in a local restaurant (Eco) 3 times the other week. that’s probably more than in the last year or 2 altogether.
-documentary called Some Kind of Heaven was really interesting
-we went to see The Worst Person in the World and i really liked it. it felt very real and while i couldn’t fully relate, on some level i did.
-basking in the sun on sunday at the park and in the livingroom
-visited my father and connected with my siblings last weekend

backyard in Klosterneuburg, Austria (sauna!). it happened to be nice weather.

testing the backside of blinds fabric samples. checking the temp in the sun. there was a difference of several degrees! they were similar colours in the front but some had a lighter backside to avoid sucking in the heat.

we went to see a local amateur comedy night with doctor.

we were planning to go to japan this summer, finally - 2020 the plan was cancelled. but then i realised they are not yet open for tourism and dont have any plans for that. so we started looking at million other places. first world problems "sooo hard to choose where to gooo". so privileged... uh. so anyway, while i was obsessing over hotel features we realised doctor needs to renew his residence card cos it would expire during the holiday. and those things are never fast here. fill forms, submit documents, go somewhere to give your fingerprints, and WAIIIIT. so plans are on hold, u just cant trust Home Office enought o go ahead with bookings, no idea when the card will come. im a little annoyed for sure, as always when things dont go my way, but i know we'll eventually go somewhere and all is well.

ive been feeling confused lately and still do. everything is confusing and im not able to explain it any better to anyone.

April 11, 2022


adulthood is googling vacuum cleaner filter cleaning instructions, entertaining your friends baby and worrying about bones getting brittle. hmm maybe that last one is middle age im talking about. but i guess that’s where i’m at, adulting but starting to get a feel of middle age and perimenopause too.

The Split
Lego Masters
The Voice of Finland 
Bad Vegan
Tinder Swindler

occasionally i consider fitness and health trackers. that usually lasts anywhere from 2 to 20 seconds.  not only do i not excercise with such purpose that id need to know my pulse when im walking or biking or whatever, but also regarding sleep, i know well enough how i slept - i don’t need to be told. whether i slept 6.45 or 7 hours wont matter exactly plus they aren’t that accurate anyway, which i guess everyone knows by now. Oura ring then, it’s touted for its accuracy.  but it measures your “readiness”?! like wtf is that even? do i need a quantifiable number for something i don’t understand? i know its just one thing they measure but was it necessary, is it really a selling point? and then i also circle back to; i kinda know how im feeling, what is this app going to tell me that i need to know but dont already know? ok so Oura has period prediction which can be great if u have an irregular cycle - although who knows if it works in that case. mine is fairly regular and my PMS is unmissable unfortunately, so i don’t need a ring to tell me it’s coming. furthermore Oura has blood oxygen monitoring which i imagine is great if you are severely ill with covid or something, apparently it can be sometimes hard to notice your blood oxygen dropping until it’s severely bad. but most cases you know. and if you’re healthy, then why would u need it? okay i seem to be just whining now, if someone finds the numbers from these trackers useful, then thats lovely (doctor has one and enjoys it). but except for specific things like some fitness related tracking, focusing too much on numbers and perfecting everything might not be healthy. i think its better to listen to your body and use common sense. 

all u can eat sushi at Inamo with Aleks and Raissa
our new rug.
a cat on the wall behind the corner from our home.  some kind of art thing i think.
on mother’s day last sunday doctor treated me (well both of us) this breakfast.
Museum of the Home in east london. it was actually nice. i especially liked these photos that were all from the same building.

March 19, 2022

around English cities

currently i enjoy watching Love is Blind (US, Japan, Brazil). i’ve always loved the Bachelor franchise but am kind of growing out if it, just too tired of the “im ready for love, here for the right reasons, falling in love” trauma-share-porn insta fame hungry 20yr olds. ok, all shows tend to have those to varying degrees, but in LIB im getting some more real adult conversations also which i find interesting. like, actual human issues. LIB Japan also woke up my interest in japanese again. i started studying it like a year ago for fun and went on as long as it felt like fun and when lockdown loosened… i didn’t have the time anymore (very unsurprising). but now i picked up the book and apps again and started reminding myself of the basics, learning the hiragana alphabet - which is slooooow. if my interest stays up for a couple weeks maybe i should start classes again. but if not, that’s cool too. we were gonna go to Japan summer 2020 but that didn’t happen. maybe this is the year then. i’m becoming just increasingly curious.

