i was blogging something in the morning but didnt get very far, i was feeling kinda blue from early on and then it just got worse. some stress related to the website project drove me over the edge i suppose. i think this feeling has been building up for a while now. last week i had a couple bad days as well, and on tuesday i booked time for therapy which i had today. perfect timing, i guess, because today was just horrible. in the afternoon i talked with Arttu, and later with F, and i calmed down and felt better. but my moods are very fluctuating to begin with. you never know when this will hit me again. around noon i felt like going to work tomorrow would be impossible, but now im almost like on any average tuesday. well i did take meds. if this repeats itself ill consider more serious actions.

i have a meeting tomorrow, with the website people and the IT team behind it, and after that i have an 8hour customer support task ahead... thats almost 12 hours of solid work. i wonder how that makes me feel...

anyway i got through the day, now i have to get through the next one. blah blah blah...

*listening to Jacqueline du Pre*