TLV babble

im planning on meeting Irisdall from dA in Tel Aviv, and i just looked at her gallery and found this. not a perfect photo but i kind of like it. it touches me, she looks so desperate. and he looks certain of his acts.




so far none of the israeli's that ive asked (3 people) have ANY idea how to go to Palestine. lol. someone said that they've heard of foreigners going but at least israelis cannot go. wonder why?? but i am a completely harmless finn, they should let me in, no? but it IS weird how come no one knows how i could get to their neighbor (if we use such friendly terms...). ill keep looking for answers...

i have now arranged to see Gil on the 9th.

the people coming to my home are Lihi and Barak. they are comedy writers :) i am compiling a list of my friends for them, those that have expressed their interested in meeting my replacements. and i should be meeting at least Daphna and Ohad whilst in TLV, friends of Lihi.

also, last week my boss was at a meeting abroad and met some people from out TLV office and one of them volunteered to be my 'going out' guide :D apparently my colleague in fact (same job title as me). cool!

nainen - keskity!

uusi viikko...

pitäs alottaa megasiivoukset jotta sais kämpän kuntoon vieraita varten. tiskejä on nyt koneessa... ja kassitolkulla vois viedä kamaa UFFille tai tonne mikä tos kurvissa nyt on... mutta tosi kiva syy siivota. muuten on hirveen vaikee motivoitua.

ja täl viikol on tosi paljon duunia, pitäs saada yks sivu valmiiks siiheks ku lähen israeliin. mietin kyl nyt tota Irania jotenkin. siel ei kämpänvaihtoa kauheesti tunnu olevan. couchsurfingissä sen sijaan löytyy paljonkin Irania. mutta siellä ei ole toimistoa meillä eli sinne ei töihin mennä - se on sit lomaa. ihan ok kai vaihteeksi?

ei jumalauta sinne (Iraniin) ei tunu pääsevän kuin Istanbulin kautta. tai kaikki tarjolla olevat lennot ainakin sieltä menee. en jotenki yhtää haluis välipysähtyä siellä. olenpas mä nyt vaikee. njaa, helmikuussa tarjolla olisi taas Lontoo. mun mielestä tää tarkottaa että tammikuussa ainoa hyväksyttävä kohde on Istanbul. olen myös ehkä ottanut muutaman napin liikaa enkä enää ole ihan järjissäni. alkaa kuulostaa siltä. voisin nyt keskittyä heprean opiskeluun ja Israeliin ensiksi enkä vouhottaa kaikkea muuta. pomo kysyi aionko mennä johonkin palestiinalaisalueille... olen niin pihalla noista enkä tiedä miten toi skulaa...pitää kai kysyä ja selvittää. kai mä menisin jos voisin? jahas, googletus avasi ainakin jotain ajatuksia asiaan; "Israel's Visa Rule: If You Visit Palestine, Stay There" jahas... niinpä tietenkin. kyselnpä kuitenkin paikallisilta miten tää asia oikeesti menee. pomo kysyi myös menenkö Jerusalemiin. ennen ollut ajatellut asiaa mutta ehkä mä nyt tsekkaan onko se tunnin vai viiden tunnin etäisyydellä ja harkitsen sitten uudestaan. eikö se Jeesus ollu sieltä? mun pitäs kai tietää.

i changed the livingroom light bulbs

i didnt follow a minute of Big Brother this year, which resembles my behavior on previous years as well. but i was somehow happy to see an iranian born guy win. i didnt know there was one in BB, but apparently so. slowly we integrate immigrants and 2nd generation immigrants into the population...

i really need to go to Iran one of these days... there was that one guy who wrote me and was willing to be a tour guide even :D

which reminds me, the other day i remembered Gil. i met him a few yrs ago, i think he wrote me through dA, and was coming to Assembly. we met up for dinner and walked around in helsinki a bit. so the other day i was like "hey....wasnt that guy from Israel??". so i wrote him if hes there and around in december. and yes he is! how cool we get to meet again? :)

and i dont understand what the whole thing is with the swiss banning building more minarets. i am clueless so i perhaps shouldn't say a thing, but it does sound somewhat worrying. how could you tell a religious group to not build more churches or whatever? if they feel like they need minarets and there are a lot of muslims (300-400 000) then wtf, go ahead. apparently the right wing was behind this ban, and it doesnt suprise me cos usually the right wing does have the worst fuckin racist ideas... from what ive read the muslim comunity in switzerland is rather quiet and hidden, and switzerland has a positive image in having mixed races and languages... this ban doesnt fit the image i have. but again, im not there so i dunno whats going on i guess.

thanksgiving did not touch me much, but was visible online because of the strong US presence naturally... anyway - lifehacker's list of "61 feree apps we are most thankful for" is something i can sign.

so random

i kind of missed out on saturday - due to sleeping. same thing happened last weekend with my sunday. i have a 6-day week. i didnt drink too much on friday but i was quite sleep deprived having skipped the previous night.

my new tv find is Glee. im usually not into high school themes stuff but whatever. one season. its kind of entertaining.

someone with the same surname wrote to me from the US. his grandparents were finns who moved to Minnesota, and his parents were children of those people. im surprised the surname has stayed in the family. there are not too many of us, according to family research we should be related.

and the other morning in FB, an old classmate started a chat. im not sure if he was at the class reunion, and i cant even remember when we had the reunion, altho i arranged it. in 2000 maybe. anyway he is a fireman in Heinola. he was going over to see our classmate, my first bf, Andrew - in Australia, just when he killed himself. so this guy turned up to attend the funeral rather than see him for real. weird. and he told me what i had kind of heard already, the Afganistan war was what broke Andrew. too bad.

kimberlizer is a funny thing. it offers the possibility to related with Kimberly - the smart girl who got 56 stars on her face and blamed the tattoo artist for it.

lobby of hotel Hanasaari where we'd booked a conference room for our offsite-day.














dining room of hotel Hanasaari. great foods.














bar/restaurant Memphis














restaurant Nuevo














tapas at restaurant Nuevo














central helsinki christmas decor (i guess)















on my way home around 3am, from the hakaniemi bridge.

the next step

15h of sleep. thats good. except when you should work too.

i linked to grooveshark before, but having tried it out further i think i need to emphasize how cool it is. spotify is only available in a couple countries so far, and i never liked Pandora... so this one seems like a cool&handy option outside the spoty-region.