this war in Ukraina though. fucking hell. Putin is nuts, to put it mildly. scary times. and i realise there is no air raid shelters anywhere in London? i mean to a degree where it was public information etc. i had never realised how different other places are to Helsinki where u know where your nearest shelter is. its just kind of basic there. i guess living next to russia does that to you. ive been reading a lot of articles and analysis of the situation, a lot of predictions of the different probably scenarios. what i think i see a lot is Maslow's hammer, everyone writing from their angle as the crucial one. often there is no one reason for whatever happens anyway, its all complicated. but the oligarch specialist says the end of the war depends on the oligarchs, the war/russian army specialist talks about the equipment, air force and how that will determine whether the war goes on or continues, and so forth. the political angles sound a bit more varied. general mood i sense is the ever optimistic european "if we just set enough sanctions...see, we just closed that bank ot of the sysem, they are crumbling as we speak, but if we also sanctions this and that, and see, now that Netflix left russia, it's sure to inspire the people to revolt! sanctions...". i definitely support sanctions and i have been really pleased to see everyone (except UK...) to actually act on them too, so that IS positive, but i feel like the west is always too optimistic about sanctions. they rarely seem to have the intended effect - based on what i read, anyway. and Putin doesnt come off as the kind of guy who is scared by sanctions, or whether his rich buddies suffer from them either. theyve grown up with this kind of game, havent they? oh well, i know nothing and i only have one life so outside of donations i think right now i have to also just try enjoy life. grim, but.

doctor has found new hobbies this year; badminton and improv theatre. i’m happy he has something (new) to do that he enjoys.

Bug Out on Prime video really surprised me. a seemingly boring docu series - and it does start slow and pretty mundane - but it the way it keeps going reminds me of Tiget King, just slightly lesser in quality. still worth watching. 

i was out with this guy in relation to this hobby group im in. we wanted to discuss stuff related to it. anyway - smart, lovely sociable fellow. and first i though, ok, maybe also very eager to get along and be liked. probably cos he is ambitious which is fine, and i have power within the group, and he is the networker type. there were some general compliments and a tap on the shoulder. well, thats within normal, maybe i should learn these social skills too. then he would lightly tap my hand when speaking as if to get attention, but i noticed it got more frequent - although he had my attention as it was. and then he suggested sitting next to me instead of opposite cos the pub was loud. ok. then he made some specific compliment on my body - not sexual but kind of unusual. when he learned my age the complimenting got "extreme", and he would bring it up many times over, how young i look. made me gringe, i mean saying it once as a response to my age, ok, people do that, but dont keep going. well, after a few drinks people say and do things...i know, ive been there. then as we talked about life and stuff he would start saying im so INTERESTING. how do u respond to that? but what was really the sad bit was that he moved gradually closer until his leg was touching mine already - i fucking hate that. and then, when i was showing him stuff on my mobile he put his hand on my knee. and i did not nothing. just froze inside. if i was asked 6 hours earlier how i will deal with situations like that, i'd been confident that i can deal with that shit. well i guess i still cant. i just go to uncomfortable but pretended normal. then after finished the drinks suggested we call it a night (his hand still on my knee, moving up my thigh a bit). i did find it in myself to message him the next day and say i was not comfortable with his physical advances. i expected a half assed "oh, what do you mean? IF that made you uncomfortable then im sorry" which is kind of standard, but to his credit he did own up to being inappropriate and was profusely sorry. doesnt mean im going to forget what happened but i do appreciate acknowledging it was not cool. i know that whole story can read as "a guy tried to make a move and a woman got offended" but... it just wasnt ok. i was not giving those vibes at all. 


we went to Cambridge for a long weekend when it was my birthday. 

a couple weeks ago Niina visited London, we went to some nice cocktail places.

and she brought me chocolate and card.
random very traditional pub in london.
some other finnsih friends also visited recently. here our mine and Justus' hands, really liked his nails...
we did a weekend day trip to Salisbury with Can & Burcu a while back. cute basic english town. in the cathedral there is the Magna Carta in this tent (below)

puzzle im working on

my stepfather's funeral in finland, end of january.


