bottom of the sea

downer of the day: i heard Lorenzo lamas is on the next Celebrity Apprentice, got excited and googled him. thats where things started to go wrong. i could not recognize his face...not that i expected him to look like in his Falcon Crest times, but oh boy something has happened :( and hes been married like 5 times and has close to dozen kids and ... yeah. okay that last part shouldnt matter but somehow it made things worse.


ive been trying to look at 9/11 conspiracy theory documentaries. but its hard to keep myself focused long enough to finish one. maybe im just not interested enough, although i think its a good idea to listen to different views. and last night i attempted watching Dawn of the Planet of the Apes with doctor. it was way too tense and annoying, i got somehow agitated and didnt want to finish. tonight i want to attempt another movie, something...  easier. maybe Frank or Lucy.

today im off to Forum shopping center with Carilyn, she is going there for work related shopping so im just catching a ride. i just learned Forum is the biggest shopping center in Europe... there is IKEA so i guess that does a lot? im a little worried about going to IKEA, but i have to use public transport too so i guess i cant buy anything crazy.

there i was, just working away on my laptop at 9:05 when the air raid sirens went off, and i heard the fog horns of the ferries from the distance too and was thinking "war? wtf..." i looked out the window and saw this dystopian world where everything had 'frozen' still; the cars, the people on the street - with this blazing noise providing backround music. it honestly took me like 10 seconds to register that nothing honestly moved, and then another few to remember its a yearly occasion to commemorate Ataturk's death.  maybe i could also take a moment and quote this man?

"I have no religion, and at times I wish all religions at the bottom of the sea. He is a weak ruler who needs religion to uphold his government; it is as if he would catch his people in a trap. My people are going to learn the principles of democracy, the dictates of truth and the teachings of science. Superstition must go. Let them worship as they will; every man can follow his own conscience, provided it does not interfere with sane reason or bid him against the liberty of his fellow-men."