tomorrow i need to be in Espoo at 8am :S we're having an offsite day and then going to the Picasso exhibition (which im not too keen on but i know im sure i wont regret as usual) and then dinner and then... well its pretty obvious.

yesterday was a weird day emotionally. i felt like i moved on. this asked for some celebration in form of new jewellery.

a flower ring, made of purple leather.














brustel metal earrings. pink earrings, purple flat transparent shell earrings and a black bracelet.















i am slowly starting to clean my place for the israelis. today i cleaned the microwave. what an accomplishment... and i am getting rid of some clothes via eBay etc. but thats kind of slow, so eventually i will just take bags full of clothes to the charity or something. the books are hard, i have plenty that i dont need. they are expensive to mail too if one thinks of selling them online, but the local antiquarian bookshops dont value my english/art books to anything. yet many are expensive and i know there are people in the world who would appreciate em. i did. hmm, what to do.

movies that caught my attention:
clash of the titans - some special FX-action
letter to juliet - fuck the ordinary plot, its got Gael Garcia Bernal!
randomocity - doesnt really seem amazing but something i'd like to give a chance anyway...
the private lives of pippa lee - somewhat interesting plot with several actors i like; Julianne Moore, Robin Wright Penn...



from the english edition of Helsingin Sanomat;
asylum seekers coming to finland through Istanbul
no more crucifixes in italian schools, thanks to some finnish attitude (BBC's article)
finnish travel show Madventures sells rights to National Geographic (Madventures website)

it knows not how it sounds

i recently found Annie Lennox's Love Song For A Vampire again. its a lovely retro love song, reminds me of the 90s.

"Th' rhythm of this trembling heart
Is beating like a drum.
It beats for you, it bleeds for you
It knows not how it sounds."



i finally installed Spotify on my phone today, on my way to work. got it working quickly. i guess ill eventually start using it too, but for now i might prefer my separate mp3 player.

writing down dreams might be a good idea

office day - not an early one though luckily.

House episode was interesting. Cuddy i guess did give up hope on House. eventually it happened. i can associate with this feeling - it hit home.

Yahoo! did something i liked for the first time in history i believe;

i am moving slowly

i just got a txt from someone asking if meeting next saturday morning is okay. i had to reply that it depends on what we were going to meet for. since i have no clue, the name was not familiar. embarrassing. they havent replied yet.

i started the day by watching Ae Fond Kiss, by Ken Loach (trailer). these lovestories from ireland/UK featuring race/religion conflicts are sometimes really interesting. its something happening quite close but yet very far from me. there was another good film like this but i cant remember the name now...

after the movie i went to the grocery store, i think the first time in several days. had a healthy sandwhich for breakfast and started work. i have a LOT to do today. going to the office tomorrow. and on friday we have an offiste thing, planning the code-of-conduct and other stuff, relaxing and eating. just our little team.

tonight there is a concert i think ill go to. try anyway.

miten se maanantaikin tollee

mulla piti olla tänää deitti mutta olin vieläkin niin väsynyt jotenkin sunnuntain jäljiltä että mikään kofeiini ei pitäny mua pystyssä ja peruuttelin... siirrettii keskiviikolle.

kauppaankaan en ehtiny kun oli taas päikkärit menossa ja Karri soitti ja puitiin lauantain meiningit. totesin iltapäivällä etten ole syönyt mitään lauantaina bileiden jälkeen ja söin omenan. nyt kuitenkin kaipasin jotain täyttävämpää mutta kas kun ei ole mitään. kaapissa joku pastapussiateria. laitoin sen tulille ja totesin että paraste ennen päiväys oli 2007. millä oikeudella nää kuivamuonat menee ikinä vanhaks? :(

ei siitä kyllä hyvää tullu vaikka en oo varma oliks se siks et se oli vanhaa vai koska siin oli jotain soijaa. se ei oo mun juttu yleensä. ei voinu syödä kokonaa.


Soininvaara ja pakkoruotsi. näin just.

chatin FB:ssä yhden uuden elokuvaohjaajatutun kanssa, mistäs muusta ku elokuvista. päätin että katson Toisen karroksen lauluja (Roy Andresson), annan mahdollisuuden. ja suosittelen herra ohjaajalle Calvairea. traileri ei vakuuttanut mutta se on kieltämättä vähän paska. noin muuten me ei olla mistään samaa mieltä paitsi Irreversiblestä, et siin on jotain spessua kun vaan jaksaa odottaa.

in space and time

i need to find a way to block event invites from FB friends that are so distant to me, physically, that any events they might invite me to are not possible for me to go to. i hate getting event invites and then messages related to it, when its a comedy club on the other side of the world. not that i appreciate all the helsinki-based event invites either, but that is tolerable i suppose.

the event called Karris' pre-christmas party went okay, except for one major fail: more people showed up than i expected and my calculations were just poor to begin with maybe, and what happened is that we ran out of punch. it pretty much ruined my evening. i eventually found stuff to drink myself though and got effectively wasted but im eternally upset over this major failure. i just hope i will get a chance to redeem this one day. and i even left the party at 3am cos Tiitta & Emma were having a party of their own next door and kept calling me to come over. i could not resist. i have been crowned as their favorite "no-nonsense girl" :)

there were so many people at Karri's party i dont think i talked to even half of them. i got stuck with paavo and his friends and the friends he brought in. some italians and a japanese architect. i kept interviewing the italian physicist because hes researching dark matter and how it was 'born'. fascinating! other than that i think we spent 2 hours talking about porn with the italians, Paavo and a finnish cartoonist... i think it started from Rocco Siffredi, as he is italian and he has made himself quite the legend. i didnt know he was in Romance X. and then another movie, what was it again. something i havent seen.

the living room table catering at the party














Emma and Tiitta's kitty














the trailer for Love needs more appreciation, i think.



