i really dont mind the rain as long as im inside

we both want a new monitor. doctor has a laptop but in his/guest room he wants to chill on the sofa and watch movies and for that an external monitor would be good. it could be attached to the wall with an arm that enables putting it against the wall but then pull it out etc. and chromecast enables less cables. we will take the livingroom chromecast there, when buying the new chromecast for livingroom. ive had my personal monitor for years now, and it's doctors old so its served for a good while. its just a bit smaller (24 inch? something like that) and looks 'off' next to my work monitor which is a 27". so i'm looking to get a 27" to fit neatly next to the work monitor. but we concluded that might be smrat to wait until black friday to buy all these things, the discounts can be sweet. and all this is so... middle-aged. i would say painfully middle-aged, but its not that painful. just hilarious. middle-age combined with western consumption culture. just improving, upgrading, buying things... planning for discounts and deals...  then avo-scrambled egg on sourdough brekkie on a special saturday morning. lol.

it was doctors birthday a couple weeks ago. i made us breakfast and booked us a restaurant for the evening. doctor on the other hand booked us a 'hotel room' on a ship on the Thames for the same evening cos my birthday celebrations were cut a bit short in march.and on sunday he'd booked us a lunch at the Shard. the views, oh my!

 

the ship hotel

the hotel had such nice duvet i decided to get one. ive been looking at a new one but a trip to ikea does not attract me now and the other shops are just as far. and buying a duvet online... i mean i tried but its just impossible. i wanted something super fluffy and thick. i also wanted heavy, but everyone is advertising their duvets as light, i guess thats 'in' right now.

i got an Aarikka necklace i saw on eBay. my grandmom used to work for Aarikka so the brand is close to my heart.

this modified choir version of the Leevi & The Leavings classic is absolutely delightful, esp. the visuals. reminds me of childhood.
 

 

 this movie, Nine Days, seems like something for me. i always enjoy that type of life/death/meaning type of subjects. but the truth is i was very little movies these days. either they are annoying, make me anxious, make me uncomfortable, not worth it... there's always something. doctor i think is a bit frustrated with it, its hard to find something to watch together. he is quite open when it comes to films but originally what we had in common was artsy small production movies, and he still watches some. i just miss those times, but don't watch any. blah. 

i ran into this urban photo collection on facebook. i dunno how the person collected them, obviously not his photos, but i got stuck in the name; Urban Nightmares.  i think thats how its often defined when people live in big, anonymous buildings... a nightmare. but for some weird reason im drawn to some of these images. like i wish i could travel there. and although im not sure missing the context and all, but maybe i wouldnt mind living in some of these places either. it depends on many other factors, but the premise of large high rises amongside other high rises... it just doesn't sound horrible to me. it sounds average and safe. which i quite like. countryhouses are cool too, i just dont see it as my lifestyle - i grew up in one and that was sort of enough. penthouses and other 'special' city apartments then, sure, they can be cool, but i dont see myself ever living an exceptionally posh life, and im not strongly drawn to it. i should go to Tokyo and Hong Kong and see how the density feels like. although, as a tourist i will hardly get a proper feel.  

i also dont understand the stories built around games. and it makes me feel dumb, because surely there is a point to it, otherwise the gaming companies wouldnt bother. what i mean by stories around games is just how they are introduced. sometimes the backstories are elaborate, even if the story is simple like the mobile farming game or something, i could swear it probably has a "story". doctor is playing a PC game where he said the background is that his character is trying to revenge the killing of his family. and i wonder if that backstory is really necessary? like, point is he will try to find certain people and kill them, and he could either be a psychopath, revenging the death of his family, or maybe both...  i suppose i just dont get it. (i fully support playing video games tho, relaxing hobby). 

meeting Özlem and Elmor the other weekend. its getting cold and with Tier 2 restrictions u need to meet outside.. its gonna be a tough winter, maybe i wont be seeing much of my friends after it drops below 10C lol. 

 

ive started going for walks on my own. just 30minutes for now as Reply All podcast episodes last around that long, but it could be longer in the future. as far as i remember, ive never gone for a walk on my own without "a reason". ive gone for walks with partners, and obviously for all kinds of reasons and even getting off the bus earlier to walk some of the way, but even then i had the goal of going somewhere. the thought of just going out and walking "a loop", ALONE, has always been very unattractive to me. Evelina recommended it highly earlier this year and a small part of me was interested but i guess i wasnt ripe for it. not that my chiropractor has been trying to fix my back, along with the home excercises he has been pushing for me to go for a walk. and then one day i just did. i shouldnt make too much noise about it, it can well turn out to be one of those short lived hobbies, but im kinda glad ive done it, regardless of what happens from now on. 

listening:
Oneohtrix point Never: The Pure and the Damned (spotify link)
Reply All -  wonderful podcast by Gimlet. the episodes are all separate stories tackling mysteries of modern life like do robo calls know your location and if so, how, etc. the format is light and humorous, but they tend to dive pretty deep into the subjects which is very satisfying.

reading:
John Lydon: Anger is an Energy   (so far so-so)

watched:
Hott Fuzz  - fun enough
I'm Thinking of Ending Things - horrible artsy crap that i hate, only watched cos it was my movie club movie

the other night we went for dinner at the pub we can see from out window and is super cute. we were seated by the window (sitting next to each other with a direct view out). we could see our home from this seat it was fun.

romantic when it rains. Gary has company, doctor's capsisum plant. super hot peppers.

we recently passed our old flat in Brixton and this new work was on the wall under the train tracks.

art exhibit in a tunnel at Kings Cross tube station