February 05, 2022

podcast lauantai

unohdan sanoja siellä täällä. yleensä ne tulee mieleen muutaman sekunnin kaivelulla, mutta nyt olen useamman minuutin pohtinut jotain, minkä nimesin päässäni ”veroraportiksi” paremman puutteessa. tein itselleni muistilistaa  huomiselle ja toinen vaihtoehto olisi ollut käyttää englannin kielistä sanaa tax return. joka vieläkin kuulostaa tyhmältä, mutta ainakin muistan sen. ja muistan verokortin kumminkin, mutta en sitä mikä mun nyt keväällä pitäis tehdä. mietin et olenko mä nyt se ärsyttävä ulkosuomalainen kun puhun finglish-iä ja käytän sanoja vähän sinne päin. mutta asia ei kovasti vaivaa, oletan vakaasti ystävien ymmärtävän. muistan joskus teininä huomanneeni ettei isä muista enää kaikkia suomenkielen sanoja tai vähän joutuu tapailemaan niitä erikoisempia. ni ehkei se nyt ole niin kummallista että olen itsekin tähän päätynyt. tuntuu kyllä ettei kyse olisi vaan ulkomailla asumisesta vaan että sanoja puuttuu aina vähän sieltä ja täältä kielestä riippumatta. ehkä se on perimenopause, en edes tienny aiemmin mut sen yhtenä oireena voi olla just muistiongelmat. miksen mä tienny?

siitä on jo aikaa kun törmäsin videoon jossa oli Sarasvuon Cassandran huuto-sarjassa Anna Kontula. se jotenki ehkä yks parhaista keskusteluista ikinä. ekat minuutit etenki - katsoin sen muutamaan kertaan koska olin et what, mitä keskustelua tässä oikeestaan käydään. ja sit Annasta tuli mun idoli. luin keskustelussa viitatun manifestinkin mielenkiinnosta. ja Pikkuporvarit kirjan luin tossa ennen joulua, se oli oikeen viihdyttävä. Punainen Eksodus (väikkäri tms?)  jäi kesken, joskus luen muutaman kappaleen aina eteenpäin - se löytyy netistä ihan.


Oon aina välillä kuunnellu Mikä meitä vaivaa podcastia, keskimäärin hyvää ja mielenkiintoista kamaa. mut nyt viimeisimmässä jaksossa (82)ne puhuu And Just Like That sarjasta ja kokevat että sarjaa kritisoidaan väärin perustein ja että milleniaalit kritisoi koska eivät ymmärrä. no en mäkään ole 55v niinku päähenkilöt mutta paitsi minä ni kaveriporukassa jossa kaikki on ehkä kuitenki jossain 40 ympärillä (ja naisia) ni keskimäärin tätä uutta sarjaa ei oo digailtu. musta AJLT:n saama kritiikki on pääasiassa osunu tosi oikeaan. se yrittää liikaa olla woke, ja epäonnistuu siinä. joo maailma on muutunu ja se ON hämmentävää, mulle kans, mut nää naiset on jotenki ihan sekasin, ainaki Miranda ekassa 2 jaksossa - huh huh. joku uskottavuus vaan puuttuu hahmoista ja kokonaisuus on voimaannuttava. podcastin seuraava keskustelu (samassa jaksossa) realityistä korvaa paljon tota edellistä mitä en voinu ymmärtää. en välttämättä aina ole tyyppien kaa samaa mieltä asioista mutta saan usein kuitenkin jotain pohdittavaa.
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January 27, 2022