"Come loose your dogs upon me
And let your hair hang down
You are a little mystery to me
Every time you come around"
Nick Cave And The Bad Seeds: Ship Song

pysy nyt nahoissasi

kamala moraalinen tai henkinen krapula tai mikä tää on. fyysinen kunto siis hyvä kuten aina, mutta järkyttävän paska fiilis. enkä oikeesti ollu kovin humalassa edes eilen. ei yhtään kiinnostais ottaa uusiks tänään. pitänee pysyy vaan vielä iisiimmällä linjalla sit? mikä voi olla vaikeeta jos omaa booliaan juo. muistelin et K:lla oli joku hyvä loitsu tähän ja kysyin. se sano et magnesium vois jelppii - kaivoin Beroccaa laatikosta ja nyt uskon että se auttaa. placebo-efekti edes pliis? ei muuten varmaan suomeks kirjoiteta placebo vaan plasebo? mut toi näyttää kyl tosi tyhmältä. kirjoitan mieluummin väärin sit.

en pysty edes valitsee illan vaatteita kun nekin tuntuu kaikki ihan hirveiltä. pitää eka tehdä kaikki muut päivän toimet ja sit vast repii jotain päälle viimesenä. tapaan Karrin neljältä Alkossa, ja siiheks mennes pitäs kai keksiä mitä illan taikaliemeen tulee. paikan päällä, niinku kaupassa, en ikinä pysty tekee mitään päätöstä, se tilanne on niin stressaava kun on tavaraa nenän edessä ja pitäs ajatella samalla. en pysty.

voi ei... äsken FB:ssä muistutin yhtä tyyppiä, joka oli eilen bileissä, mut siis Paavon kaveri. ja Paavo kertoi kutsuneensa sen Karrille, ni muistutin sitä sen seinällä et tulee sit tänää. ja sit eilen bileissä oli yks aussi, jonka kaa jutskasin paljon, ja tää tyyppi ja se aussi on FB kavereita kans, ja nyt siis se näkee et laitoin "tuut sit tänää Karrille", ja ehkä se miettii et miksei sitä oo kutsuttu. kun nyt se näyttää siltä et mä kutsuin sen tyypin. ja voisin kai mäkin sen aussin kutsua mut sit mä en jotenki koekaan sopivaksi kutsua ketään. ja mä viel chatin FBssä sen aussin kaa tänää, ja jäi olo et se ehkä olisi kaivannut kutsua, kun tiesi et mulla on tänään toiset bileet. vittu oonko mä vainoharhainen? mut en mä nyt senkään takia kutsu jos tuntuu et joku sitä odottaa. kerran sillon kutsuin Karrille neiti R:n, ja Artun kai. ja ehkä Oton? mut sit Karri kutsuu ne nyt ihan ite. ja mä en kutsu niinku ketää. miksei must tunnu et mä olisin oikeutettu kutsuu ketää? siin FB eventissä jopa kai lukee et voi tuoda seuraa mukanaan?

vittu mä en kestä.




uutisista sain vinkkiä että jos sitä ja sitä niin ahvenanmaa haluaa ehkä irroittautua suomesta. no siitä vaan. kthanxbye. koska, en tiedä mitä spessua niillä on (varmaan jotain tosi...) mutta oikeesti...KTHANXBYE. jos ei kelpaa ni mitä vittua, omilleen vaan. sujuu varmaan tosi hyvin.

representation

and she is up by noon! yay!

i left the party at around 1am. some people were gonna continue and go to Teatteri or Tiger, neither are really my kind of places so i skipped. i met a few interesting people at the party though so that was nice. not to mention great foods; french, italian, turkish, japanese etc... and of course some indian delicacies... hehe.





























grooveshark is a neat looking music player online.

some interesting and neat gay themed photos gathered in "Jonathan's class of 99" tumblr

if David Lynch was my daddy

... yea, i wonder ?

but these "if David Lynch directed..." trailers are awesome...

so what do i wear for the party?

found an indian shop on the street btw. huge one, too. bought snacks etc.

need to go to post office today, i got a card to pick up a package

tonight is the international food party, but i should keep low profile, cos tomorrow is Karri's pre-christmas party. and im making the punch of course. yay, its been a while since i last mixed a ny drinks or such. ive been such a good fuckin girl for most of this year, really toned things down. i think my first couple yrs of drinking i was checking out the limits a bit, and its pretty obvious that went too far sometimes. but its good to know what that is like i guess?



a new reality series for me: Cathouse. a 'bunny' ranch in nevada. ive always been curious about the whole selling yourself business. since human animals have made sex such a hard cash transaction, i dunno, its another level. interesting.

Cathouse is surprisingly 'open', and so many customers that let themselves be filmed. probably regulars or whatever, but thats not the point. often its so obvious how nervous the people are. crossdressers, married couples. all kinds of people. but i can see its mostly real, the oddness of the situations sometimes is kind of uncomfortable. the payment. its not getting up. shes clearly faking like a porn star. the list goes on. but to see real people, both the working girls and their customers is really fresh and seems to keep me entertained.

for criticism though, the series so far doesnt mention much of the practicalities, u can just see a hint here or there. like, safety issues etc. there is a guy hanging around that could be a security guard but i wouldnt know. and health care, testing...? drinking (they seem to drink a lot)things like that. remain a mystery so far.

besides a couple anonymoys blogs, i dont think i ever knew all but ONE guy who had seen a hooker. and he wouldnt really talk about it, so :( i wish i met someone who would admit and tell me. what went on in their head, how did they feel afterwards. not to blow stuff out of proportions, its just sex, but it does have a bit of a stigma and mentally theres a couple things different from a relationship.

please mind the gap

on friday im going to this party, with the theme "international foods". some foreign lady living in a large flat in central helsinki is holding parties like every weekend with a different theme. and the doors are very open for new people. Paavo invited me, but even he doesnt know her, he knows someone who knows... i have lost track. anyway, to organize the food thing, everyone whos signed up to the event in FB is assigned to a group. my group is india. ironic as it is the only dish i am not SO keen on. i tend to love almost anything else. also i am not sure if any one of us has any clue of wtf is indian food, like really. if i go to an indian restaurant, or to india, i reckon the food is indian. but if i am supposed to arrange something, somehow... err. googling "indian food" is a bit vague, too. its not like i could cook anything. i think my best chance is to discuss with the other people, and then check the shops on my street. as it happens, i think all of helsinki's 5 or so exotic food shops are on my street. african, asian... "halal-meat" anyone? i am still clueless what that even is. i doubt there is an animal called halal. is it from an animal that was killed by draining the blood or sumtin?

