March 08, 2010

if u have nothing good to say, shut up

mooooonday. and i 'snoozed' my alarm for over 2 hours. i was having interesting dreams, i recall thinking, but i forgot what they were about already. so at 3pm im waiting for the caffeine to kick in order to get myself going...

i should start using grooveshark instead of spotify though...  in turkey i will loose spotify, better get used to it. using a proxy to get to youtube is trouble enough, i wont bother setting up anything more complicated i think...

and i should enjoy the perfect temperature and comfort of my home, because it will most likely be a bit of a downgrade when i move...  the finnish water system was always one of my favorite things, even temperature, good pressure...modern taps. will miss you!

im not appreciating much the patronizing attitude by some people; "have you considered the salary might not be the same in turkey as in finland?"... umm, no?? didnt cross my mind? i have no idea? have done no research on this whatsoever? so theres the doyouknowwhatthefuckyouaredoing-attitude, and another is "well, life abroad is just as hard and boring as in finland, its not paradise u know". i was kind of hoping it would be. solving all my problems, permanently. i wonder what that sentence is supposed to mean, that no one should ever move - espcially abroad, because everything is "the same" anyway? for a while it will not certainly be the same, because u have build a new fuckin life, but then the every day stuff will kick in. sure.  i still want to see how that works, somewhere else than here. also i have been kindly reminded that i might feel home sickness. no shit? i think i MIGHT. again, not a reason to not go i think, i think ill live...

i do appreciate advice and questions, just not the patronizing ones that underestimate my ability to take care of myself and think for myself. i dont think i have so far in my life shown signs of inability to look after myself, so i dont know where the assumptions that im stupid and naïve would come from, except the commentattors own feeling of superiority and maybe its a sign they look down on me. whatever! :)

need to go take some books to an antiquarian bookshop now...

3 comments:

Marianne said...

For my own part, saying 'every day life is pretty much the same regardless of the country you're in' was meant meaning that it shouldn't need to be such a huge decision or something to dread over, as life kind has a way of just trudging on no matter where you are. So as an encouragement, not in the 'why bother' way.

suzi9mm said...

yea u didnt sound 'nasty' imho, but good further clarification anyway :)

Jim said...

Maybe the only reason we go to other places than our home is to learn more things about ourselves. So, the more places one goes to, the more opportunities one has to learn about oneself - the only person who'll be with us forever. ;) Good luck!