momentary immunity superpower

i was supposed to enjoy my alone time while doctor is away in turkey. and i did but staying in for over a week because of covid wasnt that much fun. i felt fine but tests were showing positive. so many cancelled things! so much take away food. ive definitely milked the covid period tho, after almost 2 years of this sh*t i finally feel part of it in a tangible way. i wasnt looking for it like that czech singer, but i was going out, living my life, cos after 3 f*cking vaccines i felt like i bloody should. and now, ive recognised a new feeling. it feels like different level of freedom. yes i was going about and living my life, not worrying about covid, but it was instilled in me to be cautious. now, though, ummm, why? as far as i know, for at least 2-3 months, i cant infect anyone or be infected. its probably longer because this combo of antibodies is pretty strong; AZ, Pfizer, infection...i know some people got omicron a soon after delta, but repeated infections of the same variant not so much. of course, the next one is just lurking behind the corner lol. i know the mask mandate is ending today but its the easiest thing todo and polite so i'll keep wearing it just for that. but beyond the small polite things for other people, im FREE from giving a f*ck for a little while. weird sense of relief and freedom, for real.

when i told Jess i got covid, i got this little package in the mail. its signed JULIET! my unofficial niece! not only am i doing the aunty thing, she's doing the niece thing, lol. definitely taking after her mom when it comes to being thoughtful. im trying to do my bit and got her some marimekko clothes and moomin socks. she is turning 6 months around this time i think.

just something....

my stepfather died back in finland so i am going to go to the funeral. and while there, i'll go to the office too. cos why not.

January 16, 2022

starting 2022

on new years eve we were celebrating at a hotel bar in Tenerife, and a few hours later waking up and having to scramble to breakfast and start our return back home to UK. starting the year by returning home is some kind of a reset i suppose. our holiday was okay-ish, not the best, not the worst. but not due to anything else but myself and where my mind is (or isnt) atm. La Gomera was nice and chill, we stayed there for a week. and then, instead of returning, we booked a hotel in Puerto de la Cruz and new flights and stayed 4 more days. Valle Gran Rey in La Gomera is a little village by the beach full of german hippies and van life people and hikers. so it's pretty chill and quiet. PDLC ive been to before, its more like a spanish beach town, proper city even. 

 new years at a hotel

views on La Gomera. we went hiking with Arttu and his wife altogether. the island is full of great hiking opportunities but for me one day was enough, i spent the rest of the time just chilling by the pool.

the pool. and sea in the background. it provided a nice soothing sound in the night too. although in the end i didnt sleep super well so maybe not.


beach in Valle Gran Rey. the hippies would gather there at sunset and play drums and stuff. nice vibe.

pool in PDLC, Tenerife.

random street

a "spanish brunch"

i’m trying to keep the number of browser tabs on my phone under 100. im doing ok today, at 70+. why do i set myself this limit? i don’t even know. i don’t worry about it on my desktop or laptop, that’s for sure. those poor things passed 100 tabs soon after i started using them and it’s not going down. i’m considering tab groups now though. 

good stuff:
-finally caved in and got airpods. they are good.
-we have 2 turkish owned shops nearby, they dont sell much turkish stuff but nice local organic, ecological etc.
-my sinusitis is under control
-ive got 3 vaccines
-my husband is pretty amazing
-i (still) got a job, its often  and got a bonus in december
-my social life is decent
-days are getting longer
-got my lashes and nails done recently

on the negatives:
-my stepfather died
-i got covid and have to self isolate and cancel stuff (but it was a 2-day cold - im gonna say thanks to my body and the vaccines)

pope says people choosing pets over kids are selfish, lol. calling childfree people selfish is the oldest joke in the book. as if people dont have kids for selfish reasons too.... but i guess its ok if they will be catholics? i genuinely think people can be selfish in some aspects and selfless in others, but if people were just labeled selfish OR selfless, it would be pretty even between the two groups. what about selfish people who had a kid by accident? lol. 

i was expecting to spend the whole weekend on the sofa while ill with covid but woke up today as if nothing had happened. so i had to get to my tax returns and laundry and other things....   

bout time i caught it (statistically speaking), ive been very social and was starting to question whether i was avoiding covid, or covid was avoiding me...  

the brunch i ordered today. energy drinks were only sold in 4 packs but thats nice, something for the coming week as well!

doctor is in turkey to see friends and family after a looong break. and im enjoyng my time alone. before i got ill i was pretty busy, doing fixes around the house like bleeding the radiators...  online shopping, meeting friends... not theres been a break but i still have time.