aaaaanyway, i am sure the food stuff will be figured out and i cant wait to go to the party and meat a lot of new people, foreigners especially. Paavo is the only one i know so its all new for me.

i set up a VPN connection yesterday, with the swedish ipredator. sometimes i dont need to be seen. i am yet to be confident how it works speed wise but time will show.

visualizing empires rise and decline, wonderfully made video.

this was a good post on Nightmare Brunette; male culture with so much touching surprised me a lot when i first encountered it. and i still find it puzzling and hugely interesting. the nuances are yet to be figured out for me. but there is something good in this i think, i think i like it. yet, i rather just watch, and prefer not to be touched too much.

the light at the end of the tunnel is turned off for ecological reasons

i met cousin B for lunch. the baby is due in february so the pregnancy is now very obvious. VERY odd to see her looking so different.

i also saw Arttu later in the evening. we made plans for my future, including traveling, jobs, phones and W7. we did talk about his cell phone future too. Androids and apps, yup, the future is bright, i guess?

Ville from Stockholm invited me to a New Year's Party. i am going to Stockholm in february, but its one of those quick one-day cruise things, doesnt really count. but so now im wondering if i should try pop in at new years. hmmmmm.

the trailer for A Single Man is great, the music and visuals are amazing. and Julianne Moore is no less than amazing either.

maybe it wasnt meant to be

just got back from Tiitta who cut my hair. sneezing like crazy. although i washed my hands, apparently not well enough as when my hand found its way to rubbing my eye to release the itching, i got myself a red, swollen AND itching eye. and i only spent about 1.5hours with her and the kitties! the antihistamines are rubbish.

mail brought me the rest of my kitty magnets from dA. perhaps already some time ago, i havent been too interested in the pile of mail in front of my door. typically, i just walk right over the mail... anyway, the fridge door is filling. kitty overload.


one of the pubs where me and K were in last night, really trashy but oh so traditional Pub Sirdie;



after a long break someone i know from turkey, and met in istanbul, started chatting with me. i was delighted, he is a lovely person. turns out he just moved right next to mr *jekyll&hyde*... whom we have been having good conversations with lately, i think. fairly open and honest, easy. its bittersweet perhaps, as last week i said we cant keep meeting the way we have, if(when) i return to Istanbul. the rollercoaster he is, is inasanity, and i think i shouldnt support it. i dont want to adapt to both Jekyll and Hyde.


this is lovely piece of text somehow; Maybe live in Paris. Jim had noticed and thought of me.

ive seen this one before, but it always gives me a huge smile;
where the hell is Matt?

how cool? cool

so im STILL (wow its been several hours!) excited over Tel Aviv.

F's friends, Avner and Elmor, are visiting their home in Tel Aviv around christmas so i will be able to meet them also. how cool is that? (super cool)

this morning, in the bus, my close friend's ex sat opposite to me. they just broke up and she moved away from their common home so the situation was more less awkward. finns are not good with small talk to begin with, i was slightly confused from having been out drinking last night, and he is a bit quiet... i tried my best. "sooooo, hows the rent, paying it alone and all?"

odd, my colleague just showed me, he is on IRC and noticed that people are talking about me (my photos). i told him to tell them i am sitting right here and if they have something to say, bring it on :D i got nice greetings and a request to go to Jyväskylä to hold an exhibition.

shower jokes ensue

we were supposed to have some sort of celebration/party for winning something, within the department, on thursday, but its cancelled cos less than half could participate. and its moved to december 14th or something. which means i cannot participate cos im in TEL AVIV! :D
hahah! yay.

yea, perhaps better this way, since i was actually out last night. was supposed to go for a couple with K but couple turned out several etc. how smart, to start the week like that? especially since today is office-day. so i just got here and im starting work.

ive booked 8th-21st december for Tel Aviv. the connections are super shitty, i will slit my wrists for this... (18h from Helsinki to Tel Aviv, via Budapest). but, for 208e its a good deal anyway i suppose. so, some israelis will come to my place while i am there, and... yea. i will give them a list of friend's phone numbers so itll be a full life exchange....:)

yesterday i also got a response to my other home exchange inquiries... i sent some mail to amsterdam, london, moscow...but why am i not surprised the reply eventually came from istanbul? its meant to be. fuck, im sounding superstitious.

also, Volkan in istanbul is looking into long-term accommondation options. and, i hear the english teaching job is still there, possible and all, despite me not having heard anythying regarding it... but it requires me to finish my damn certificate. which i certainly have not been doing lately.

i dunno what my work situation is in 2010, my contract is until the end of this year atm, but i need to keep planning forward anyway. and istanbul seems to still be 'it'.

not your wedding photographer

a remote friend asked me to shoot his wedding in 2010. coincidentally, earlier when we met, he was interested in me. that didn't work out but we've kept in touch. good to hear hes found someone. now he's just spent half an hour trying to convince me, wants 'suzi9mm' to shoot his wedding. and isn't taking 'no' for answer. but christ i hate wedding photography, its just not my cup of tea. and im not really good at it either. i suggested Marianne but noooo. thats too bad. theres her and so many others that can really do weddings well. id assume its more important to get GOOD photos, than to say suzi9mm took them. but he also seems to think that wedding photos magically turn great if i just take them. i wish...

last night i was at this birthday party. was okay all in all. early in the evening i talked to this guy, i guessed his profession to the dot, fuck, im really good (IT - security). turns out he is a person who calls the CEO (or other higher ups) when he is unhappy with a product or service, because of his job he usually knows these some people in charge. ive always wondered who the fuck does that. now i know. our conversation died there and then.

i think me and miss R left after 1. everyone else went to another club, but were not too much into that. i got a hotdog on the way home but only ate half and managed to mess up my scarf in the sauce. id attempted to wash it after coming home, found it in the sink this morning. rest of the hotdog was still in the kitchen. typical saturday night i guess.

at the club. it was mostly 90s music.


outside the smoking room at the club, thats where u leave your drinks.


another pic from Espoo, when im leaving the office.

