well my bf and i were just chatting and apparently we're not 'dating' or in a relationship right now. i thought we were. so i guess i should stop using the term 'bf'.

sounds radical, its not really, we'd had these discussions and based on them he figured we're just friends now, and will re-evaluate things when he gets back to finland. and i thought we're together until the re-evaluation. oh well. i mean, not dating after almost 7 years of dating is radical, but at the same time it doesn't really show in my life yet. we'll discuss things obviously when we both go back, and who knows if we get back together...if we find a way to solve the issues and stuff, i have nothing against continuing it for another 7 years if we find solutions that satisfy both parties. and i have some personal issues right now but we'll see how that goes.

i feel like a new person in a weird way.

and from now on, 'bf' goes by his real name, Arttu.