December 31, 2021

end of year (not much)

early december i went to this disco event thingy in Islington with Ceri and her friends. i was worried im going to find myself in some sweaty nightclub but it was proper disco, 70s mostly. and a lot of the crowd was in their 70s too. and 50s. it was really comfortable, it was just chill and cozy but also fun. real boogie feel. 

i got my booster vaccine early december too. UK is doing well on the vaccine front. and not so well in anything else. im just glad to be vaccinated so i have one less thing to worry about.

i found and used Nerdapp to fix an icloud issue i'd had for like a year. i was really frustrated about not being able to fix it myself, considering it seems like basic stuff but honestly... anyway i signed up at 21:03. then i wasted 5 minutes doing something unrelated, and got back to Nerdapp. i then described my problem,  in under a minute a "nerd" picked it up and i installed Anydesk to let him fix the problem and at 21:21 the job was officially closed. so in reality the fix took maybe 10 minutes max. it's 12GBP per 15 minutes. for something thats driven me up the wall for a year, it was well worth it. basically this was like geek uber. i knew something like that had to exist and just google "it help app" or something, then checked it on Trustpilot and off i went. i am firmly middle aged i think. willing and able to pay for services. yes pls take my money and fix things for me. over a month ago when we had a party i got 4 hours of cleaning services in the days prior, just to help with some things we didnt get around to ourselves. earlier this year i started all those langauges classes and pilates. i still do pilates weekly, so that stuck.

the year in general was very much dominated by covid. the first half we were mostly confined to our home which after 2020 got to me and i was feeling down. when we got to meet people again i felt better. escape to St Lucia in july was a welcomed break and i still think of it fondly - it was the right thing at the right time. the fall has been a bit confusing, i did a lot with friends, we visited Bristol, i went to finland… but i’m not really feeling myself. i think it’s post covid early middle age that’s slapped me in the face. for 2022 i hope to find myself again. 

October 23, 2021

meeee weekend

Arttu visited us for a week. good times. when i visited helsinki we didnt get to spend as much time together, and same when i spent a few days in helsinki just before the pandemic... so the last time we really had time was i think Feb 2020 when he came to see our new home. we visited a few places of course, finally i got to see Sky Garden too - it is lovely. we also watched Tove which i had really been looking forward to - and it was really good. now im just chilling alone this weekend, doctor is at work and im going to take care of myself.

Spotify suggested me this song, maybe on my weekly discovery list; Tuvaband: He Said Me Too (spotify link). i really like it. lately, when i have a shower i play music and im stuck on this one playlist in particular. listening to the same playlist every time ive learned how long my showers are. i usually get halfway of the 4th song here (spotify links): 

The Saxophones: If You're On The Water
Wangel: Reason
Ville Valo: Olet mun kaikuluotain
SYML: The War

shower is the time to chill and reflect so it's important to have a playlist supporting that atmosphere.

this NYT article on "Bad Art Friend" was a good read. and then this journalist wrote an thoughtful piece on who really is the BAD friend in the story. 

 im still hurt over the Bond film. a few friends have gone see it so at least ive been able to discuss it finally. not many share my strong dislike for the plot though. anyway ive come across a few GOOD, fresh  articles on Bond that are not just praising how good the new film is.

AV Club on how Brosnan's Bond paved the way for Craig
BBC's take on Bond's future


October 03, 2021

alone with Bond

i built up a lot of excitement for the new Bond film. maybe too much so. high expectations mean potential heartbreak when theyre not met. and thats what happened. a few people have asked me "was it good?" and thats a fair, generic question, but its not that simple for me. there is a lot of good and bad in it for me, but more of the latter. yet, based on reviews for most it seems to have been mostly the former with just some minor disappointments at most. so i feel quite alone, like ive been robbed of something. i know im not the only one thats unhappy, ive been to Reddit where the division is clear, but i'd really rather share my thoughts with someone i know. but no one i know has yet seem the film so im stuck dwelling in my sadness by myself. doctor was there to see the film with me, but he is not a fan. on friday we went to see Brent and some common friends at a pub, and a few of them share a bit of my passion for the franchise, so i just urged them to go see the film ASAP. now im waiting if they actually do and we could bond (lol) over the experience. 