3 good ones

a friend's friend's (? is that even grammatically correct? prolly not?) husband has a big 30th birthday party in a club downtown; Lady Moon... i think its been 10 yrs since i was there last. which makes me wonder what is their age limit, how the fuck did i get in? i always looked older when i was young though. and now i seem to look younger. good deal.

these 3 wooden signs in the woods are inspiring even if easy. "Fear less, Love more, Fight harder"

yup.

kupla puhkee

aijaa Prodigy oli stadissa keikalla. mä en taas tienny asiasta mitään. ei sillä, en kuitenkaan olis menny, joten aivan sama kai tuo.

radikaalivihreille oma puolue (HS 11.11). haluavat eroon kapitalismia ja yksityisautoilusta. onnea sen kanssa... oikeesti, sitä voi tarvita, muut keinot ei ehkä riitä.

Mainoskuplan tämänvuonen sato on must aika kehnoa. ammattilaissarjasta (en tiedä miten se on määritelty, nämä pisti miettimään) löytyy tosi visuaalisesti surkeita töitä. photoshopin alkeita jne. haluankin jakaa tässä kommenttini maailman kanssa (näköjään)

Ohjain - MS paintilla tehty? en tiedä mikä mainos pohjana mutta ei oikeen kosketa. pelien pelaaminen vakava ympäristörikos? what?
Enter - tulee mieleen 90-luvun tietokonepelien grafiikat. ei mielestäni toimi mainoksen tai ajatuksen tukena tai eduksi.
Vilppi - tämä on jo hyvin tehty mutta aika helppo.
Supertuhlari - näyttää tosi kotikutoiselta, ei mainokselta. vähän kuin 15-vuotiaan näkemys asiasta.
Idiootti - simppeli, hauska, osuva. ehkä helppo mutta hymyilen silti. eli toimii :)
ET - miksi käyttää ET:tä, sitä (kai) ainoata vanhempien ihmisten aikakauslehteä tämän asian ajamiseen. ok joo liittyy asiaan. kukaan ei välitä mutta jotenki toi ET:n käyttäminen hämää.
Hengen arvo - huonoa shoppausta kaikin puolin, überblurrattu kuva ei ole mitenkään tekemisissä kosmetiikkamainonnan kanssa. kaunis ajatus tuossa kyllä, harmi tuo huono toteutus
Meikkipelle - tämä ei ole edes 'huonon' maininnan arvoinen. ei liity mihinkään mitenkään. käsittämätöntä ei edes kritiikkiä.
Worst idea - eli hyvä idea, hyvin tehty. vaikka olenkin IKEA-fani, ei kai ne enää käytä noita nk. eläviä höyheniä? ainaki sanoi lopettaneensa?
Maybelie - hyvä nimivääntö ja ajatus taas kerran mutta onpas paskin visualisointi ikinä. näyttää joltain Animalin mainokselta, ei millään pahalla? oranssia? ylä-aste tasoinen ja vastenmielinen, ei kiinnosta katsojaa sorry! tuntuu aina että kun tarkoitus on hyvä niin presentaatiosta tingitään. rahaa ON vähemmän mutta ei se aina tarvis olla tollanen ongelma, tuntuu että asioita ajavat ihmiset ei oikeasti ymmärrä nykyaikaisen viestinnän perusteita kapitalismin aikakaudella.
Mauton - Vaasan? vai mikä se oli ? heh. en ymmärrä pointtia yhtään. leipälafka on paska koska...se on iso yritys? mitä? mikä vittu on ongelma? miksi mauton? vitun hyvää leipää muuten jos multa kysytään.
Uglyair - paskin nimi voittaja. visuaalisesti myös pohjanoteerausta, ainoastaan sloganissa jotain ovelaa.

voi tietysti olla että minulla on täysin oma kieroutunut kuvitelman millaisia töitä tuossa kaivataan. mä siis kelasin et kaupallisen ja mainoksen näköisiä, mutta eri asenteella, jollain viestillä joka osuu ja uppoo. ihan kuin hyvä mainoskin tekee muuten.

1000 and 1 nights

i have absolutely no plans for this friday, except to work.

i think i just spent the night mostly watching tv series... yet another new series that i find decent is The Good Wife. Julianna Margulies is somehow... i like her. i remember seeing her in TV when i was a teen, and felt the same back then. something about her features is special, charismatic. and the series itself...yea its decent as i said.

i managed to dye my hair too. today i should concentrate on getting some dishes done. and i think that is the extent of my ambitiousness.



in dA, the oddest thing happened. theres a guy ive been writing with for many years. well not really writing-writing, but he comments on my stuff, journals especially etc. and i reply and such. i dont remember where exactly is he from, how old, etc. but i think well in his twenties, 25 or whatever. i just recognize the nickname, like so many others, and i remember a feeling about the person, and some details perhaps. anyway, i remember from a long time ago that he mentioned being a virgin. and it kept coming up as he commented on my 'sex polls', as they are known in the community... anyway, and i recall telling him to absolutely let me know if and when... 'stuff happens' :) and lo and behold, now i got a private message from him telling its happened! he found someone special and eventually they ended up having sex. i dont know why, but i was really excited for him. the whole relationship thing is new for him, not to mention sex itself. makes me feel like the slutty grandmother though, when a guy is asking me for beginner's positions advice? very funny. and cute. i just wrote him a long note with ALL my BEST EVER advice hehe. i hope they have plenty of fun...

i had to go check his profile, but it doesnt list his age actually. turns out our political beliefs are very different...uh huh...i shouldve stayed out of that page, i didnt want to know that.


i was watching some trailers...
Prince of Persia: Sands of Time is a Disney production, but i just might give it a shot. i truth is i havent seen Jake Gyllenhaal in years. perhaps since Brokeback Mountain? anyway it reminds me i actually met someone persian in istanbul last time. we had a good time over some drinks.

then there's Matt Damon in Green Zone, but this war shit is not really working for me...im skipping it. and when the fuck did i start liking Matt Damon anyway?? everyone hates him... i dunno... i dont remember when and what happened, but somehow i started finding him 'okay'. *shrugs*

feels like a friday but is not

yesterday i was supposed to meet K, but something else showed up, so it was a 'cancel'. and Tiitta has been a bit ill, so im not meeting her tonight either. looks like im just going for a walk with Arttu and relaxing by myself.

