wint...gas bills is coming

life has been flowing inevitably forward as it always does...   ive been to finland, seeing friends, working... the usual. but my mood is slightly low. nothing too bad just meh. and nothing specific. im kinda prepared to declare this a midlife crisis, which does sound dramatic but maybe i want to be a bit dramatic? cos ive been saying "i feel confused" for a while and getting tired of that, the follow up of "about what?" "i dunno" "yeah but like what exactly?" is not going anywhere, but i understand it sounds so vague it invites questions like that. however the label Midlife Crisis, i think it might get the acceptable nod, we've heard the term, we know it encompasses everything and it seems like a concept.  so i'll go with that. it also gels well with me, it invites me to consider the big picture. midlife crisis means maybe change is needed, so maybe i gotta look for that.

in finland me and the bestman were in charge of miss R's bachelorette party. and now we have a little time to breath, as the wedding is in october. the bachelorette party went fairly well though so that was a relief. i also visited Tampere to see Anni's and Janne's new place after them leaving Battersea for a new start back in finland...  they showed me around Tampere and i honestly found it a cute place. not huge, not too small, lots of fun details. after the spring, summer and this, i think im kay to not travel for a while. theres the wedding of course but like, in between. gotta save money for those winter gas bills too lol, winter is coming...

thanks to Ed Sheeran, the trains (back) to Tampere were full. all that was left was this little cabinet. i felt like a royalty. but it was so overly air conditioned i was freezing. for once the weather in finland was WARM and i wasnt wearing a lot.

so much talk about algorythms and AI and im still being offered "Rings of Power" by Amazon? and a million other things im never going to watch. netflix is honestly not much better. none of them are.

songs im listening to atm;
Hannes & Waterbaby: Stockholmsvy (spotify link)
Taylor Swift & Bon Iver: Exile (spotify link)
The National, Bon Iver: Weird Goodbyes (spotify link)
First Aid Kit: Out of My Head (spotify link)

 i also saw Nick Cave at the All Points East festival last sunday. saw him there like 4 years ago as well, nice little festical, and he's a great artist.

we went to this miniature exhibition yesterday. i enjoyed it. especially the stuff that was humorous or somehow evoking thought.

NYT: Linda Evangelista and the Fantasies Fashion Sells I am somewhat aligned with what this article is saying. im not sure why they had to tape her up and use all kinds of magic to pretend she looks just like she used to, some 10 or 20 years ago? im not saying Linda should be forced to share her insecurities, im jst not sure of how this Vogue story with the weird hat&scarf combos benefits anyone...  when i was around 16-20 i really enjoyed the aesthetics that Vogue & co were presenting, but then i inevitably grew out and while i can still appreciate the photography etc, a 2000£ hat or 3000£ boots just make me go "wtf". if you are in the lookout for those, then it makes sense, but as most of are not, what are we getting from this world. their "feminism" is also disappointing, i guess thats just as big of an issue for me. like, dont virtue signal feminism.

speaking of virtue signaling...  oh well no i actually like see stuff like this, so glad the world has changed in this recpect;