fur and wrinkles

 Samantha and Eva chilling. they left on thursday.

i have been lately getting allergic reactions randomly, hives and itchiness that comes out of nowhere and then calms down on its own. then it doesnt happen for a while and then suddenly appears again. the bodys immune system reacting like this is not too unusual, and i dont find it worrying. but dr knows that in 1/50 000 or whatever it could just get way worse and he prescribed me an epipen. we agree its an excessive measure but then again, why not. mostly its just annoying, suddenly being covered in red spots or welts and feeling uncomfortable.

dr cooks these recipe boxes and the food tends to turn out really good.

i came across this video, not familiar with the "school of greatness" and dont care but Esther Perel is amazing "unconditional love is a myth"  she is so smart and knowledgeable when it comes to relationships.

i went to see The Substance with Ceri last night. the theme of aging and pressure to stay looking young was what drew me in. i could relate to some of it as ive been keenly observing changes in myself the past few years. the style of the film kind of started changing half way through though and i didnt find direction and especially last querter particularly interesting even if i apreciated the homage to Carrie and other details. i did find that the movie was a bit too obvious about its messaging, but that was a stylistic choice as well i guess. and i dont have to link it. some of the visuals were great though and again, i recognised a lot in when it comes to seeing changes in yourself and how the world seems to judge women. ive found that what im attracted to definitely ages with me, Demi Moore looked amazing imo and i find myself thinking 40+ men are at their best. 30+ can look good too but 20+ guys (or girls) look like kids.  

nailpolish

dr turned 45 this week and i took him to this illusion art experience thing and eating out after.

this wet wipe package (by Cushelle) says biodegredable and flushable. i wouldnt flush these either way but since we had a pack i thought i'd test and let one wipe sit in a glass of tea and water for a week. mixing occasionally and picking it up to see if it would break apart on touch or pulling, nope. some small fibers came off but it kept its form fully. gross.