the sociological images-blog has once again taken shit a bit too far "facebook needs to know your gender". happens way too often. what happens rarely is that i feel the urge to reply and canNOT not fight it. so i replied something. "OMG one in every million people cannot decide which fuckin gender they are, we need to build non-gender-specific toilets EVERYWHERE. pass a law pls. at least government buildings should respect those that cant fuckin pick. Facebook is SO EVIL and INCONSIDERATE, why cant they just code the whole fuckin shit all over keeping ME in mind". jesus. i think the word "see" should be banned from public use because it offends the blind. and the word "walk" should not be used either, for obvious reasons. and i dont really feel very 'human' at all, my therapist can confirm this, so i think referring to 'people' is discriminating me. and so forth. get a fuckin life.

i think today may be a hair dye day. btw its really discriminating to use a female image on the cover of those hair dye boxes. they should have both genders, but not romantically, that offends gays. then again, there's also the transgenders. could we have a woman, a man, a transsexual and a dog on the cover of every package please? what? that offends whom? so sorry. we'll fix it right away. hang in there. remember take your meds.

im stilling missing the greatness of google wave. what to do with it? i think its useless before i have a zillion contacts.

the makers of Star Wreck- In The Pirkinning are making a new movie; Iron Sky. teaser below. i like the tagline "In 1945 the Nazis fled to the moon. In 2018 they are coming back. " lol


and something about web browsers - very practical real life description

winter arriving

the day was not eventful but yet emotional. i went to the office for 5 hours. tomorrow i need to go for a meeting again, for the sake of 2 hours. but i will get a new web project started so thats good.

i encountered a new tv series, V 2009. its decent enough to watch. House is back too, yay.

i took these on my way to work this morning, and the last one in the afternoon, its from near my home. it was snowing a bit. unfortunately the cam didnt capture the snow flakes so well.





this 'hot tamale'-video is seriously DISTURBING

greetings to Berlin

yesterday's trip to Sysmä was actually 55e... my mom decided to hand me some cash for christmas so that will cover it but nevertheless bloody expensive moving around in finland...

info corner: i was happy to see that nearly half of finns have female bosses, more than in any other EU country.

the 20yr fall of - anniversary reminds me that the Berlin wall thing was quite extraordinary. people are surprisingly fucked up, when u think of it... "hey lets build a wall here..."

today i decided to move from my fall jacket to the winter coat. ive attached gloves (inside mittens9 to the sleeves, and the coat has a hood, which is a great addition to my hat. so now im all winter-ready. it's around 0 celcius lately, but yesterday in 2C i was freezing because my shirt was so thin i guess, i decided it wont happen again.

this reminds me, now that the weather often requires multiple layers of clothing...how a lot of women (feminists or not) have strong feeling towards the sleeveless shirt called "wife beater". the term has taken a life of its won in peoples minds. a few times i have heard sort of criticism or negative attitudes if a male was wearing this. as if this piece of clothing made him a 'wife beater' automatically, or at least someone condoning it. it happens to be a practical thing to wear, and while pop culture has successfully associated it with violent or otherwise no-good behavior, there are a billion or so (literally) men, and women, wearing it that have nothing to do with the term. i dont think a man should need to avoid this "A-shirt" just because of its other nickname. i think it would be the same as if i felt i have to avoid mini skirts to not be labeled as slut. id like to think the length of my skirt has nothing to do with my sexual behavior and resent to someone assuming so (i realize some parts of the world dont bend to my thinking, but im talking about scandinavia here).

i need to start getting rid of extra stuff seriously... planning that home exchange thing is a great reason to. moving would be another. anyway, i started packing some clothes that i never wear. thats a start.

tomorrow i need to go to the office. and wednesday, too. i should meet Tiitta on thursday. and on saturday there is a party in a bar downtown. otherwise the week looks quite easy... not too many things planned.


and yes i wore a this infamous wife beater today while going out, underneath other clothes. i am not sure if my winter coat is registred here yet...so need to showcase it:



















last friday at Arttu's. his friend made warm sandwiches - yummy.

jen at her favorite hobby: planning travels

easy saturday. i got up before noon - yay! miss R came over in the evening and we put together a tasty salad and relaxed. i had one cider. my only one this week - i might add. quite remarkable considering ive been sitting in bars and restaurants all week almost. i must say its kind of boring to have diet coke after another in a bar though. i remember the times when it was all i ever had, but times indeed change.

anyway... i seem to have work very nicely until the end of the year which is great. i am hoping (still) to go somewhere for a bit in december, and then somewhere in january, for a longer period hopefully. not sure yet where that should be. i am obsessing over istanbul still, and why shouldnt i, but i am considering other things too. anyway, i am now talking to a girl in Tel Aviv, Israel, about switching homes with her and her friend. everyones asking "why Tel Aviv??". why not? why not Dubai? why not ANY place that is within cheap airfare? Rome? Kosovo? Reykjavik? i just went on a whim and looked at homes in Tel Aviv and thats all :) Israel is historically interesting area too...and politically...well i dont have to go there do i? but i guess with my opinions about everything, i wouldnt mind getting a view of what people there think and so forth... we'll see if this works out, i hope so!

also i just remembered my old friend from school is working in Moscow atm. he was online in FB and i asked until how long is he there. i would like to visit Moscow but preferably of course when there are as many of my friends as possible... there is that girl i met in Portugal whom i wanna photograph. but meeting Jari (and his wife) would be great. and he just said there is a couch for me...:) makes things a lot easier...


mom called me today. wanted to remind about the Father's Day tomorrow...so that i would call my stepfather. she is always reminding me about these things but sometimes i still forget. and she wanted to go through her funeral plans again, she is a bit stressed about some surgery she is now waiting for. having been under anesthesia so many times and with some lung trouble they are considering it a risky operation. so. anyway, i started thinking that the pre-christmas season is really busy often with parties in the weekends so i decided to go visit them tomorrow. then i have it taken care of for a few months... wow that sounds bad? its just that 3h in a bus/direction and 54euros is kind of a turn off. not something i like to do too often.


sugar coated quote:
"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened."
-Dr Seuss

heikotusta

näin ohimennen jonkun sivun reunassa mainoksen "raskaustestit halvalla!" tms. no hitto, pitäsköhän osta isompi satsi kerralla? :D en tiiä mutta luulis että siinä vaiheessa kun noita kaivataan niin ei ole aikaa odotella postitoimituksia. hmm, huomasin juuri langenneeni ajatukseen että nämä on aina kiireellisiä tapauksia. onhan niitäkin kun testailee joka kuukausi kun odottaa sitä toivottua jälkikasvua...ehkä silloin laatikollinen noita halvalla netistä ei olekaan niin huono idea. hyvä on, lasken sarkasmini alas.

