easter eggs

actual photo of me working

we have a new foster cat Tom. poor guy has had a rough life and he is scared and i’m sure getting neutered and dental work on top of everything wasn’t fun either. he’s been with us for a week now, decompressing and healing. he’s hiding in his carrier mostly but hopefully will start coming out slowly. i’m sure he will never be a lap cat but if he could be rehabilitated to live with humans again, that would give him a good life. he has been in a a large crate (and a carrier within that) mostly but now has access to the rest of the flat - yet he stays in his safe zone.

 
my new fav nail polish (Bang On by Revolution)

in the past 5 years 3 of my friends have had cancer. 1 died, 2 alive. they all had somewhat different paths, reactions, experiences etc - of course. i found it interesting even before my friends illness' to think about how serious threat to life tends to "put things into perspective", people sometimes find the courage to start living their life differently - other times they change their boundaries or attitude. it varies, but often theres changes. and so i observed* how my friends changed and what kind of shifts they made. not necessarily big stuff, but still. and ive always tried to learn something from these stories, whether it was my friends or not, asking myself if theres something that vibes with me and how i'd like to potentially live my life - without having the wake up call of a serious disease.
*sounds very clinical and almost detached, but of course part of this was me trying to understand and be present

we went to a see a local comedy show with doctor last night. unlikely typical, the place was very nightclub-by, and that included the music already before the show. not really my kind of vibe, but ok. then, the comedians were more amateur than i would have expected for the ticket price - and several of them had plenty of cheap sexist or just plain "old" humor (from "flirting" with someone in the front row to repeated prison-shower-sex jokes. both could actually be done well and be funny, bit it just wasnt). anyway, it was an evening out, an experience, and thats fine. from there, doctor went on to work to do night shift and i came home to enjoy some reality tv (Voice of Finland).

this morning i wake up as doctor returns home and comes to bed. i get up and he has placed this in the living room.

today i decided to enjoy a brunch by myself at a local restaurant while listening to an audiobook. im still working on Amia Srinivasan's Right to Sex, which always gives me a lot to think about and i end up googling and doing other things it inspires me to, and then i forget the book momentarily. for instance theres quite a few good questions and views on porn and how different generations "read" it, understand it and may be effected by it. theres no question that mainstream porn gives a a pretty twisted and unbalanced view of sex, and in lack of other examples we grow to think thats what it should be like. but is all porn bad or harmful, is the age old (mainly) feminist question? and if it is, how should it be tackled - banning it certainly shouldnt be the only option? my opinion is somewhere there on the spectrum, i see the harms but am opposed to blanket bans, and i can see some potential positives as well.

passing a local bookshop today i impulse bought Ellen Atlanta's Pixel Flesh, "A generation defining exposé of toxic beauty culture and the realities of coming of age online" (publisher). lets see how that is. while out, i also went to check the new local Post Office which opened a few days ago. it smelled of fresh paint and they were still installing stuff and it was awkwardly empty but it was OPEN. i am happy. it was hnestly depressing when the previous Post Office opposite to us closed about a year ago.

random cards at Oliver Bonas. brits do make nice cards.

by the way its so annoying how pretty much all books on amazon have a 4.5 star rating. like, really?