ive been meaning to update my pre-settled status to settled now that ive resided in the UK for 5 years. but. i got a new passport while in finland, and i immediately updated the details it in the Home Office system, since the status is tied to a document, but its been a month and Home Office has not yet changed it for me. i cant really update my status while they are processing the document update. Home Office has been in such shambles this year. a friend who is here on a work visa has been wait for the visa renewal since february. he cant leave the country now as technically he has no valid visa. and our situations are not weird exeptions, its easy to check current processing times and confirm that for both, work visas and eu-status document updates, these periods are not too far from the average. then add to that the disgraceful fuel shortage at the petrol stations, gas prices going so high a lot of people will struggle keeping their already cold english homes liveable, empty shelves in the shops, animals being slaughtered en masse as there are no skilled  abattoir workers...     its just crap. now all we need is another lockdown to really kill our spirits. the past few weeks deaths and hospitalisations have been going down though. there were some articles about israel possibly being a warning for the rest of us for whats coming, and time will show, but i think israel's plight might not reproduce exactly everywhere. from what i understood the problem in israel was the combination waning immunity, possibly lower levels of immunity due to 3 weeks between vaccines, and delta which apparently only found its way to israel in the summer. thanks partly to israel's example UK has started giving boosters to vulnerable people as wel as health care staff, UK was also the first one to start with 12 weeks between shots, and delta... well its FROM UK. im sure there is a million other factors. like people moving indoors now that the weather is getting colder and that increasing transmissions. but overall the situation might not actually get that as far as those predictors go. reminds me how controversion the 12 week break between vaccines was at first, seemed like a crazy risque move, and while i (naïvely?) trusted that there is decent reasoning and knowledge behind the decision, it did weird me out that i never saw very good argumentation for it, although i do follow the news on the subject...    but as we now know, they did know what they were doing. i can appareciate that giving boosters makes sense, but at the same time knowing that the developing world is this waiting for their first shots seems crazy and not sustainable. anyway, doctor was invited for his booster the other week when they started handing them out.

the discussion surrounding Sarah Everard's killing is making my blood boil at times. the police suggesting "flagging down a bus", lol. not to mention proper good old fashioned victim shaming and complete obliviousness to the reality of power disparties in situation like where Sarah was in. like, how about sorting out the misogyny from the inside instead of adding to the endless stream of advice on what women should do to stay alive.

September 23, 2021

from Helsinki to Bristol

doctor was away for a weekend a month ago, and a few days this week. last month was his friend's stag do/bachelor party. they were camping and doing all kinds of stuff all weekend.and this week he went hiking to the south coast of England. i dont mind having some good me time. its very chill and i get to do nothing, or housework, or both. or fix my windows 10 as Bunilla just got ill again.

i went to finland for a couple weeks. i was pretty busy with work there and then i was trying to catch up with friends i hadnt seen since the pandemic...  so i was pretty tired in the end. but its a choice i really want to see people, and obviously work is important, i can see clients and have face to face meets... i also brought with me (finally) can openers, because british people dont know how to open cans. i even brought extras to gift people. im SURE they will appreciate, lol. last weekend we went to Bristol for a long weekend getaway since our travel plans didnt really pan out. but Bristol was nice, the weather was lovely and we had a decent time. doctor planned our Bristol trip. nice, because usually i like to plan everything, but i asked him to take this one. and he found activities i probably wouldnt have.

a real can opener. small, fast, easy. 

the nightlife in Bristol was pretty wild, as if there never was a pandemic. i felt like an asian tourist with my mask, we were like the only ones wearing it. oh well. 

a street in Bristol

doctor got us a glass blowing experience. it was so much fun and i got to ask so many questions, lol. people are sometimes

 the baubles we blew arrived in the mail on tuesday. now all that is missing is a big christmas tree. althought not really, i dont like blue and they are blue.


cemetary! very calm and pretty.

Bristol museum

a church?

M-Shed museum. very cool stuff about Bristol.