pitäs tehdä uuteen lemppariuutissivuuni (Ampparit) sikainfluenssa-filtteri. en jaksais enää yhtää sitä messuamista.

heikkona hetkenä eilen soitin arkkitehdille. vaikka nyt on mennyt ihan hyvin. ei olla oltu yhteyksissä paljoa ja kun ollaan niin aika pinnallisen kevyissä merkeissä, välttelen sujuvasti vaikeita aiheita ja pidän coolini. puhuttiin mm tosta mun kämppä-vaihto inspiksestä ja se sanoi että kas kun voisit tulla vaikka tänne hänen kotikaupunkiinsa joksikin aikaa. sanoin että en tiennytkään että se halusi moista. se sanoi että eihän se aina haluakaan. niin, tässä päästään taas juonen ytimeen. tänään tätä, huomenna jotain muuta. ei pysty enää. "inspiroiduin" eli hiillyin taas ja meinasin pistää hillittömät avautumismailit perään, mutta olen ainakin toistaiseksi onnistunut pitämään itseilmaisuni ihan itselläni. kirjoittelen tekstejä joita en lähetä. vellon siinä. normilauantai siis.

surfing the webster

besides working some, i slept through the day. Sebastian quickly visited and returned my hat which i forgot at his place last friday. that was pretty much it...

i didnt even take any pics with my new cam today. just been sitting by the computer... looking through these 'home exchange' sites... building master plans and whatnot amazing ideas. i wonder how far that will fly...

very impressive treehouse
Darth Vader conducting Icelandic orchestra
rock giants in the Urals
rap in 30 languages - a pretty nice video
monday morning - lol
full body floss... OMG :D
Hitler's Xbox

Kev is back from his month long trip in China & Mongolia. and Miriam is in Stockholm right now, for some UN or feminist org conference. so close! but so far. i couldnt find a decently cheap way to go there now so no meeting :(

2.0 - my lucky number

OMG THE BEST IDEA EVER. so i was on this date. was nice etc. BUT! as i told him about my desperate need to go somewhere for a while, work from abroad etc. he suggested i try home swap! YES! why didnt i think of it before! i dunno what the 'market' is like but at a quick glance its very doable. i checked a couple sites and there are indeed flats everywhere in the world. well, i actually just checked europe/moscow/turkey for now... i cant afford to fly too far atm. how awesome of an idea? i could totally do that. it DOES mean i need to clean up a little here... "a little". but, its not a bad excuse to clean if i get to stay somewhere for free :)

sooooo where am i going? we'll see... just today i mentioned this working abroad -scenario to my boss,and i suppose she felt it went quite well last time and she supported my idea. in fact she said its a great idea :D i do have my other job as well, more website projects... just today i heard i probably have work in that segment until the end of the year, which is great news, financially and otherwise. but im pretty sure its okay by that boss as well if my physical being disappears for a while.

and as if that wasn't enough good stuff for the day, i finally got myself a new pocket camera :) the old one was falling into pieces, several faults making use difficult. what happened was: i bought one on monday actually. Panasonic Lumix DMC-TZ7. i tend to do my research well and avoid mishaps. however, today i returned it and got a Canon PowerShot S90 instead. and i was a Lumix evangelist! so how did this happen? i went to the store, with my other options in mind, and asked for help from the staff. i used to sell cameras back in...long time ago...so i can appreciate a good camera sales person. what makes them good is they find whats right for YOU. i was really locked into the lumix triangle (FX550, ZX1...), and the suggestion of this Canon threw me off guard. but how right he was... i can say its not perfect, but very close... this feeling is what i was looking for . i knew that my uneasiness with the TZ7 was abnormal. something just wasnt right.

so what was wrong with TZ7?
-bulky size. i thought i could get over it...but i couldnt. no way was it gonna fit in my pocket.
-protruding things...selection wheel, lens...
-aperture starting at 3.3
-the auto shoot mode did not have the 640x480 size option which is what i always use
-the usb port was with some weird ass plug again...HDMI mini maybe...whatever...another cord needed just for this camera...
-shoots .MOV files
-going from play mode to shoot mode requires the switch of a button (typically pressing shutter is enough)

yes, TZ7 could zoom while in video mode (big plus). and its zoom went all the way to 300mm. not that i was ever gonna use it. and the video was whatever super HD new tech format... but i dont care for any of that. the downsides were simply too much. after shooting there was also weirdly long 'processing' breaks. and although somewhat similar to my previous Lumix, the UI was a bit off and slow.


what is right with Canon S90 then? (nice gizmodo review)
-APERTURE 2.0 - thats TWO-POINT-ZERO!
-size. only a mm here or there bigger than my old baby
-form...very stylish and smooth, dare i say - lumixy?
-familiar UI, as i have used a Canon compact before
-the new parts of the UI were very innovative and its super nice to use! fast!
-very handy 'ring' around lens to adjust almost anything (like all manual settings)
-great noise reduction
-very nice quality photos (not what i can say for Lumix FX550)

some might add to the list RAW format and whatnot, but thats not important for me when it comes to a compact cam. i just want
1) decent quality in 2) 640x480 (and often DARK conditions!)
3) wide angle
4) compact stylish package, and
5) practical & fast user interface and plugs etc.

u'd think its not a lot to ask and would cost less than 429e though...hmm... MUCH more than i was prepared to pay. but this was the right camera for me. i had to make an executive decision and swipe the card.

but if S90 is not perfect, then what is wrong with it?
-shoots .MOV (like almost every cam out there)
-wide angle starts at 28mm, not 24mm...

and i think thats it. oh and its not called Lumix with the word Leica embroidered all over... but im going to have to forgive that. Canon has served me so well all these year in my DSLR career, i dont regret my jump on the Leica bandwagon but maybe it was time to return home.

all black and smooth....S90:

bigger than a make up sponge. about the width of a lip gloss tube :)

the bulky (but great for a videographer) Lumix TZ7:


tonight at William K, nearby bar which i like;


and outside William K at around 22:30, the first (somewhat permanent) snow this winter :)

these days

blah, blah and blah. not the best of days. not worst either. ive just got a few things i need to decide. think.

House seems to be on some weird break again, so im not getting my weekly fix. damn!!!

this art(?) almost blinds me. technically. not artistically.

FB ja influenssa aiheuttavat päänvaivaa

lehdet uutisoi kilpaa jostain sikainfluenssa-rokote-jonotus-ohituksista... tulee mieleen ne maailmanlopunelokuvat joissa ihmiset tappelee verissäpäin jostain elintärkeästä lääkkeestä tai vedestä... kyse on kuitenkin jumalauta influenssasta - koitetaan nyt pitää jotain perspektiiviä tässä. montakohan ihmistä viimesenkin puolen vuoden aikana on kuollut ihan vaikka perussyöpään, sydänkohtaukseen, keuhkoahtaumatautiin ja tulipaloon? sikainfluenssan uhriluvut ovat näkyvästi otsikoissa - YKSI. että vedetään vähän henkeä välillä.

rokotteen sivuvaikutukset järkyttävät myös kansan syviä rivejä kovasti - on lämpöä ja kipeää kättä. miltähän se itse influenssa tuntuu sitten? varmaan tosi iisi? se on ikävää kun KAIKKEA EI VOI SAADA ja mikään ei kelpaa. jonotetaan hiki otsalla rokotetta mutta sen sivuvaikutukset ovat täysin epäinhimillisiä... on se elämä vaikeeta. onneksi ei ole isompia vaivoja joista nillittää.

stockmann avaa verkkokaupan. kiva kiva. odotan mielenkiinnolla. akateemisen online-kauppa on jo pelastanut päivän useamman kerran, vaikkei olekaan teknisesti mitenkään järisyttävä. en muista mikä suomalaisessa oli vikana, olivat varmaan myöhemmin netissä tai jotain muuta paskaa. muistan myös että hintavertailussa akateeminen voittaa yleensä.

viime viikonlopun juhlista sen verran vielä että perjantaina kokeilen ekaa kertaa jotain 'taistelupeliä'. Tekken 6 oli kovassa käytössä Sebastianin olkkarissa ja jossain vaiheessa ohjain tietysti työnnettiin mulle. mietin siinä että Bassen bileissä on vähän silleen 'ulkomailla' että tulee usein kokeiltua ihan uusia juttuja. osa vieraista on samoja mutta paljon vaihtuukin - mutta se erilaisuuden tunne on jännästi läsnä. en tapaa samoja tyyppejä missään muualla - lähinnä vanginvartijoita ja jotain bjj-vääntäjiä. tai muuten vaan ihan eri alojen ihmisiä. niin sit keskustelut on aika erilaisia kuin yleensä mun normipäivänä. se on virkistävää. ja en ollut Tekken superstatra - ylläri. painoin nappeja kyllä hämilläni mutta viimeistään siinä vaiheessa kun vastustajan eukko otti päänsä irti ja alko hakkaa mun hahmoo sillä - olin pihalla.

VV:n synttäreillä oli ekstra ilonaihetta koska sankari ja poikaystävänsä ovat menneet kihloihin. ja oli tosi makeet erikoiset sormukset! iloni pariskunnan puolesta oli vilpitöntä. me oltiin neiti R:n kanssa tehty yks viihdelehdenkansi silleen että VV:n kuva siinä Spockin paikalla, kun siinä olis siis Kirk & Spock. siitä tuli ihan hauska - harmi ettei sitä nyt voi tähän työntää. väännettiin myös isohko kokoelma turkkipoppia kasaan. siinä meidän lahjukset.

jee Hercules-seurani viime perjantailta kutsui mut johonkin syöminki-tilaisuuteen Savottaan huomenna. en olekaan ollut siellä ennen.

tänään pitäs nähdä Paavoa. parille Mascottiin siis. mietin kyllä jos vaan limua... joo. näillä mennään.

ihmisillä on ihme meininki nykyään FB:n & kuvien kanssa. jengi postaa kaikista kavereistaan kaikki mahdolliset kuvat bileistä jne sinne - ja tägää vielä varmuuden vuoksi että varmasti kaikille asianomaisten kavereille myös tiedotettaisiin. olen jo kauan sitten muuttanut asetuksia niin ettei suurin osa kavereista nää musta tägättyjä kuvia. mutta sen ei pitäisi olla tarpeen. mitäs jos mä rupeisin uppaa kaikki bile ym kuvat fb:seen...tägien kera...missä kohta joku älähtäisi? ai miten niin oli ajattelematonta postaa sun känniörvellykset ja homoeroottiset seikkailut kaikkien kaveriesi (ja työkaverien ja sukulaisten...) nähtäville? se on kiva että FB:ssä on tuo mahdollisuus tehdä valokuvakansioita mutta hei se on vitun julkinen internetti. vaikka rajatulle joukolle teoriassa mutta se on aika teoreettista tosiaan - mistä lähtien ihmisillä ei ole ollut mitään kontrollia siihen millaisia kuvia niistä julkaistaan? nimenomaan JULKAISTAAN. se kuva-albumi kirjahyllyssä tai tietokoneella on ihan eria asia kuin FB. jengi on niin netti-illiteratee vielä ettei tajua mitä tekee. prkl. en kohta enää suostu kameran eteen ja olen ilonpilaaja.

yritän valita uutta kohtuuhintaista pokkarikameraa....ei oo helppoa.

things change. but not for me.

so the weekend rolled by fast. i had an early wake up on friday to go help miss R moving. she moved to Haaga, maybe about 6km's from me. the new flat is in the 3rd floor, so i got some exercise. but i dont think my talent is in the moving business... :D

the new place is nice though, a lot of light, enough for one person for sure.













Sebastian had one of his notorius parties that night, starting at 4pm so i went straight there. had a very good time and found myself in the gay bar Hercules at 2m. i had never been there before, but it was as described. only a couple women besides me, and a hundred guys - no one interested in me one bit. which is nice for change.














Hercules



















i slept so late today i shouldnt need more sleep for a week... as far as new tv series findings go... oh well. Whitechapel and Being Erica are alright - but not amazing by any means.

the trailer for Love is visually pleasing, and the music by Angels and Airwaves is good. nice trailer to look at.

new week ahead. i wonder if its the same as previous. and the one before that...