"stand up magic" Mark Bennett at Smoke & Mirrors. very amusing, fun show. we also got a private close up magic show as a random surprise from the house, it was so exciting.

i think foie gras should be just banned internationally, its such gross animal torture. 

i like to read Reddit's Am I The Asshole posts. the story heard from one side, with multitude of social rules with cultural contexts with consideration of what just, what is right. it tickles me.

i just had a long shower while listening to Roy Orbison. he is amazing. the shower was long and hot so probably destroyed any chance of UK reaching its climate goals. 


Nuuksio in finland. we had a work thing. 

the new Bond film is coming out on the 30th. i booked us tickets to the night showing at 00:01. now im pretty excited waiting, watching the different trailers. did not love Billie Eilish' theme song though. i feel like during the winter we should do a Bond marathon...

July 27, 2021

back to work woohoo

it was weird to return to England which had dropped virtually all covid restrictions. london public transport and many others have set requirements about using masks still though. not sure why Boris dropped the mask rule. its such a small thing with known benefits. traveling with a mask on for 15 or so hours straight is NOT fun, nor is a shorter period in a hot metro for instance, but except for those, i dont mind. so i think i'll keep using it when it seems beneficial or is considerate towards others, but drop when it seems less useful (no close contact, spacious or outside). i guess ill just see how things go. but it does seem incredible that the country is open, like, i could have a houseparty?! i think soon we will.

so i calculated our return from St Lucia was 15 hours; 2h bus, 8.5h flight and 1h train+bus plus the waiting periods and whatnot in between. well worth it. when we left, we were expecting to quarantine for 10 days upon return, but there was already talks about dropping it for double vaccinated and im glad it went through and we dont have to. totally would be worth it though for 3 weeks in the caribbean. i was looking at doctors face when we went to airport check-in for when he would realise where we are going, but the desks didnt display  the destination and the staff did not mention it so it wasnt until we leave the desk with our boarding passes that he saw it on there. lol. i had thrown him off by talking about pesos and whatever, since he too knew that Cuba was one of the possibilities. honestly i was originally looking at Antigua but my passport has less than 6 months left on it so. St Lucia is just open to everyone with something resembling a passport, and willing to get covid tested before arrival.

St Lucia is a green 'paradise' island (judging by the looks, not life expectancy or something). 50% of the working population works in tourism one way or another so i can see how it's so important for them to keep things going despite the pandemic. they try hard to keep covid numbers down and it seems to be working. the people were lovely, like more so or differently than i expected, in a very chill unassuming way. 

we stayed in this one resort for 3 weeks, with covid a package holiday was the only reasonable option really. so i picked a big all inclusive (Hideaway Royalton) and hoped we would not get bored as we couldnt travel freely around the island, just excursions and a few covid certified restaurants. the hotel itself had 6 restaurants, sports bar, outdoor bar, 3 swim up bars, ice cream and coffee 'shop', food truck and a few other things to keep us interested. evening program was varied and outdoor buffets made a difference too. i LOVED the pools cos they were warm enough, like i could just walk in without hesitation. the sea water also filled my hopes and expectations being around 27-28c. and the hot tub was actually HOT. pretty amazing.

i can defo tell which of the following were taken with my new Canon...

we made some british friends on the trip and joined them in the sports bar to watch eurocup final. well that did not go super well.

behind the hotel


cabana with minipool

one of the infinity pools

swim up bar from the other side

my favorite bar, sitting in the deep chairs looking at the stars was chill.

the stage hosted all kinds of program and bands. very often i heard this one specific song; Jerusalema by Master KG& Nomcebo Zikode (spotify link).

when we went on an excursion they were playing it on the catamaran - which was more like a party boat, they were giving us rum punch before 9am - and got everyone to join in on the dance. its not something i would normally listen to but in that tropical environment, under the sun, having a little tiiiny break from covid, i enjoyed it... one of the best days ever.

my tan lines now though... jesus. actually its not the tan lines, its the tan itself that is the problem. im just not a fan. but impossible to prevent.

when we arrived on saturday there was an anti-vaxx march going by our house, just lol. my 2nd vax was a relief. i had a few headaches but it responded to painkillers and my arm was sore for a week but those are non-issues, so i feel like i got away with nothing. yay.